2007.. dont hurt me no more.

2009-07-08T18:46:00.002+08:00

yes ppl.
i have officially moved to livejournal.
wont be updating in here animore.
bye bye to blogspot afta 5 long years.

yesh, my birthday is coming.
n what birthday without a wishlist ryt?
hehekz.

things i want for my birthday,
of cos some may not b practical.
bt a girl can dream can't she?

JULIE'S 20TH BIRTHDAY WISHLIST. =)
1. a huuge bag. for sch.
2. a new makeup bag [mine is gone with e wind]
3. Davidoff Coolwater Perfume
4. JapaneseCherry Perfume [bodyshop] [u can add in other stuff frm e packgae as well] =)
5. Laptop Skin
6. A NEW HANDPHONE. [k this goes to my dad la]
7. A sony cybershot digicam. [daddy again]
8. Cardigans & tubes in various colours.
9. A pedicure / manicure session [with my girls. =)]
10.I WANNA SHEESHA ON MY B DAE!!!!!!!!! =)

Il leave it at 10.
Cos seriously ryt now i cant think of aniting else.

turning 20 is almost like
just any other birthday.
a year older.
lets just hope god knocks alot more sense into my head.

mebe il b alot more wiser.
in evryting i do.
less clumsier. less dumber. less at being an epic failure at DIRECTIONS.
yeah. hahahha.

n ppl. to all my lovely classmates
who wanted to attend the MUSICAL.
i sincerely apologise!!!
i couldnt get enough tickets for u guys.
apparently all tickets have bn sold out.
which is a gd sign in a sense that. its gona b house full on that day.
bt yeah. im sorry guys. i felt seriously bad
whn peiling asked whn she needs to pay me e money. =(

bt COME ON.
its julie here. im gona b in friggin NYP for e next 3 yrs.
with alot more performances cuming up.
so yeah. many other opportunities to cum watch k?
once again. im really sorry.

one great news b4 i end my final entry in blogspot.
HAYABUSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA,
yeah. tts all.

so see ya arnd ppl
lotsa love
hugz n kisses
muackz
julie.b

2009-06-30T12:24:00.000+08:00

RIP MJ. the world will nvr forget u.

hws things bn?
ok la. H1N1 gt the worst of evryone
one week of no sch.
bt as usual im bac in here. to fin up e projects.

TRANSFORMERS. REVENGE OF THE FALLEN.
was fantabulusoooooo!
with minzi. on sundae.
was a gd dae.
brkfast in e am. at 10 ish.
studyin n evryting. thn an evenin show.
:D :D :D :D
bumble beeeee. megan fox. n of cos.
fadies new love interest. josh duhamel! =)
shia lebouf is also good la . =)

next up. a must watch will b
GI. JOE. anione? prolli ask kather.
channing tatum. woohoooness.

its gona b exams / presentations
full throttle once sch resumes on 6th july. =(
bt oh wel. lookin forward for it all to b over.

raya is on e way.
sumhow tts not comfortin bt I WANNA JLN RAYA!!!!
hehheheheh. i miss jln raya-ing.
heheheheh. yay. sth to look forward to.

musical is less thn a mth away.
to all those hu stil wanna cum.
pls head to pasir ris elias cc for e tics.
for those hu have ready confirm with me
thank u soo much guys. appreciate ur support!

bn into the local movie thingie lately.
jack neo films. damn funny. n really entertaining.
"just follow law" & "one more chance"
m gettin hooked. hehehehe.

boyfies surprise b dae prty went ok.
gues sum things just dun happen the way we expected them to. =(
have sum pics will upload soon.
hope u had a great one boyfie.

oh ya. MIND CAFE.
with e bebs. nina shila ain n fadie.
fun fun funnnnnnnnnn
awesome food.
n funny games. games we didnt noe.
games we knew. funny shit la.

fadie n i headed to funan afta tt
for those hu haf seen my fb
will noe abt e vids we made.
hehehehehe. crazy us =)

i noe i did say im gona make a wishlist for e b dae
for anione hus readin to get me aniting on e list =)
bt seriously. thrs no mood for it nw.
so yeah. hold on for a while more.
it will appear.

catchin up with fefe afta a long tym has bn good.
thr needs to b a catchin up to b done with rami mami!
m sorry beb. wil contact u soon . hhehehe.

aisha akkas ROM went great!
e woman is now OFFICIALLY MARRIED!!!
shah n i were e last to leave e plc
alot of crappin n laffin amongst e 5 of us
afta a very very long tym.
nw cant wait for e wedding.

speakin of tt. my old tym gd fren
nazrin. shes gettin married next week.
nt sure if i can go for e wedding.
cos frm wd i noe im gona b havin rehearsals on sundaes as well.
so yeah. CONGRATS TO U DARLIN!!!! =)

n e dad. tol my aunt.
tt hes found me a groom.
n e aunt announced it to evryone at aisha akkas plc.
i nearly dropped e food outta my mouth
pls daddy. dun even dream abt such things until ive gotten my degree.
thank u very much.
evil mummy was laffin at me all e way
must have bn my reaction. =p

like i tell all of my gd frens
if sumdae u go under ur blk n u
see julie with luggages n looked damn depressed.
u noe why. n what u shud do. =)

hmmmm wd else.
nth. so buhbye.

missing diddulicious. =)

lotsa love
muackz
julz.

2009-06-25T10:56:00.002+08:00

ok ppl!
heres a real quick one.
i have to...
sweep e floor. mop e kitchen.
hang out clothes.
take dwn clothes.
wash the toilet.
shower. glam myself up
n head to fort canning.
for my cousin's ROM.
by 12 pm.
n its 10 57am. -_-
good luck to me.
urgh.

btw. im gona b movin to lj pretty soon.
yeah like finally!
i noe nina shila n fadie all waiting.
gimme a while k
ive bn loyal to blogspot for abt 5 years now.
so yeah. whahhha
tym for a CHANGE!!! =)

lotsa love ppl.
gtg nowwwww
muackz.
julie.b

[ps. waitup for e wishlist k. hehekz.]

2009-06-18T23:31:00.006+08:00

i looike. this is tired me. with no make up. n sunny sunshine fadie. =)

mr sun. sun. mr. golden sun.

this was e same dae. i lost my slipper.

i accidentaly left it underneath a table besyd me at wdlnds library.

i like e carpet. so took em off. walk to another table. n realise later

tht i onni haf one slipper.

took me a long tym to take my other one bac. cos e girl thr tot i was starin at her.

n of cos. fadie cudnt stop laffin.

this was a fkin gd dae. with e gang. =) with my lesbie.

mcm pengantin baru. weeeeee.

okokok updates.
n all e other pictures wil cum.

dun ask me whn. juz no tym now.

its e HOLIDAYS BAYBEH,
hmm lets see,

monday e 15th. i went to sch

tues i was in sch as well. wed oso in sch.

tml gona b in sch. n omg.

e whole of next week as welll.
yay! wd a fantabulous holiday yawwww!!!! -_-
yeah. 5 projects. over 2 weeks.
bt oh wel. i wil stil find tym for my enjoyment.

like e last minute meetup with sumone yest.

whose tire puncture cos of my EXTREMELY HEAVY WEIGHT!
yeah. i had a great dae. thanks to a great person. yeah.
moral of e storey : spore roads n julie. damn far away. thanks.

rehearsals. rehearsals. rehearsals.

yeaps, its cuming!!!
DREAMS.HOPES.PASSION. THE MUSICAL.
26th of july 09.
raffles hotel jubilee hall.
2 pm - 5 pm.
anione hus interested. juz msn me okies?
heheheh
its bn gettin more n more intense.
alot of excitement. bt wel. as e dae wears on
e energy level of evryone jus kinda sinks.
n thn we all go
"NOBODY NOBODY BT U!!!"
dance n sing like crazy. =)

n CONGRATS TO KATHER
hu has finaly ORDed.
ur a freee man now! hehehe.
n CONGRATS TO DIDDU.
hu wun b readin this.
im missin e fella already. sumwhr in tekong.
gettin tortured i tink. ='(

STAGEARTS CAMP 09.
fun or what!?!?!
tho exhausted frm e musical rehearsals.
me angel n zizi managed to get our asses bac
to camp. whr we started with e NIGHT WALK.
CRIME HUNT THINGIE.
really a cool concept. sth i haven heard of.
n boy did i haf funnnnnnn. hehehhehe.
one thing tt ticked me off.
ppl hu shower at camps.
esp gals. hu take their own swt fkin tym .
whn ur at camp. U THINK ABT OTHERS AS WELL.
me n angel were waiting for abt an hour.
bth of us eventually fell aslp durin tt hour.
n thn jack came to say tt e guys toilet was available.
baah hahahhaha. one thing abt guys toilets = nt clean. nt nice. at all.
hahahahha. bt i had great fun.
e next dae. all e acting. improv stuff. n crazy laffing.
trust stagearts to craze things up. =)

DIDDULICIOUS FAREWELL.
e gang minus e "na"s plus fadie.
met up at clark quay.
ended up at arab street. thanks to fad.
n boy. tt was one hell of a "NO SECRETS LET IT ALL OUT" dae.
hehehehehhe. we shud do this more often ppl.
mebe this tym with e addition of e "na"s bt without diddu. ='(
i didnt cry. like all of u tot i wud.
its onni NS. nt like migratin to UK or sth.
wel. wd with e "those hu go NS. change whn their bac"
its true. bt diddu. ITS DIDDU LA. haiyo. no such thing. heheheh
i noe he had fun. n i noe he'll miss e gang. like hw we miss him. =)

hmmm.
todae was like e butt cramp dae.
bt worth it. cos WE ARE 99.09% DONE WITH STATS SPSS PROJ!
give it up for caleb dor julie n evelynn yawwwwwwwwwwww.
hahahhahha. frm 10am. - 5 pm.
chiong ah! nw just a few adjustments n we gona
just forget abt stats for e rest of our lives. [hw i wish!]
decyded to dinner at mac. thn sumone suggested
we sit by e koi fish pond. chit chat.
hehehhehe. started with evelynn me pearlyn shee min n hong xuan.
ended with juz evelynn me n pearlyn.
half e tym we thinkin of soakin our feet.
thn music n singing. n chit chat til
we gt irriatted with al e lalats.
decyded its tym to head home.
heheheeh nt bad. e sch has a nice plc to chill afterall.
minus e lalats. annoyin lalats.
hehehehe.

so tml. econs!
n int. web. can i say i hate e intranet sites.
useless bitch sites. thanks.
AZIZI ZEN ZWIERS. pls take care of urself!
thank u very much. hehehehhe
*hugz*

lotsa love ppl,
muackz
julz.

OMG. DID I MENTION I TALKED TO
PRASHANT AFTA DUNOE HOW LONG!!!
my preshhy. prashant ashoka.
god i missed him!!
we talked n NTH HAS CHANGED I TELL U!
e gunduuu saamy is stil gunduuu!!!
hehehehe. rembrin e sec sch daes over e fone
in e RC in sch. hahahahha. i was laffin like mad.
in hopes to meet soon. heheh =)

ok nyts. slpy.
mooooooooooo.
booooo. i meant. bye.

