|
i rock your socks, babyyy |
Disclaimer
Find your way darlinz..
cos tts wd lifes abt.
finding your way.
|
Monday, February 26, 2007
24th feb 2007 hse first tym broken insyd after soo long
Monday, February 26, 2007
k chingay parade just overall was great... for the fact tt i was ushering the VIPs. up n dwn Marriot Hotel. yeah it went well.. i went to his hse.. had a gd tym in fact..at first.. u noe sth .. u haf no idea wd it feels like to see ur face again after soo bloody loong. all kinda emotions were runnin insyd me n ok thnks alot fer whackin me wif tt towel.. it was painful. happy now?? heheheh so wd exactli was my purpose to cum over.. as u suggested.. ive no idea. i was just oh so excited by e idea of seein u in person after way long last yr. did it mean Aniting to u???? i dunt noe. so ok wd i did was i mistake i shdnt haf hugged u ok. im sorry bt wd kinda abnormal person DOEST RETURN A HUG?? tell me??? u jus stood thr lik a stone? I FELT SO FKIN DUMB STANDIN THR WAITIN FER STH TO HAPPEN. it was just instinct based. evyone hu noes me noes tt i do wdever i feel like doin whnever i feel its ryt wth do u take me for? ok fine mebe u were shocked? mebe u didnt want me to hug u mebe u wd?? WAAADDD? i dunoe n u didnt even SAY ANITING LA DUDE? wtf is rong wif u? u stand thr speechleess?? whn i asked u a simple qn?? would it hurt soo much to open ur mouth? u noe how it makes ME feel? like as if I WANTED ALL THIS ONLY.. me n onni me.. doin wd i want n u just pityin on me.. like wtf da? wtf? even if u seriousli religiousli HATE ME. .just say so.. show sth..do sth..dun just STAND THR LIKE THRS NO BLOOD RUNNIN INSYD OF U tts exactli wad u did. u wannoe noe how tt leevs Me feelin? like shit. ok fine.. so ur neighbours were wathcin n all tt bullshit.. bt y SHOULD I CARE? tell me?? whn was e last tym u REALLY TRULLY cared fer me??? did u care.. whn u did all tt u did... mths ago?? u didnt.. BT I DID. n stil do. i stil do damnit! I STIL FKIN DO CARE ABT WTF U THINK. ABT YOU YOU YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU bt u.. u leev me goin nuts all over again... why??.. is thr lotsa hapipness u feel in seein me like this? i seriousli fkin hope NOT. k i ws so embarassed n fkn ashamed i cudnt even look up to ur face. n all u cud bloody say was... "anitin.. msg or call me..." even thn i gave a sarcastic reply.. n thrs no bloody reaction. seriousli.. DO I LOOK LIKE A DUMB BITCH TO U? wd are u thinkin?? is thr aniting ur fkin hiding? JUST TELL N DUN PLEASE DUN DO THIS TO ME. ive seriousli nvr felt soo fkin dumb in my life. "I wonder what you take me for.. I wonder wtf is goin thru ur mind.. Ever since i met you I CANOT FUCKIN GET YOU OUTTAF MY BLOODY HEAD. Im left CONFUSED, PAINED, HURT BROKEN n ful of qns yet AGAIN. Im not asking for much at all.... Would you PUH-LEASE, tell me whats goin on????? Please just let me noe wtf ur thinkin.. n seriousli ... it aint no matter whether its gona hurt.. cos YOU noe.. tht ive bn thru worse." do i cum across as sumone desperate to u? or are u doin all e FEELING INSYD n not SHOWING aniting outsyd? so wd other excuses do u haf to give this tym.. n go "u haf no idea wd I was feelin" u wanna noe y not? U WANNA NOE Y I HAF NO IDEA.. cos u FUCKIN DUN TELL ME LA ASS! u fkin just dun tell me aniting.. n leev me feelin worse thn b4.. y like tt? tt was e first qn i asked u.. whn u sudenli appeared.. WHY LIKE TT? n u wanna noe wds soooooo contradictin now.. im here feelin soo fkin ful of shit.. bt i can stil smile thinkin of u n ur comforter... ur pillows u didnt wan me to hold ur bloody door which i thought i spoiled.. us runnin fer e door whn we both knew uv gt no keys. wd a dae ah? happy n fked up all together. is it my fault?? shd i not haf spoilt it? YOU TELL ME. i canot even cry in peace. cos thrs no fkin tears in my eyes. n y m i so stubborn? y dun i just let go. cos i SIMPLY CANNOT. cos u fkin mean sth damnit. u mean sth. |
Profile
Julie is e name Twenty is e age Twenty Eighth July is e day Fadie is the bestie And of course. i'll rock your socks, baby Links
Fadie |
Shah |
LesBie |
Shilacreamz |
Zuradarlz |
Zizified |
Ain |
Azreen |
Fairuz |
Jamz |
Salena |
Vivien |
Teresa |
Yiling |
Tagboard
|
