im nt really sure wht im looking for.

lotsa randomness.

thoughts ive pushed ryt to e bac of my head

are all resurfacing again.

e old. familiar pinch. once in a while.

like u noe. in my head.

it feels as though.

im just goin thru a phase.

its all gona end soon.

n thn im bac to normal.

like hu i was. n how its bn all this while.

n thn i think.

wds "normal"?

like im waitin for sth

embracing myself.

mike told me sth today.

at werk.

it just knocked me off.

n i was surprised at e sound of my response.

i sounded as sad as how i felt.

[now im startin to sound like bella frm twilight.

m readin new moon btw. 2nd bk in e series.

finishin it. cant wait for e 3rd one]

yeah. n i gues he saw me sad.

hahahahah. n thn i byt evriting bac

n just cont to werk.

thrs no more challenge at werk.

fun is thr. bt it just gets harder to go

to werk. n hope whn e hell i get home

n whn i do get home.

i pour my face into e book

n next thing u noe. im awake n its tym

to see whts for brkfast.

alot of "wht ifs." "wd wud it b like"

here i m bloggin at 2.05am

wif my half finished nasi goreng by my syd

contact lenses givin me blurry vision

i feel like seeing amulu.

bt thn. even tt doesnt seem eventful.

m takin off next mondae

to go to jb wif e mummy.

hopefully thts sth to look forward to.

to think of goin thru e rest of this wk

til sundae makes me wanna jus

ouh. i juz rmbred jaffu.

on a pleasant note.

he was my victim

whn i had cramps at 4 am.

i tot i was goin to die.

cos i nvr gt cramps at e wee hours b4.

n hu tot it was a gd tym to msg. jaffu.

hahah. poor thing. bt was nice to me tho

for e next few daes. hehehehe.

oh well. im off now.

a lil more of new moon.

n il b awake at 11 to go to werk.

n oh did i mention e maids. bac.

to save me A LOOOT OF TROUBLE.

no hse werk. no cleanin cookin nth.

its all done b4 im awake.

feels gd. bt she leaves b4 im awake.

so i wake up to an empty hse again.

used to love it.

nw its irritating.

mummys aslp now

sister gave me a fright a while ago

by appearin besyd me

to haf sum nasi goreng.

idiot. n of cos im listenin to

on repeat. it makes me think of vampires

really hot loookig gd looking ones

like edward cullen.

losta loves

muackz

[tts wd they call me at werk. now.

hahaha]