2009-06-17T13:45:00.005+08:00

yeaps. i noe i have tons to update on.
bt currently im drownin in projects.
juz taking a 5 min break to fin this quiz.
sudenly e bestfriend is into the QUIZ thingie. =p

1. Besides your lips,where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
forehead. =) mcm so loving ah. haha

2.How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
y must dream of him!! of all ppl!! haiyo!

3.Who was the last person you took photo with?
angel. shikin. zizified.

4.Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
i=m not sure. haha.

5.Would you ever donate blood?
yeaps. just tt e folks dun like e idea. =

6.Have you had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex?
yeaps

7. Do you want someone dead?
hmm. not really

8.What does your last msg says?
"aaaaaw. hehe. ilut!

9.What are you thinking right now?
my boyfie has his girlfriend. hehekz.

10.Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
hmmm yea.

11. What is the tyme u went to bed last night?
1 am plusplus?

12.Where did you buy the t-shirt you are wearing now?
ITE - VTC STUDENT SEMINAR 2007. t shirt. gt it frm sch.

13. Is someone on your mind?
hmm lets see. fadie. boyfie. lesbie. irin. WAAHIDDU!!minzi. mum. dad. sis. yeah.

14.Whos was the last person who texted you?
sab sab ooi!

Tag 6 random people to do this survey:
boyfie
lesbie
minzi
kavitha
shila
zizified!

16.Who is no.1 having relationship with?
e princess!

17.Is no.3 a male or female?
female

18. Is no.4 single?
nope.

19.Say something about no. 5
my crazy gd fren . frm ite!!! lluv ya baybeh!

20. Describe no.6
my one n only zizified. fren of a few yrs! crazy crazy crazy! loving caring n truly understandin!

yeaps.
i sudenly hate skype.
i gt ppl i duno just add me n go
HIIIII. =.=
musical rehearsals. [wil tell u more!]
5 projects.
2 weeks. [so called holz. bt im bac in sch evydae.]
n SHAFIS B DAE!!!
whoa . like e bestie said,
i m a BZ WOMAN.
muackz
JULIE.BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB

2009-06-09T13:43:00.002+08:00

nw this. is a nice picture.

i hate statistics.

tts it.

tts al i wanted to say.

i wil blog afta thurs.

once al e exams are finaly over.

holz are crammed with projz.

musical rehearsals.

im lookin forward to wed n thurs.

afta stats shit i shal meet my bestie.

my one n only. cos she, more thn ani other person,

is one who can make my dae, just by being herself. [a clown]

n thurs. afta HTML shit.

meeting washananashe. with e bestie too.

sendin off the "bloody bugger" to NS.

heheheh, I LOVE YOU DIDDULICIOUS.

so till thn.

see ya folks.

im temperamental.

n i complain abt evry single thing in e werld.

n at tym sliek this.

e bestie. wants to slap me. ='(

kesian k

lotsa loves.

hugz n kisses.

muackz

julz. julie.b.

btw. flyer visit was AWESOMENESS.

minus e fact tt y geng jahat wasnt to b seen aniwhr. ='(

2009-06-04T23:47:00.003+08:00

i step into e hse n my sis goes
"akka u shud congratulate me.
ive just started a facebook acc"
-_- =.= "wtf!?!"

n oh did i mention
whn she opens the door she went
eh i bought rambutans.
hahahah random woman.

wel todae.
hehehe. supposed to b
shoppin like mad dae.
with no money. 0-()
nt exctly la.. had e cash. jz not enuff.

while waitin for e bestie i go
jln jln at e john little sale at e atrium. at sch.
haha. impulse shoppin.
a cute top n undies. =)
im a happy woman.

we were headed towards town.
a decision made in e train frm yck.
n thn . bishan arrives.
suden talk abt e cirle line
n poof we are outtaf e train b4 it closes!
heheheh. crazy last min ppl like us..
decyded to go try e circle line. to vivo.
heheheh. circle line noobz.

lunch at banquet..
jlnjlnjln. minzi arrived.
late as usual. n we jln jln more.
tried on this damn hot sexy top frm
eh i forgot e name of e shop
yeah. wil go bac to get it once i get e cash. yippies.

decyded to head to e deck
lotsa random qns. answers.
restin. camwhorin. singin.
n BLOWIN BUBBLES.
wel. onni i did tt. went to toys r us
to get it. hehehe.

i had a gd day.
given tt its my onni relax day.
haha. came home with e bubbles.
if i dun slp tonyt ima go blow bubbles.
weee. hehehe.

MY BESTIE'S FUNNY MOMENTS.

♥♥FadieFadhilah says:

eh! you know what happened yest!
i hear sth jiggling outside
at 11pm
then i was like fuck, what sia.
i hear sth jiggling!
like a bracelet thing
but very loud
so, i was armed with a bamboo stick, went out on my own
and guess what was there?
a lost cat.
0_0
i think it was afraid of me.
cause i carry the bamboo stick and all
poor thing

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
whahahahhahahahahah
my sister n i are laffin
whahahha
wtf?
can i copy paste thing into my blog entry

♥♥FadieFadhilah says:
eh i need to be armed okay!

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
this woman ah!!!
makin me laff like mad luh!!!!

oh wait e FUNNIEST PART

♥♥FadieFadhilah says:
then my mum came out of her room and then she said sth classic, " you hanging clothes outside now uh?"
-_-
at 11pm

whahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahah
didnt i tell you ppl??
my bestie is a crazy woman?
yeaps.

hahahahhaha.
poor kitty.
wel. now.im off.
pics will b up tml.

weekend is abt abt stats.
cos i suck at it.
myt head to e flyer.
to meet my lovelies.
miss em really very much.

lotsa love baybehs.
muackz
julz.

2009-06-03T13:45:00.004+08:00

im kinda frustrated.
with all thats goin on.
n my slpless self.
ica. ica. ica.
aaagrh.

im dyin for e holz 2 cum.
n its e GSS!!
im sooo in e mood for sum gd ol shoppin with e bestie.
really will tk a whole lot of load off my chest.
yeps. im tt kindaf person.
new clothes. tings. keep me smilin all dae.

so far. im done with
econs ica [sucked, cudnt understan wtf they wanted.]
pom ica [thank god. e chaptors i had at e bac of my head came out.]
eff comm [e next one is cumin, sian.]

left with my worst nytmare. now.
stats. next wed.
i haf abt a week, to buck up.
can luh?? positive. stay positive.

hw its bn like these pass few daes.
hectic nk mampos la.
rehearsals. cca. sch. icas. tutorials.
seriously fad. tml i wanna meet u. n we go shopiin.
or aniting else, juz no thoughts of sch ok. pls. need it.

photoshoot at 158 kallang WAY.
was ,. hmm. e place. ulu nk mampos.
dearest shikin [my co actress. aka bestie in e drama]
tol e taxi driver kallang "lane"
n we had a tour of kallang industrial park
to find out tt thrsrs no such plc.
n its atcualy kallang WAY. heheheh
e buildin is seriusly scary.
like u feel like ur in this virtual game plc
u dunoe waanna turn left or ryt.
all gloomy n dark n tons of doors n narrow corridors.
nt to mention the place is STUFFY nk mampos.
bt of cos e room was airconditioned.
if not arnd 30 ppl wud haf suffocated n died.
no more musical. nomore me to blog abt this.
abt how i died. hahaha.

oh wel. yeah. kinda tied up with evryting.
im relieved n abit. abit abit dissapointed.
tt i didnt get selected for a SA annual produciton.
bt their rehearsal dates are jst as hell-ish.
as e musical ones. so thank god. la.
we both need a rest eh zizified?
hahahaha. bt i love e production theme. e plot.
is wooooweeeeee woohoo. yeah.

shafis b dae is cumin.
i dunoe wd to get my boyfie.
esp whn i noe most of my june allowance
is gona b spent shoppin like mad.
n thn oh. so much for tinkin im gettin e money tonyt.
dads pay is on e 12th. boohoo. ='(

k im leavin e hse
cos e weather is bac n screamin like tml al gona die
i shud haf stayed at sch.
so much for a bit of rest at home.
fk luh k,
fk.
home = peace?
my ass.
my fkin friggin big ass.

2009-05-30T20:24:00.003+08:00

my mad moments
at wdlnds library.
of cos e bestie was nearby.
whn she saw me doin my dynamic pics.
she started laffin like a maniac.
whahhaha
im suppa stressed la k
nw my name is
julie e dua toncet bhai.

eh i seriously think i look cute la.

i dun usualy do this kinda stupid things.

bt heheheh. *tk tau malu *

LALAT. lalat. lalat.

rambut nk mampos lalat.

boo!

n finaly. me. b4 all this madness.

wel.

todae is sat.

tonyt is gona b spent doin acc.

tml i wake up at 1pm.

n do acc til i die.

mondae i haf acc ica.

n afta sch i haf to meet kaye abt e audition results.

if ur wonderin. this one is for SA drama annual production.

i noe ive gt e musical. bt wel. i wanna do both.

lets see whthr i do get in. if i dunt. nvm. thrs another tym.

turs i haf PHOTOSHOOT!!! *weeeeeee

first tym in my life.

im gona haf professional makeup n stuff. weehees.

bt wed at 8 am. i haf POM ICA.

afta stats la. bt stil,

mcm packed nk mampos siol.

why like tt?

evryone says WELCOME TO POLY LIFE BAYBEH!

yeah i need to get used to this sumdae.

yeaps.

i forgot to mention i met my amulu yest

n hes learnin to talk.

n he slapped me across e face liek 3 tyms.

n it hurt.

bt it sok. amulu mummy can stil go on n say

"akka adi!"

n he continues whackin me.

wth. heheh ei love him my baby boo. *moooches

ok let me pls survive this week. n

many more weeks

until i fin my dip.

im missin my long long convos with jaffu.

lotsa loves

hugs n kisses

muackz

julz.

2009-05-30T00:05:00.004+08:00

get this straight.
u are damn annoying alryt?
u dont know how to UNDERSTAND ME.

whn i cum bac home
at e wee hour of 12 midnyt.
i expect to sit bac. relax n take my tym to do my things
simply cos im FKIN TIRED.

u oready called me whn i as in e train
u gave me a list an ENTIRE LIST of hse werk to do.
b4 i go to rehearsal tml.
n wd tym does rehearsal start tml? 10.
u tink im gona wake up?
im exhausted. WHICH PART OF EXHASTED U DUN UNDERSTAN?

n thn u go ask me fkn annoyin qns
"why so late? thn hu ask u to join ccca
this is why i tel u not to join.
is it compulsary fo ru to have a cca.
thn how abt all ths hu dont have one?"
jzu cos i asked whthr i can fkin wash e fkin toilet on sundae
cos i noe i fkin wun wake up early to make sure e fkin house is sparklin spick n span
whn e uncle arrives to give e fkin pc.
like hes gona chk evry single room includin e toilet.

abt cca.
"i oready tol u not to join any cca. its so late"
all i said was "get used to it. i m part of a damn MUSICAL. which is NEXT MTH. "
wtf do u expect?
n she goes "u dun tok to me like tt ok? u dun ask me to get used to it all ok"
waah seriously WOMAN!?? ARE U NUTS?!? OR FKIN MAD ?!?! OR WDVER CCB THING?
ur being fkin unreasonable.
im not a fkin DOLL.
WDEVR U SAY I MUST FKIN SAY "OK MUM"
n u noe wd? tts wd i said iN e train,
"ok mum i wil do all e fkin hse werk. tmlmornin B4 I GO TO SCH"
which starts at 10. -_- AAAAAAAAAAGHR.

u go n fight with ur husband all e fkin tym .
n thn whn i cum home late tired like a worn out fkin idiot.
u cum n vent all ur anger at me.
n im supposed to go "OK MUM!??!?!"
u gt to b kiddin .

a cca is impt in POLYTECHNIC.
get tht into ur head.
ITS NOT LIKE SEC SCH WHN IL B HME BY 7 E LATEST.
gt tt into ur head.
in poly they treat u like ADULTS.
they make u fin up wdvere werk. til wdvere tym
cos they wan u to learn to MAXIMISE TYM . MANAGE UR TYM .
get tt in ur head.
ZULAIHA BEGUM BINTI MOHAMED HASSAN IS NT A FRIGGIN MACHINE.
gt tt into ur head.
i go to sch. i cum bac home
all i wanna do is makan. shower. homewerk. n slp.
n tts wht ANY CIVILISED HUMAN BEING WIL LDO.
its not like i dun do any thing in e damn house

FOR 4 FKIN MONTHS.
I WAS AT HOME
HU DID EVRYTING?
WHO!?!?!? ME. N ONLY ME .
ok e maid was arnd. bt hu did e grocery shopin.
hu did e cleaNin e hse. moppin e hse. washin e toilet?
me. cos i was fkin freeeeeeeee. with nth else bt hse werk./

NOW. I M GOIN TO SCH!
I END LATE. I GT WERK TO DO.
N TT WERK DOESNT INCLUDE FKIN HOUSEWERK.
so wht if im a gal? its not my fate ok.

evrydae i wake up at 7 am.
if sundae is e onni dae i can wake up at 1 pm
TTS WD I WIL DAMN WELL DO.
COS I NEED TO REST. I NEED TO SLP
I NEED TO FEEL RELAXED.
n even thn u go on n on abt
"so what? so wdt? stil must do housewerk wd?"
u haf to realise sth ah.

im nth like shah.
she doesnt do any fkin thing at all.
[no offence shah. bt tts e truth]
so GIVE ME SUM APPRECIATION
N PLS JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

i haf enuff in my head tryin
to manage my tym.
whn i cum bac home
i duwanna hear
u screamin at me.
screamin at anyone. for tt matter.
i duwanna hear. TML U DO THIS. TML U DO TT.
esp whn u noe im fkin exhausted.

seriously.
for all thos ppl hu keep sayin
im fit to b a housewife
cos of all the fkin hsewerk i do.
im not gona do aniting animore.
tts it.
n if tts gona beucm a huge prob.
n whn dad cums to say

"do u noe tt ur mum n i fight all e tym becos of u.?
u are e main source of all our problems
we always get into misunderstandings becos of u"

seriously. its nth new to me.
mcm. "shal i get out of ur lives? thn u guys wun fight?"

haish. kesian tau aku?
nk mampos la. serious.

im so lookin forward to tml
im gona go rehearsal.
go meet e bestie. minzi. study. makan.
either movie or lepak.
cum home at 9 30.
lock myself insyd my room.
n do accounts.

bye.

2009-05-27T10:41:00.001+08:00

cannot blog in sch. -_-
fkin slp deprived.
pics take years to upload.
thanks.

its pom.
i haven done any shit.
copy paste answers.
way to go julz. u wil pass with flyin colours.

was on e fone with e bestie at arnd 2 plus
tol her scully i wake up at 7 30 whn sch starts at 8.
n tts exactly wd i did.
think e mum gave up on me.
she used to try wake me up.
now no one cares.
so i jz happen to chk e tym n poof.
its 7 21. naabae.

thank god thrs no cca todae.
cos seriously. im shagged.
n i need to study for econs.
which sucks btw. did i mention?
im juz being annoyin n complainin abt sucky sch. bleargh.

just wanna say sth abt guys hu are in e rejected list.
n they become utter sore losers.
they becum bitter abt evryting
n thn they move on to take revenge,
n they dun ever give up.
to my affected gals.
IGNORANCE. is e key thing alryt?
uve moved on. u gt better things to do
let em assholes be wd they are.
gt it?

sab jus commented tt
i look like i wil slap anione
hu makes me angry now.
yeaps. def. mood swings gone wild.

i need my daily dose of caffeine.
starbucks anione? pls?

*screams THROW IT AWAY FORGET YESTERDAE! WE'LL MAKE A GREAT ESCAPE!!!*

2009-05-25T22:22:00.003+08:00

wel you can say im addicted to the song.

well. today was a great day
spent with e bestie.
at wdlnds library.
we did our werk.
took crazy dynamic pics for msn. [mine, e beloved uses adium]
we did manage to get atleast sum werk done la.
better thn nth at all. =)

met man for dinner.
thn they cabbed home.
i trained home.

sth to talk abt todae.
2 things infact.
i had a very disturbin dream last nyt.

shah. this is abt u. haha.
in my dream. u were goin to die.
im sorry. bt tts wd i dreamt. i cant control my dreams.
evryone knew. there was sth rong with ur bloodstream or sth
n anytym u are gona collapse.
n whn u do. tts whn u wun survive. [in my dream la. ]
so wd happens is tt.
u are stil up n about. u can walk n all
n evryone noes tt ur tym is nearin
esp me. n im cryin like a whoppari case. [u noe me well]
all i can think abt is. hw im gona cont with my life without u.
n ppl keep cumin. n its actualy sth like a "party" in our house
which for sum reason is HUGE. N NTH LIKE OUR REAL HOUSE.
like evryone is denyin e fact tt we are gona lose u.
ppl u n me both noe. n dun noe all juz keep cumin n cumin
n im desperately watchin ur evry move.
u noe e truth as well. bt u dun seem sad at all.
n wel u just keep givin me blank looks.
i go into sum huge room n msg fadie n keep cryin
mehru actually is tryin to calm me dwn
bt im like BT ITS SHABANA. WD M I GONA DO WITHOUT HER MEHRU? "
n sth like tt. yeah.

i woke up feelin like shit.
i tell u. shah. i myt b a fkin bitch at tyms
im nth like u in many ways unless u count our shared love for drama/acting.
i love you. very much. n i tell u.
the dream was so vivid.
the thought of havin to lose u was soo real.
it was soo close to havin lost u. n not knowin wd to do abt it. at all.
i love u very very much.
i actually called u juz now. u didnt pic up la.
i dun tell u this often cos we are both caught up with hell in e name of sch.
i love you very much. dun leave me k. yeah.

so yeah. 2nd. thing.
e "stepmum" [ I HAVEN GOTTEN USED TO TT WERD OK!]
texted me todae. surprised i was. indeed.
abt askin me to drop by at wdlnds to see farhana [stepsis]
cos shes learnin to talk. swt la kan? baby learnin to talk.
n thn she said she was lookin forward to see me n we cud chit chat n all
truth b told. she is definitely a nice person.
n im just wel sick n tired of pretendin not to like their family
or wdsoever.
the werd CHOICE is very prominent here.
bt haish. it feels nice. whn sumone msgs sth nice.
n yeah. sumhow i now. tt i wil grow gettin attached to e baby.
its this thing with me n babies. i love em. many2.
so yeah. hmmmm.

nt exactly an excitin dae.
bt seriusly. im dyin for e hols to begin.
i need a gd rest. i wanna slp all day long.
seriously. tts wd i really wanna do.
ive gt ICAs an audition rehearsals n confirm
durin hols thr are gona b tons of projects as well.
may god save me. make me pull thru pls. thank u very much.

sth to add before i leave.
* temptations suck *
e day i learn how to resist temptations
is the day ... er. i dunoe how to end this sentence.
so. buhbye for now.

lotsa love darlinz.
muackz
julz.

2009-05-24T22:41:00.002+08:00

yeaps. me before getin e unruly hair done.

1. My ex is still: arnd. sumwhr in this werld.

2. I am listening to: e mum naggin. n its irritatin e hell outta me.

3. Maybe I should: get out of e hse for good..

4. I love: my coffee. its gona bring me to heaven n keep me awake whn i need to b.

5. I don’t understand: why women haf to do housewerk -_-

6. I lost: my trust on u. n my wallet last month.

7. People say: julie is good at putin on a facade.

8. The meaning of my screen name is: my nick. n a line frm my poem.

9. Love is: pure seduction. *haha. random. tts e name of my perfume. *

10. Somewhere, someone is: thinkin of me? i dunoe.

11. I will always: think twice b4 buyin sth expensive. bt whn e bestie is arnd. sumhow it doesnt matter.

12. Forever seems: too long.

13. I will never ever want to: get married any tym soon. trust me.

14. My cellphone is: dyin with overload of forwarded msgs. i wil kill u jaffu.

15. When I woke up in the morning: i watched hiphop countdown. n missed the first song cos i fell bac aslp again. -_-

16. I get annoyed when: my mum nags. whn i hear her callin my name with tt irritatin tone. makes me wanna go. I DUWANNA HEAR U. OK. PLS. *covers ears with hands n looks away*

17. Parties are: fun fun fun! dance all nyt baybeh!

18. My pet(s) is(are): washananashe. its my bear.

19. Kisses are the best when: given to sumone hu is aslp. sumhow i like tt notion.

20. Today: was supper slack. didnt get anyting done.

21. Tomorrow: will b e opp. i b meetin bestie n we b muggin / werkin.

22. I really want: a waterbed. n chocolate served to me as n whn i like.

23. Really want to ask: WHY DOESNT MONEY FALL FRM E SKY!?!?!?

ok so yeah.
copy paste frm fadie.
mcm malas nk buat ape2
so juz did this.
n im plannin to fall aslp real soon.
to b able to meet bestie at 10 tml.

lotsa love ppl.
haf a great nyt.
n i hope ur mothers are not naggin. -_-
annoyin siol.

julie.b.

2009-05-24T15:23:00.003+08:00

wel helloooo!
bollywood nyt was indeed a blast!
tho e dance floor was kinda boring
bt other thn tt. e entire show. rocked!
the dances. the DRAMA!! BY YR 2 & 3s.
whoa!!! or wht??! heheheheh.

pics wil b up soon.
for e first tym i did my hair at e salon.
whahha with syeerah. a new found fren. =)
zizified became. azizi preity zin-tar.
ul find out soon .he won e best dressed btw. =)

bt seriously e highlight of e dae
wasnt e lookin gorgeous bollywood style.
it was. me fallin dwn at e carpark infrnt of my blk. -_-
a nasty fall i would say. n e best part
my dearest love, azizi,
whn i was despearately SCREAMIN MY LUNGS OUT
for him, on e floor, he was lookin up. left right. bt NT AT MY DIRECTION!
goodness. sumtyms i cud kill him .
n thn whn he saw me. soo cute la kan
he ran over n went "JULLIIIEE, WHAT HAPPEN? WHY U FALL DWN?"
yeah. i prayed this mornin tt i shud fall dwn. -_-
whahhahaha oh wel
n thn syeerah hu was in e taxi saw me
take my fall n hold out my hand screamin for zizi
n she went " u damn cute la"
thanks eh. thks.
n poor dee. hahahah. she was lost n i was supposedly gona save her.
she was on e fone with me. whn i fell.
n i gues e numbers were being randomly pressed in e process
so she was lyk "HELLO? HELOO? HELOO!? HELLO!?"
WHHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
i tel u. my ankle is hurtin lyk fk. bt all this is juz so funny.

tremendous fun at e bolly nyt.
tons of pics taken.
lotsa memories. im glad i chose to b in stage arts.
ryt frm e start. =)
its e only place u can go crazy. n its e norm. =)

th lepak abit with fin nigel zizi
thn met wid CHELLAMS!!
bn ages baybeh!
shes cumin over later. soo much to catch up on.

came home. n my dad nearly killed me
massagin my foot. cos e ankle hurt real bad.
i tell u. i was actually citin onto my cushion
to stop myself frm screamin out loud n wakin e neighbourhood up at 3 am.
i actually asked him "is this pain worse thn givin birth!?!?"
he didn tbother ot answer. hahaha.

sumhow. i cudnt slp.
called e bestie. hahaha.
sumone hus nocturnal.
u call her anytym frm 1 am to 4 am.
shud b awake. hahaha.
idiot was laffin liek a mad woman.
all e way whn i tol her abt my fall. hehe
atleast ive made her laff. so yay for tt. hehehe.

sumwhr in convo we talked abt e sarawak trip
n al our classmates. we haf a MUTHUSAMY.
n she refered to the "veshdi" as "white skirt"
whoa. cmi. laff n laff like mad
til my dad came in to ask why i wasnt slpin. whahhaah
a whole lot of yt memories. n thn at 5 i fell aslp.

i want to post my pictures.
im lazy. im sorry abt tt. mebe tonyt.
i haf econs ica on thurs.
n wd haf i done abt it?
wel. onni chaptor 1 done until e ppc curve.
die.

lotsa love
hugz n kisses.
muackz
julie.b

2009-05-22T17:57:00.000+08:00

n thn ah.

e pics take damn long to upload ah.

so ah. i da give up. -_-

fkin slpi.

slp deprived me.

shal blog. blabber. bitch.

durin POM.

2009-05-20T23:19:00.002+08:00

helo. lotsa things i wanna say.
bt let me sum it up with this.

i gt selected for e NYP MUSICAL. =)
i met nina afta a long tym . [wid shila]
i bumped into ANDYKUNDI! boy i miss my geng jahat.
eff comm speech went fantubulos!
i have been slpin for aprox 4 hours/dae for e past few daes.
aerobics is tiring. [HUEVER TOT SO? i tot mcm fun aje.]
i need to set my priorities ryt.
i need to manage my tym well.

lets just say tt i really do miss
the werking daes.
whn i compare sch n werk.
trust me. werk wins hands down
n those daes i kept lamenting abt how i wanted badly to go to sch.
n now. im lamentin on how bad sch really is.

fine. il stop.
this is sch. i gt to set things straight.
im seriously in need of time management
n tons n tons of slp.

so boyfie. im sorry.
i dunt ever want it to look like
im ditchin u guys cos ive gt to go for my
first rehearsal.
im pretty sure u all understan me.
i can go on n on abt hw i this that wdver n all.
i m bz. im tryin my best to handle evryting
to cope wth evryting.
id really love to just put it all at e bac
n join u guys as n whn we arrange stuff.
bt il b e one suffering in e end.
i noe evryone has sch evryone has wdever,
[i used to say all tht]
i regret nw. k. im sorry.
esp to u minzi. i gues cos i always go on abt
how ur not e oni one hu has probs.
nw im no different frm u.
im goin on n on abt how a bitch life realy is.
blah blah. so yeah.
to all of u. boyfie esp. im really sorry
dun get mad. dun b pisssed.
ilu.

n i promise. by the end of e week.
all my pictures wil b up in my blog.
its lackin my fave memorable pics.
my best pic so far n all.

thrs one thing i m lookin forward to tho.
this sat nyt. =)
Stage Arts Night. [i think tts wd its called]
tym to glam.

nyts ppl.
nt really in e mood ..

2009-05-16T20:44:00.003+08:00

wel. i have gone missin havent i?
sorry abt tt ppl.
julie da
bz nk mampos ah!
malas nk mampos. n wdever nk mampos u can think of.
its bn wd? more thn a week.
haha.

im just bac home frm sch.
SA drama session n thn lil bit of finishin up werk with zizi.
SA is definitely getin more n more fun=) yay.
makes me forget how sucky sch actually it.
like ive alwys said. my idea of a cca is just tt.
to make me enjoy myself amidst all e stress. so yeah.
crazy laffter. crazy acting. n of cos lotsa learnin. so yeah..

wds bn happenin so far?
parents have left for penang.
in fact they b cumin home tml nyt. haha.
i cant say i seriously miss them or anitin.
cos i bn really bz this one week theyve gone.
with late endin nyts almost evydae.
mcm no diff. unless u count in e mums naggy stuff.
hehe. she can b lovely too la..
whn she was leavin. she came bac into e hse
to hug me n went "i love u"
n e nyt before we had a misunderstandin abt sth.
hahah like fade always says.
my mum is UNPREDICTABLE.
nonetheless. love u mummay.

so. thurs was out with kather.
meetin up e darlin afta like soo many mths.
went to catch wolverine. n haha damn funny.
whn u haf 2 absolutely crazy ppl together
its just super fun la. hahaha.
lotsa talkin on my part. cant help it. im a chatterbox. =)
waolverine was like. woohoo. hahaha.
so thurs was fantabulous cos of hugh jackman n abdul kather. =)=)
mcm double happiness eh. hahaha.
n yeah. b4 i met him i was at yewtee. jln2 with sab.
we had desert at toastbox. i tell u.
e feelin ah. at tt plc. its just like homey.
soothing. niceynicey. n there we were sharin
ice jelly or sth i think. cos e weather ws killin us. heheheh.
ws gd beb. i wil cum yewtee often now. i like e plc =)

fri. a dae out with 2 of my bestest bitches.
e 3 of us have nvr gone out together. on our own.
so yeah. came this opportunity whr i need to shop
for my eff comm ica. haha. i need formal tops.
so minzi reccomended this fashion at bugis.
n there we headed with e bestie as well.
so 3 crazy women. lotsa jln2.
pokin fun at each other.
apparently fadie loves to bully minzi.
n wd do i do? watch e show! hehehhe.
so minzi goes "moodhevi! unnae enakku pidikelae!
veetukku podi! po!"
n fadie juz laughs even harder or plain ignores
since she doesnt understan.
of cos i tell her wd it is la.
bt heheheh extreme funnyness.
n minzi was completely helpless n went
'"y singtel?? tt tym i met u .. u were soo nice? wd happen now?"
wel. obviosuly no offence to anione wdsoever la.
we all loved each other. hahaha.
so while i try on e many clothes they chose for me.
both my babies go arnd lookin for other clothes.
whahhahah. e dae ended at coffee bean.
n of cos wd else wud we do whn fadie has her macbk?
hahahhah. photobooth loh!
n minzi was new to seein her face being distorted to crazy proportions.
n she was takin videos of me n fadie makin a fool of ourselves.
whahhahahaha. it all ended good. hehehe.
now i noe e best 2 ppl to bring along to go shoppin.
they are simply e best. =)

since e granma is arnd n mcm no one layan her.
i called e aunt n asked whthr we cud go for a nyt show.
any new movie wadsoever.
so decided on SARVAM [ARYAAAAAAA.. EN RAAAASAAAAAA]
so fadie n i rushed to gv yishun.
n thn whn we settled e tix. otw home
another impulse shoppin by e bestie.
we bth had victoria's secret silkenin body splash in our bags. =)
mine is called "pure seduction" n i tell u.
e smell. woohoo. can flyyyyyyy. hahahah
taxied home
n i dunoe wtf we were thinkin.
fadie n i started posin with SARONGS.
i noe. whn besties get together we do e dumbest stuff.
yeah. e many many pics will b uploaded by fadie.
chk out fb ppl. hahaha.
n thn she left. took e taxi.
just to call me bac n go
"zul !! i left my wallet at ur plc!!! "
it was together with e body splash thingie.
so i ran bac home to get it n thank all gods.
there wasa taxi ryt infrnt of me.
told e driver to hold on n thn e bestie eventually went bac home
whhhahahaha.
shud haf seen e gal. walkin cum slow joggin towards me.
kesian.

thn arnd 11 45.
e granma n me. we head to gv ysishun
meet up e aunt. caught 2 movies.
my first tym watchin fridae midnyt shows
was like omg nk mampos, soo suppa slpi!
cos e 2nd movie i'd oready watched with my dad last week.
so like. i took e tym to slp here n thr.
wd with e aunt n granma laffin like mad
durin viveks comedy stuff.. not much of slp
all rched home at abt 6am.
n i forced myself up n reached sch at 12 30pm -_-

so wd abt e 2 movies?
SARVAM? arya.
his character intro was like CAN I MARRY U PLS!??!
suppa fkin hot la siol!!!!
he came dressed up like this posh ne-yo-ish kinda style
with his cool suppa hot brown eyes
n killa bod. ppl. ARYA IS THE MAN . u gt to admit.
[of cos no one beats SURYA IN AYAN]
n haha. trisha dies sumwhr early in e movie
n e whole theatre is like "wtf!??! is this wd i came for? to see my trisha die?"
n i was like "HAHA. DIE READY. HAHA. HAHA. ALL CAN GO HOME NOW"
stupid. pls la. shes nt like DDG. shes juz ok. tts al.
bt u noe. e indian nationals hu wun understan
wd it is to behave like civilised ppl.
yeah. wdver la kn.?
thing is. e movie is suppa intense.
afta trisha dies.
bt evryting b4 she dies is SOOOOOO E ROMANTIC LA.
one i hate abt arya.
tt look he likes to haf like he cant b bothered to shave for hundred years.
startin of e movie soo clean n tip top n hot hot
n thn afta e woman dies. looks like wd he looks like in all his films. -_-
devadas looks alike.

n GURU EN AALU.
MADHAVAN n this woman who looks freakishly like trisha.
ABBAS. [old sch hottie. hus not hot animore.]

simple storey.
lotsa comedy.
anything with madhavan n his charmin looks
n gd actin. is like..
evrything mixed into one.
romance.love. hatred. all. evryting.

both movies haf great songs.
all my "song producers " out thr.
u noe hu u are
pls go dl evyting n sen em to me k?
love u love u love u. =)

nw. im so totaly gona shower n slp.
cos 4 hours of slp is not doin my body any good.

sth to add before i go.
bg hayabusa is fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine. yay.
n minzi. puhlease. DREAM ON!!!!
HEHEHEHEH

ps. I FINALY DOWNLOADED SKYPE!!!!!
skyped with SHAMZER! suppa fun loh!!!
hehehehehe.
n sth in german. for my non german ppl,

MEINE NAME IST JULIE

[pronounced as "MINE NAMA IST JULIE]
heheheheheh. yay.

lotsa loves baybehs!
muackz
julz.

2009-05-10T12:47:00.002+08:00

lotsa stuff to update on.
bt heres a quick one

NYP MUSICAL AUDITIONS

went fantastic. im in hopes of gettin in

WASHANANASHE GET TOGETHER

i love you guys. we had e best fridae nyt.

AMULU BABY BOO

hes discharged alrdy =)

BG.HAYABUSA

i hope evryting wil go fine.

todae is mothers dae.
i wish al mothers a fanatstic mothers dae
n to my own mum.
i wanna say many things to u.
we haf alt of our ups n dwns.
bt thanks thanks for evyting yaw.
i love u.
all i really wanna do is to make u proud.

lotsa love ppl
wil bac tonyt to elaborate hahahah

muackz
julz.

2009-05-08T12:24:00.005+08:00

well hello to the world. =)
im in a jolly wolly good mood.
currently at nyp library south wing [i think]
sch is over. yay.
im meetin my lovelies at arnd 3 30
at amk hub. =)

lets start with
STAGE ARTS DRAMA.
orientation.
awesome or whaaat!?!?!?!
lotsa lotsa crazy ppl.
new frens. old ones.
seniors. juniors. blh blh.
games. funny crazy acting.
n HELLOTSA LAUGHTER
enjoyed evryting.
n im suppa excited abt e productions
instore for us this sem.
thrs this NYP MUSICAL event.
first ever in nyp. n of cos I WANA JOIN.
auditions are later in e evenin.
goin with zizi. hopefully we gt it.
its really a huge event/production,
n wil do my portfolio alot of justice n of cos
all e experience n fun n drama. tts e most impt ting.
so this one im goin for it.

n thn thrs this ANNUAL STAGE ARTS PRODUCTION.
so wanna go for tt one too.
n i gt a crazy stare frm zizi . he went
"are u crazzy julz?"
n i was like. no.. i juz. wanna learn more n have fun!
n he was like
"julz. big productions mean evrydae rehearsals no matter wd tym u end sch.
it also means u haf to complete ur tutorials. proj. studyin n go for rehearsals."
oh wel. heheh
julie kn da excited.
so totally forgot e reality,
for a while sch just seemed like stage arts n nth else. :P
yeah. n i wil b dead thn.

bt thn again. duncha think tts wd life is all abt
balancing things. managin ur tym well.
n being an all rounder.
so as to get e best out of evryting u WANT n NEED. ??
im gona haf to learn sumdae to juggle my things
give sufficient tym for evyting n
do e best i can. in evyting.

bt of cos la. for starters one thing at a tym.
as it is. im almost strugglin.. okok no
im not strugglin. im juz tryin to get used to e fast pace
n b disciplined abt finishin up my werk.
n revisin wds bn taught.
ive bn out of e education system for a year.
so im tryin my best to move bac to e hectic werld of schlin.
so yeah. for now. just go for e musical auditions.
see whthr i make it. insha allah. i wanna make it.
thn il juz concentrate on this one. n sch werk.
shud i not get in. thn il audition for the stage arts production.
this or tt. =)

either way i wanna learn as much as i can =)
tts all e happy part.

sad part now.
my baby boo amulu has bn admitted into kk hospital.
sum nasty insect bite which caused an infection on his forehead.
n spread to his eyes. n the topper portion of his face is all swollen
to gigantic proportions. ='(
i nearly cried out loud n almost made a scene thr.
bt i controlled myself.
cos i love amulu. n my heart juz cudnt take it.
to see him like tt. seriously. cmi.
bt i didnt make a scene.
it wun b a nice thing to do.
n ok. i haf to cum out of this "cry at evryting" shit sumdae.

he was slpin whn i reached. bt whn he was awake
i had a clear view. n man. it hurt. goodness.
bt no matter wd my baby is stil my baby
a great big "AMULU" had him smilin.
n u can see he is clearly uncomfy with e drips tube on his hand
n he was like. "mum mum" whahha.
as usual. he was stil e same.
jz tt his face was swollen.
n amulus mummy was like.
"zul. todae hes so much beter. last nyt he face was even bigger"
i was tinkin. "ok thank god i dint cum last nyt. i wud haf cried like a mad woman"
bt hu cares nw
hes better. one more blood test result to go. be4 he can b discharged i think
so me n maami were gettin him to have his makan.
thn i brought him out fr a wlk all arnd e ward.
with his runnin n screamin n all.
hehehehe. love him mny2 la.
n this i gt to say.
whn i reached e ward.
thr was this kiddo.
hu was folowin me all arnd .
n i was lost. lookin for amulus bed.
i didnt notice
whn i finally reached.
amulis mum goes..
"hus this girl?"
n i turn. the gal is cute abt 4 yrs old.
n she immediately fires qns at me
"who are u? whr do u live? whr are u cumin frm"
n me anxious to see my bbay.
i wasnt payin attn.
n e gal kept folowin me.
n she go kachau all e other kids arnd.
n kena scolded by e nurse
bt stil go arnd kachau. -_-
it was my first tym at e childrens ward.
so i didnt noe wd to expect.
i tot its a hospital.
must b quiet. ppl kn sick? must rest
bt here!! gt kids runnin abt here n thr.
evrywhr!
n thr was this chinese boy. hu was supper defiant. n went
"lanchao la u" at e NURSE!
n tamil ah. u wil call this kinda ppl
"ADENGAA APIDARI"
i was soooo shocked
n thn i was gettin frustrated with e malay gal
hu kept shakin amulus bed n throwin his play things arnd -_-

one more storey. [hahaha loooong post eh?]
e baby next bed to amulus
was like a 30 day baby,
an indian family
e mother. was thr. n she was hoggin on e fone
while her cutey lil baby was CRYIN HER SMAL SMAL LUNGS OUT!
i duno WTF e mum doin..
il juz throw my fone sumwhr
n attend to my justborn baby.
so wd if ur tired.
UR STIL E MOTHER.
e babys cryin for god noes how many crazy reasons.
bt CARRY LA.!! kn new borns need all e warmth arnd
carry n hug hug n sing lullaby or cooo at e baby
STH! u just sit thr n talk on e fone n try tappin e baby
OF COS E POOR THING WIL CRY LA.
my aunt. hu cudnt tahan animore
actually went over to sayang the baby.
mcm she look afta all e way siol!
duneo wtf e mum doin.
damn small noe e baby. n i think gt multiple injections
n thn they take sth frm e bone marrow or wd
so obviously baby is hellotsa pain
n its shiverin la dae!!!!
haiyo. stupid indian woman. dunoe how to look afta her own child!
crazy idiot. thn i supose they had other kids to go fetch frm sch.
both hubby n wifey letf e plc
with my aunt stil carryin e baby
n sayin salawat n wdever nots. -_-
n thn later e parents of e baby didnt cum abc
bt e aunt n aunts bf came i think
atleast better la e aunt carried e baby n all.
nonsense siol.
n amulus mum actualy said tt durin e nyt e baby was cryin
n both papa n mama were actually SLPIN AWAY.
astagfirullla. how ah? hw u all can do like tt ah?
ur baby. NEW BORN BABY. onni 30 daes.
havin fever n wdnot. cryin out loud for e entire hospital to hear.
n u guys can actualy fall aslp?
i gt NOTHING. to say. -_-

aaargh. bt yeah. as usual e moment i see e many patients.
in e hospital. i start to regret even cumin.
n best part fad.
i called her to tel her tt im nt goin to watch wolverine afterall.
n was otw to kk to see amulu. this is wd she said.
"waah. all this while sumone in e hospital nvr go n see.
now baby kena admit go ah!! thn u said u wun even cum see me in a hospital
if i ever gt admited! bt baby can go see la?"

walau!! idiot.
ur being suppa unfair loh.
listen.
U ARE MY BESTFREN LA DAE.
e minute i noe ur in hospital i wil cum.
bt just e thought of u in tubes n wder sht
is scarin me n makin me tear NOW oready.
so tts y. if u ready not in a gd situation
n i arrive n start cryin like a bitch.
i think even ur MUM WIL DRIVE ME AWAY.

n thn hes at e hospital i noe.
bt u nvr tol me u were gona visit.
n i dun even noe which hospital he is in!
wth m i todo whn i arrive,
n if i see alot of tubes n blood streams n wd not
i myt scream n pengsan thr n thn. -_-
i think he wun ever msg me again afta tt. hahhahaha.

n puhlease la. this is amulu.
wd with e demam babi shit now.
i juz had to see tt he was alryt.
infrnt of my own eyes.
n i was fearin all e way in e bus.
whthr iwas gona see drips n tubes n wdevers.
bt he was onni a child so no sch things. thank god!!!

HAHAHAHA.
haish. hospitals.
they make me sad la.
i oni like to go see ppl in hospital
whn they haf just given birth to babies
thn its all smiles. n cute lil babies. yeah.

u guys noe wd?
my closest cousin. my dearest swtheart
even whn she was in e hospital i didnt go
cos i noe i wun b able to handle wd i see.
bt e moment she was home i was thr.
so yeah.

enuff talk abt hospitals.
wanna go do my AFA.
n thn oh ya. nxt week.
kather is bringin me to go watch WOLVERINE!!!!
yay! yay! yay!

lotsa love ppl.
ya allah. pls make sure tt my amulu recovers soon.
i wanna bring my baby go to habib noor once hes bac
thn we all go zoo. =)

muackz
julz.

2009-05-06T08:26:00.003+08:00

k im not in a gd mood
for one thing
lack of slp
second thing
e fkin rain.
third thing.
im 15 min late for stats tutorial.
whr i hate my tutor.
hu is conviniently onni teachin e left hand syd of e fkin lab
fkin naabae cheebai
dun excuse my french
becos im seriously frustrated.
nth shes talkin [SOOO SOFTLY]
TO HER OWNSELF. or rather to the left hand syd of e lab.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaafrh..
mebe i shud sit infrnt next tym
bt thn again i dun want to.
i hate her. haha. baah. wdever
n kav is sittin nxt to me
readin this so tt she doesnt haf to go to my blog
sum other tym to read up my entries.
whahahahhaha.
plans for todae.
go home afta sch. 12. n have lunch
n cum bac with just cm2.
to study for tmls ICA,
nt bad la. last nyt slept at 10 plus
woke up this mornin abt 4 plus
n started stdyin abit
e fkin internet is givin me LOADSAF PROBZ.
im gona kill sumone soon.
i haf to depend on macd wireless if this goes on.
fk.haish. e papa wun b happy. haish.
btw i gt him to print out allll my tutorials for econs
whahahah.
n i said "thank u dadddy!!!! hehehe"
n thn yeah. i fin at 8 tonyt. cca.
n thn hw to study e rest!?
walau.
OK NOW E TUTOR IS SAYIN TT SHE WAITED UNTIL 8.11!!!!!
WTH. n anibody lost
i m freakin lost baybeh.
nvm. ask sum1 later wth this woman was goin on abt.
hahahahah.
n fk. i atually cant afford to slack in this mod.
cos i hate e mod which means
HIGH PROBABILITY OF FAILING E MOD.
which MUST NVR HAPPEN
haiyooooooo
i hate u la. ok.
done.
ppl. ppl.
FRIDAE WOLVERINE!!!
must go. wil go. hahahah.
n i miss my sexy buaya.
whr e hell are u?
yesh u r doin ur webbies..
n im doin my sch werk
n currently azizi zizified is my library buddy.
n cca buddy
n of cos e evryting buddy since long tym ago.
whahahhha
love u zizified.
muakz
plp
im gona die in this mod now.
lets see if i understan aniting shes talkin.
hate her.
bye
muackz
julie.b

2009-05-04T20:39:00.002+08:00

hello!!!

we got IN!!!! HEHEHE,

we are nw part of STAGE ARTS DRAMA!

heheheheheheheheh. yay!

was lookin for "drama mama" images

n i found this tyra banks thingie. kinda funny.

n hahahhahaha. anyone cud b a DRAMA MAMA!

like me. or urself. or ur girlfriend. or ur boyfriend. etc etc.

hhehehehhe

of cos. we bth flyin now. heheh suppa happyy.

btw. ratna is gone. hahaha.

feels funny to cum home to an empty hse.

of cos. peaceful. bt of cos thrs no dinner ready.

n of cos. no1 is gona go "MAKAN JUL!?!?"
""MANDI DULU JUL?" "MENGANTOK YA JUL?"

WHAHHAHAHAH.

i gave her e card in e am. b4 sch.

we hug2. maaf2 n thn tok pics.n i left.

haha im makin a big thing out of nth really.

bt tts wd crazy ppl likE me do wd?

whahhahahah

my darlin sista SHABANA HASSAN.

decided tt todae was a perfect day

to accidentally take cm2's charger to sch.

instead of hers. -_-

mornin2 ah. make me tension

n she can stil protest.

"akka. bt e one i took can fit into my laptop noe!?!?"

u tell me. hw e fk tt can happen.

cm2 is fujitsu n hers is compaq. -_-

of cos give her sum scoldin. n thn im like

dun care whther u can make it or not.

11 o clk u cum to my sch n give me my charger.

n shes like. "my sch gt rule cnt go out.

i meet u at e gate." waaah. nvm. relaxx..

thn i ask her hw long her brk. we both haf brks at 11.

n shes like 11 to 11 15!!!!!

MY GOD. WD KINDA BRK IS TT?

WTF DO U EAT IN SUCH A SHORT TYM?

thn nvm. she msg sayin "dun go to e back gate. cum to e frnt

where the sign says ANDERSON JC

i dun bother i juz walk opp my sch cos e sign there says in huge werds

AJC. n i cal lher. n shes like aiyo tts e bac gate. il b thr

ok n i stand thr n observe.

mcm graveyard siol! not a single soul in sight

juz sum apek sweepin up leaves.

n thn shah calls n goes

AKKA. I THINK THE BACK GATE IS CLOSED U NOE!!!

THN HOW AH?!? -_-

u realise even e smartest ppl can b seriously dumbo jumbo.

n i was like. "eh idiot. isnt e gate like all sch gates.

with HUGE OBLONG HOLES?

its not like ur passin me e entire desktop kan? just a charger!!"

reply "oh. OHH. OKOK. CUMIN. CAN U SEE ME?!?! CAN U SEE ME!??!"

waaah i tell u. in all e heat n me carryin my barang2.

my sister can make me go totally nuts la!

of cos i can see her cos no other soul in sight. except the random apek.

n thn she cums walkin fast with folded sleeves

lady magamma jack la. whahhaha.

[translation : like gangster"]

n im like. grabbin my charger

n goin CAN U SEE FUJITSU HERE??!?!?!

n shes like "thn whrs e charger with e end like a thumbdrive!?!?"

n im like WHHHHHAAAT??

WHR GT CHARGER WITH E END LIKE THUMBDRIVE.

KAN THIS ONE FOR LAPTOP??! NOT HP!!!!

WALAU... n thn shes like.

"OKOK next tym must label ok? u label urs n il label mine." -_-

whahahhahahahahha

my sis ah. tho i was miffed. ok la.

shes terribly funny at tyms. n u gt no choice.

bt laff at it all at e end of e dae.

n thn nw shes home n shes like

"whn u called me i was enterin e lecture hall u noe!

u noe how tension or not!??! "whahhahahahahaha

hmmmm.

i haf lotsa tutorials to complete.

n i tot of bringin sab to e flyer

so we cud catch up with my BITCH!

NURHUDAYA AZIZ!!!

n of cos meet e rest also. haish.

see how la.

a date with my lovelies this fridae.

INSHA ALLAH. NTH COCKS UP!

or i wil b mentally murdered by

hmmm abt 4 to 5 souls.

brutally scared n all.

i love u maaamies! n mamas. whahah.

"JULIE U CAN DO IT.

STOP THINKIN ABT SLP.

U BITCH. U HAF FKIN TONS OF WERK TO COMPLETE

N U DARE THINK ABT UR BED?!?!?

HW U WANNA SUCCEED? NAABAE.

GO WASH FACE N START OK!!! "

self motivation.

i hope its gona help me.

sumway or another. -_-

lotsa love ppl

muackz

julie.b.

2009-05-03T23:32:00.002+08:00

hello ppl.
lets make this short n swt
cos its actually onni 11 32.
bt im fkin exhauasted.

to wrap up e weekend was fantabuluso.
sat nyt ended at 3 am plus2 for 3 mad women.
e unta. e buaya. dan e potong bebek angsa.
figure tt out.
we almost had a mini zoologist project
findin out e characteristics of each animal
n laffin our heads off at abt 2 in da wee hours of e am.
n thn it started rainin pouring n there was lotsa
"whoooosh"-ing of e wind n of cos hu else bt e bestie
was like. help. help. whahhah cute la kn?
i rmbr my younger daes whn i tot sth was gona cum get me
n it was makin tt sickenin whooosh. hahahah.
bt oh well. all ended gd.
with me tyrin to figure out fkin afa. which didnt balance itself.
nth to say. i tried ok. a few yrs ago. aniting accounts
i wudnt bother being up so late tryin to figure things out. -_- haish
n lagi best i woke up in e am at 10. TO CONTINUE AH!
n stil failed to balance aniting up. nbcb. aaagrh. go n die la! nk mampos punya unta.

n thn MY MAID RATNA IS LEAVIN FOR JAKARTA TML!!!
siallaa!!! tts friggin fast!!! 2 ears juz flewww eh?
shes not my family's personal maid.
actualy my granpa's personal maid
yeah. n she can b friggin annoyin trust me.
things like her EXCEPTIONALLY LOUD VOICE.
her tendency to repeat evyrting 3 tyms wih her exceptionally loud voice.
she messes up evryones wardrobe. [eg. my jeans in mums one. n dads jeans in mine]
bt besyds those minor stuff
shes def a hard werker man.
she doesnt stop until 9 in e nyt siol!!
machine! bt once she hits e bed. immediately shes a goner. hahaha.
n her indonesian coookin rocks all of this werld. yummy nyer!
n of cos. her main job is to take care of e granpa. which she does very well
n she does e entire household duties.
evry 2 mths im soo free.
haha bt thn. afta tt 4 mths im bac to being e unpaid maid.
so yea yeah. i actually gt her a card n rote stuff in it.
with e help of SHILA. AZIZI. FADIE. [of cos not evryting was taught by them. haha
editin n tt kinda stuff. hahaha. thanks ppl. ]
thank u guys. my broken cmi malay survived. hahahah. =)
this is how e end result was.

" Untuk : Ratna,
TERIMAH KASIH BANYAK2 YA,
sebab kamu kerja bersama keluarga saya.
Ratna banyak buat kerja yang baik. =)
Kan julie pemalas betul?
Kan Ratna buat kerja ni seorang aje?
Saya nk MINTA MAAF, kalau saya ade buat salah.
Kamu AMPUNKAN saya ya? BOLEH YA?
Kalau Ratna da sampai di Indonesia, jangan lupa ya, TULIS SURAT??!?!
SAYA AKAN MERINDUI KAMU!
DAN HARAP KAMU SELAMAT PULANG!!!!
JANGAN LUPA JULIE YA!?!?!?
Salam Sayang,
Daripada,
Julie
04/05/09"

hahaha. hmmmm
im gona miss her terribly.
we do talk alot u noe.
with my broken malay n her indon mixed malay.
we get by well.
about aniting under e sun. whahhaha.
soyea. mebe il miss tt. n gosh im bac to doin all e hse werk la!
damn it. damn damn damn!
so yeah. hahahah

we went to tekka. i brought her thr.
afta e library session with shilafied.
i think we gona b makin this a weekly affair. this library weekend thing.
hahaha. hopefully zura oso blh join eh? yeah.

rushed home. gt her e card otw.
thn had a face wash n off to tekka.
n i tell u.
she was holdin my arm.
n i was glad she did.
mcm we were e onni WOMEN arnd in e entire TEKKA REGION!
swarms n swarms n SWARMS of INDIAN NATIONAL MALES
starin at us mcm nvr seen women b4.
im tellin u i was scared to death.
n e fact tt ratna was arnd was e onni reason i was thr.
imagine if i was alone
i think out of e hundreds just 5 wud b enuff to carry me away to sumwhr
n wdever shit la.
gosh. hahahahah.
bt i had fun playin tour guide.
tellin her wd she cud buy. whr to find wdsoevr
thn we headed to e new hawa restaurent gt our makanan
chitchat more n thn home n shes aslp now
n im here blogggin.
shes leavin at 11 in da am.
n il b at sch by thn
hopin to give e card b4 i leave n
hug her many2! hehehe.
i really appreciate evryting she has done. ahhaha.
those side effect is tt ive just become more lazier.
heheheh. oh wel. i wish her all e best aniways.
shes a divorcee with 2 kids. she needs to run her life man.
so yeah. so much for keepin this short. bt i had quite a dae todae.
n i wonder how tml is gona turn out.
cos im fkin slpi. n i haven got all my tutorials done.
pom completed. afa gt blanks all over. n oh my god.
haha i purposely didnt even touch my stats. cos i hate it.
yeah. may god bless me.
it onni gona b 3rd week n fk im slackin like an idiot.
its e lack of slp la k. SLEEP DEPRIVED!
n oh ya

THE RESULTS OF MY AUDITIONS. TML!!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG!
aziziiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. hahahahha

lotsa love darlinz.
muackz
juliz.

2009-05-02T21:37:00.002+08:00

AUDITIONS ARE OVER!!!! =)
N IM A HAPPY GIRL.

i applied for StageArts Drama
with zizified. so we went to e auditions todae.
arnd 10 plus.
thngs were ready started n all
ice breaker games
as usual. like all drama ppl
my seniors were all crazy. hehehhe.
fun. loved it.
each given forms which came with e q number.
to fill up. zizi gt 55 n i gt 56.
n each tym 3 ppl were to go to the audition room nxt door.
sadly zizi n i were seperated. he was e last of his 3.
n i was e first of my 3.
imagine my plight!
suppa nervous cos i haven done any drama in abt
more thn a year!!! a whole year!
n u cant count e drama in my life in this kinda stuff...
it was like. otw there i was like.
"its gona b easy la. i haf prior experience. n im good at wd i do.
no worries. "
n whn im called to sit outsyd e room n im given my script.
all e hidden fears jumped out. hahahah. nervous siol!!!
b4 i left. had a senior hanafi, hu went
"dun worry. u def wil do well. can see.uve gt it." sth like tt.
aaww. they were all very supportive.
so im sitin there n i had randomly pick my script.
was a monologue.
for those of u hu dont do drama.

a monologue aka soliloquy
is a part of drama whr a single actor
acts out his part alone, his character talks alone.

so yeah mine was ok la. nt bad.
sth i was able to relate to.
my bf or fiance i gues. named alex
brings me out on a 15 course meal.
n buys e "whole of Paris" for me. [it was in e script! nt my imagination!]
n thn i gush n go gaga over evyting.
n go "ur gona marry me ryt?
we can do it ryt now. im soo ready. "
n thn sudneli alex is walkin away frm me
n im goin nuts like "DONT U DARE RUN AWAY FRM ME ALEX"
sth very short.
bt given e 5 min
i didnt get e whole of e script in my head.
bt ok la. i noe i gave my best. =)

n there were MANY JUDGES, like 6 i think.
includin the president n vP [i didnt noe they were thr in e first plc
it just didnt ocur to me. n i didnt noe which one of them was e p or vp]
onni afta e entire audition me n zizi went to e notice board
n realise we were being judged by e drama heads n e p n vp -_-

[n seriously i tot there were gona b like onni 2 or 3 judges mcm AI"]

n thn one of them went
"ok. tt was e end of round one of ur auditions"
n i was like. "oh. thrs a round 2?"

so round 2 was impromptu.
act out e given scenario on e spot.
n again. shukur alhamdulillah.
a scenario whr i can relate to.
if not e script more fr the scenario.

"ur parents are getting a divorce n u are tryin to stop it"

of course. tho they said begin whnever ur ready
i cant b thinkin n thinkin. thn its not impromptu animore.
so i was like ok. alryt. okok.
n thn da start.
thinkin out aloud abt wd a fantastic family i had.
wonderin whr thigns fell apart
hu was havin an affair with hu
n wth was gona happen to me if e divorce really happened?
n wd e hell m i gona do nw to stop this.
n fad u must b proud at this point of tym
cos i ended with.
ITS TYM TO CALL E BEST FRIEND.
hehehehhehe =)
cos naturally seriously tts wd il exactly do.

n thn another round. sth i didnt expect at all.
i was asked to sing a song of any language
fk la. i went suppa blank for a while
i m a music freak
BT NO FKIN SONG CAME MY HEAD TT pRECISE MOMENT.
walau. n of cos i ended up with a tamil song.
n sth i sing to jaffu almos evrytym we talk our late nyts.
"vennilavae"
i dun really noe wd e judges r lookin for thru my singin
since i signed up fr acting. haha.
mebe to see if i can carry a note? hahahah duneo la.
bt thank god. it was all over
even afta e auditions were done n me n zizi were piggin out at mac
both of us were stil like in after shock
heart hammering post audition tremmors. hahaha. =]

headed to wdlnds.
n i shal confess.
i didnt get much werk done
SUPPER SLPI LA.
tearin real badly.
migraine n all.
none of e afa gt into my head.
cudnt apply ani of e things at all
so ended up fb-ing n waiting for fadie.

btw i cnfrmed with sum clsmates
ICA on thurs.
since mondae thrs no int web tech mod.
phew! means im not gona mugg like a mad moo.
bt meetin shila n zura tml.
library again. im gna fin up afa n stats now
tml juz go thru e int web thingies
e test is stil on. so must study aniway. =)

btw. fadie arrived at wdlnds in a very nice PURPLE BAJU KURUNG
N KILLER PINK N BLACK HEELS.
hot nyer. heheh tho i noe i wil die in such heels.
being tall myself. il stick to my short heels n pumps n lovely flats. =)
heheheheh.
results on audition wil b out on mondae 3pm.
excited nyer!!! hehehehe.

n oh e zoo trip was fun.
amulu family didnt turn up to my dissapointment
bt i had fun with e step family [is tt how u call it]
im a softie. so dun hate me whn i say
i love e kiddo hu smiles n makes me feel all gooeey insyd.
of cos. i haf al e ryts to hate her since shes e step sista
hu just makis tings all e more worse
bt things in e family are much better thn 5 yrs ago.
im not sayin ive accepted evyting
ok fne la. im a two faced bitch. just let me b la.
i duneo how to reason my ownself.
i cant find a reason fr how i m.
n i dun care animore ready. seriously.
e kid enjoyed herself very very very much
at e newly renovated kidsworld at e zoo.
seriously i did as well.
i didnt haf ani change of clothes n cos of e other kids thr
playin arnd sprayin tons of water evywhr
i was reasonbly drenched. haha.
saw all e animals. frens of jaffu n fadie
said hi to all of em. haha. nt many pics.
bt e elephant show was damn nice whahah.
n of cos many many pics of e baby. heehhehe.
my step mum [ trust me i stil cant get used to this term. =/]
n i talked alot. i mean general conversation n all.
abt sch. n all. n sudenly. she asked for my number.
wel i did give. bt thn again i doubt i wil call her or msg or anitin.
like for polites sake? i dunoe la.
n i ignored her fb request
seriously its not a gd idea to haf ani family member in fb
kpo bunye orng. hahahah.
i dunoe la. just concentrate on wds impt.
my sch life. for now e family can put behind.

btw prashants bro is in stage arts with me.
nb boy hes a damn CLEAR REPLICA OF E BOY.
i miss presshyy. hahaha.
2nd june. he b bac. yay.

muackz ppl
julie.

2009-04-30T21:52:00.002+08:00

heylooo ppl.
i m so fkin stressed.
i haf an ICA ON MONDAE!!!
n theres sooo much to study.
naabae yng2 bodoh decides to tell onni 2dae.
so i dun haf a printer
n im particular abt my notes
more comfy studyin with hardcopy stuff
my eyes hurt starin at e softcopy stuff.
thank all gods i haf zizified. thnks love.

n yest was WOOHOONESS.
with e bestie.
met her at yck mrt stn.
n she looked pissed.
partly cos of me. n my admission card [another stry]
bt mostly cos of this minah. whahha.
a malay couple were walkin towards her direction
n e bf was lookin at fad .
n thn e gf saw fad lookin at him n went
"ape tengok2!"
whahahha.
n i tink fad replied sth like
"ape tengok2? u ask ur bf first la ?"
haha n thn e bf was draggin e gf away askin her
not to embarass him in public.
my piece of advice to tt stupid gal
"beb. u noe why ppl haf eyes for? to look.
n pls look at wht ur bf is doin b4 u point fingers. "
oh wel we gt into e train. wd with e fkin ho weather n evyting
we were like tired..
n thn e tok of ns came up..
out of nowhr n i was havin difficulty getin e werd "army"
in my head. i was juz tryin to tell her tt diddu is goin to tekong..
n sth abt e uniform n e werd army was just not cumin into my head
n so i sudenly blurted out
"u noe la.. e TEKONG UNIFORM"
n my darlz thr stared at me. n thn started laffin. n
thn to my huge embarassment i realise
thrs a guy in army uniform SITTING RYT INFRNT OF ME.
n he was tryin hard not to laff.
whahhahahahhaha. malu la kan!!!!!!!
n thn there we are laffin like crazy
n thn sudenli i realise julius [my clsmate]
is infrnt of me n waving at me.
juz made me crack up evenmore. whahhaha.
so i gt my ic replacement done =) yay.
stupid admission woman at sch didnt give me my admission card
cos i didnt haf my ic.
tho e criteria read passport allowed.
she said thr ws no home add in my passport
so i gt e police report n gave it to her. n yay. i nw haf my admission card
imagine they dun give unless i show e replcement ic?
thn like for one month my attendance procedures wil b like so much of lecheh werk. -_-
heheheh. so im a happy woman now. =)

n thn we headed to funan.
fad needed to go get adobe fotoshop cs4 which was n is a
WHOPPIN SGD 1260!!!
like all e walkin arnd for nth 'n thn e price
juz kinda burdened us.
mcm no mood for aniting
n wd with laptops heavy bags
decyded to taxi home
wanna draw money
headed to e freakin long q
n i was lettin my imagination run

"fad how if we dun haf to walk at all
evrywhr we go thr are like walkin escalators
like e one in dhobyghaut.?bt with chairs.
thn we juz haf to sit n press our
destination button n we get transported. ?"
of cos i gt a wierd stare frm e bestie. bt listen to the next part
since we were at e end of e q..
"imagine ah. we juz press e eject FORWARD button
thn we juz "bo-ing" to e front!
thn e person there kena thrown out.
thn we wana go sumwhr fast we just press
"eject ryt" " eject left"
n it wil b useful whn trafiic jam kan?
"eject forward tyms 200"
we can reach home .
i noe it sounds lame here
bt at tt moment. we were both lafffin n laffin n laffin like mad.
taxi driver wud haf thought we crazy siol.hahahahhahahah.

she decyded to cum over to my plc
n u guessed it.
my sis. me n fad.
we ended up takin fotos.
macbk foto booth [AZIZI U MISSED IT!]
HELLOTSA LAFFTER BAYBEH.
at first my sis mcm malu2.
thn i gues wd e heck. she joined in
3 mad gals in e hse with e granpa screamin at us
cos he was tryin to slp
n e maid. she was laffin at us. cos we were laffin like clowns.
whhahahahah.
so to sum up
yest was a gd dae. hahahhaha.
anydae with e bestie is a GREAT DAE.
love u baby!

nw. a few min ago.
damn stressed. cos cudnt get hold of anione
hu cud help me print e pdf notes.
nw da settle.
im gona makan. n start on e tutorials.
fin by tonyt.
n tml we goin to e ZOOOOOOOOOO.
hhahhaha -_- i noe.
out of no whr. my dad was like
we all goin ah. u cum ah.
haish. go loh. an excuse to meet my amulu.
miss him much much,
e best part is even tho its bn long tt ive seen him
he regognises my voice/me n wants me to carry him
u noe tt feelin whn this happens.
i feel loved. by e kid. n i love e kid man.
wd a 1 yr old todd can do.
many others wil nvr b able to achieve.
trust me. =)

ok da!
see ya ppl
lotsa love
muackz
julie.b

2009-04-28T23:58:00.003+08:00

currently hooked.
heheheh.
baaaaybeh....
meetin up e bestie tml.
yayness.
"if ur dude aint actin ryt...
u tell tt dude HE GOT TO GO! "
muackz
julie.b

2009-04-28T12:45:00.003+08:00

WARNING.
THIS POST GON AB FULL OF RANDOM PICS.
TAHAN K? WHHAHAH.
NEXT POST WILL B ON E PICS FRM BUGIS. ILUMA. COFFEE BEAN.
TK BLH TAHAN !!!
I WAS LAFFIN LKE A MANIAC IN E NYP LIBRARY
N E GAL INFRNT OF ME STARTED STARIN AT ME.
WHAHHAHAH
LOTSA LOVE BAYBEHS.
M OFF TO MY REHEARSAL!!!

cute la kan?

i love my expression.

eff comm ica1.vivien n yanhong =)

e b dae gal n me! sab sab oi!!

i love this picture. forever n ever more.

irin loves.

dylan!!!

ice jelly at toast box. b4 wolverine.

chatlotte!

farhana!!

taken at topshop. u see.

u can use this for guys as well. =)

suma!!! e witch! hehe.

swt la! hehehe.

my zizi loves. library daes.

so. wait up for more randomness.

to boyfie.

u nvr fail to makethis girlfie smile.

n no matter what.

ilu. always.

ps. shoppin wid e bestie yest.

i cudnt bend dwn to pick up e ring which fell off e shelf.

all thanks to aerobics.

n e bestie had a laffin fit. blearh!

whahha. even i was laffin.

muackz.

2009-04-28T12:45:00.002+08:00

laughter.

is the best medicine in the whole wide world.

hahahahah

jokes aside. its really the truth.

n i think that ive gone mad.

cos i haf the tendency to laugh over nth at all.

n yest was e peak of it all.

im tellin u it was crazy.

was headed down to e shop to get my stuff fotocopied

n thn i call up minzi.

n she goes on n on n n abt her "mairology" [direct translation : hair-rology] =]

im tellin u sth just tickled my funny bone n i started laughin

n not just any laughin

LAUGHIN OUT LOUD FOR W HOLE WOLRD TO HEAR

IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE!

theres this courtyard kinda huge space in front of

senshiong at khatib. n i was thr carryin stuff n al

n i laughed soo much til it hurt n i was like doin a half squat

n still laffin

n minzi was desperately askin me to get out of the place

cos she was afraid that tht sumone myt call e imh. whahha

n afta all ecrazy laffin i tot i was ok. done with it.

n i went "okok saanthemaayittaen"
n thn nt a second later i gt bac to laffin

HYSTERICAL LAUGHING. ALL ON MY OWN.

n she went "mairu. saanthemaayittan. "

whahaah.

n by e tym i reached home

it felt like i fin a half hour run on e treadmill

suppa hot n perspirin. n gosh it just hurt evrywhr.

whahhahahahahhahahaha

oh wel.

i msged her aksin whthr i was really gone case for good.

n this is wd she replied

"am amazed ur even doubtin it. for once i prayed

you must not die in e middle of nowhr due to laughin."

hehehehe.

at sch now.

i can officially say tt i hate stats.

i bn studyin like crazy. bt

maths is stats n stats is maths. i hate it.

tk boleh tahan,.

todae i had a gd opportunity to improve my malay

im not fantastic in it.

bt i understan e basics. n i can tok e basics wel.

an asshole decided to msg me.

on his frens bhalf.

close ones will noe hu im tokin abt

n thn msg went sth like

" dia rindu u n dia nk minta maaf.

tolong cakap dgn dia skejab je boleh?"

i tell u i was suppa frustrated.

"kan i da cakap. saya tk nk layan korangla.

siape2 dia nk rindu ke mita maaf ke. dia punye pasal.

i tk kesa. jgn kachau boleh tk. u faham tk? BODOH KAPE?!?!"

WHOA. ITS BN LONG SINCE I MADE USE OF MY MALAY LANG.

heheeh of cos its not totally correct or sth

bt oh wel.

early in the mornin make my blood boil onni.

n thn this fren of his just gota howlelot of shoutin at n thn i gt hung up

liek i really bother.

fkin asshole. DONT UNDERSTAN ENGLISH. NVM

BT U DUN UNDERSTAN UR NAITONAL LANGUAGE N MOTHER TONGUE.

WHICH CATEGORY TO PUT U IN?

cheebai. gi mampos suda/

nw.i wanna go off.

lotsa love ppl.

n oh CONGRATZ ZIZIFIED! ON FRENCH!

ala parieeeeee oooh lala.

lotsa loves

ppl.

muackz

julz.

2009-04-25T23:40:00.007+08:00

HEYLOO HEEEEEEE.
new blogskin.
thanks fadie.
pinkie pink.
i rock ur socks baybeh! =]

so wassup?
one week of sch n i feel like
i bn to sch for a hundred years.
stressed to e max yaw.
sorry diddu i dunoe how to slack
whn i noe e ICAs are a few weeks away.
bt if u ask hows nyp [rami mami, nw im her junior]
il say its rocking. n it wil rock more..
cos im joinin stage arts drama.
suma n mardia are there.
both yr 2s one NTUC PLAY fren n one ite fren.

n oh. my classmates dylan n kavitha.
are both frm bishan. hee. =)
fantastic. with dylan graduatin first thn me thn kavz.
so yea we do tok abt sch here n thr. bishan n its funny ppl.

n heyloo! AZIZZI is in my batch as well!
heheheh. boy. did we haf fun tt dae,.
fad came over cos i ended at 12.
thn we lepak at mac while waitin for him
to go to e club crawl togethr
go to my fb n chk out all e damn funny pics we took.
first fadie n me alone.
we were like mad gals laffin like wth.
n she went. "ur e one hus gona cum here evydae. nt me." haha idiot
bt seriously. a very much laffter hysterical laffter filled dae.
thn afta e cca thingie 3 of us headed to amk mac.
another round of fkin funny pictures.
soo much of laffin tt it actually really hurt .
il go tag e pics soon. thn u all can see
of cos unglam. bt supppa dupppa fun!
we shud do this often. great distressing machine la
fads photo booth. her macbk.
[wee we both haf white lappys now]
im finaly usin my
muhammad seanpaul cm2 bte abdulla hayabusa.
hahahah. figure tt out.
its my lappys name.
haven halalkan yet fadie! hahhahhaa.
so my cm2 nt islam yet. hehehhehe.

oh well.
i have fn all my tutorials.
cna u believe it?
me? finishin up all e assignments
n its onni sat nyt.
i spent e whole dae in e library with shila.
thank u darlin. for all e much needed help
with e lappy.
onni my bestie noes hw dumb i m.
nw u noe also. hees.
ppl must bear with me la. hahaha.
whn it cums to certain stuff.
hahahahah :P

btw my links are gone.
il do them asap.
for now jus shilacream n fad.
e rest wait ah. haha.
mcm malas. look at e template.
n i haf a song.
which im addicted to ryt now.
its e funniest thing ive heard in a long tym
n its really good.

LILY ALLEN
KNOCK EM OUT

"Alright so this is a song about anyone, it could be anyone.
You're just doing your own thing and someone comes out fo the blue,
They're like,'Alright'
He's saying,'Yeah can I take your digits?'
And you're like, "no not in a million years, you're nasty
Please leave me alone'".

Cut to the pub on a lads night out,
Man at the bar cos it was his hout,
Clocks this bird and she looks ok,
She caught him looking and she walks his way,
"Alright darlin, you gonna buy us a drink then?"
"Err no, but I was thinking of buying one for your friend..."

She's got no taste hand on his waist,
tries to pull away but
Her lips on his face.
"If you insist I'll have a white wine spritzer"
"Sorry love, but you ain't a pretty picture."

Chorus

Can't knock em out, can't walk away,
Try desperately to think of the politest way to say,
Just get out my face, just leave me alone,
And no you can't have my number,
"Why?"Because I've lost my phone.

"Oh yeah, actually yeah I'm pregnant, having a baby in like
6 months so no, and yeah, yeah..."

"I recognise his guy..."That's what she's thinking,
As he walks over her face starts sinking,
She's like,"Oh here we go..."
It a routine check that she already knows,
she's thinking"They're all the same."

"Yeah you alright baby? You look alright still, yeah what'sYour name?"
She looks in her bag,
takes out a fag, tries to get away
From the guy on a blag, can't find a light,
"Use mine."
"You see the thing is I really don't have the time."

Chorus

Go away now, let me go.Are you stupid or just a little slow?
Go away now, I've made myself clear,
Nah it's not gonna happen,
Not in a million years!

Chorus 2x

"Nah I've gotta go cos my house is on fire,
I've got ive got Herpes,err no syphilis..."

uve gt to admit.
its just funny =)
shes wierd. bt i like her.
hahahah.

lotsa loves
muackz
julie.b

2009-04-16T23:20:00.002+08:00

can u tell me sth?
do you hate me?
or do you love me?
do you realise day by day
that you are e reason why
im moving away from you?
the reason im starting to hate you?

i hate to come home
and hear you scream at me for
no boody hell reason.
i have many unanswered questions.

can u tell me why u always have to
spoil my day?

why must you treat me like a bloody moron?

why is it tt im always the UNGRATEFUL DOG to you?

why do you always want to see me miserable?

you fkin wanted me to go to poly
n you talk like im a fucking hopeless case
who wont do well in anything.
why am i a
GOOD FOR NOTHING TO YOU
ALL E FKING TIME?

do you know that i want to kill all of you?
do you know that you make me hate you even though
I TRY SO HARD NOT TO?

can you tell me why i must cry evryday because of you?
do you seriously think that im heartless like you?
with the words you use. with the things you say?

you are e most SELFISH person i know.

so much for the first day of orientation.
im sick n tired. and
my patience is running terribly thin.

i love my classmates tho.
julie.b.

n thanks fadie.
ur always e best. no matter wht.
thank god we haf each other.
thank god.

2009-04-10T15:48:00.004+08:00

great.
its pouring.
n im supposed to b
gettin ready to go to e cousins hse.
which im dreadin. =[
haish.
n fadie found a song describin my feelings
as usual.
lily allen. never gonna happen.
nice hehehe.
lily allen is wierd. bt i like. =)
oh wel.
im frightfully hungry.
brkfast being at 9 am. n now its close to 4.
i love to catch up with my cousins.
bt i hate their paternal cousins
hu wil all b present. urgh.
i wonder whthr its just my low self esteem
or their stupid bitch like airiness.
wdever tt it.
or mebe my jealousy of not being able
to b like them?
yeah maybe. bt thn again.
im happy whr i m. n i dun get called
"wayang on e street"
which e boyfie did. whn he saw them
whahhahaa.
oh wel. im gona b bored.
leftout. n lonely. yay.
hopefully since its ranin they all fail to turn up
[fat hope]
n thn yeah. aargh wdever la k.
just b done n over with.
time to makeup n look beautiful.
btw nw i rmbr why i even wanted to blog.
ever had e impending sense of doom.
im goin thru it now. or since my mum tol me
tt my granpa is gona b over at my plc tml.
for 2 mths.
i dun hate e old man.
i hate all e problems he makes.
i hate havin to see my mum 24/7 tension
i hate to have to cajole my granpa into not runnin away frm e hse
i hate to have to cum home n see my mums face annoyed
i hate to hear my granpa screamin out at my neighbours to save him
i hate it whn he doesnt eat his brkfast lunch or dinner plus medicines.
n i hate it whn he wants my dad at home 24/7
n i really hate it whn he is perfectly normal whn e dad is arnd
n totally stubborn whn hes not arnd.
yeah. so u feellin e impending sense of doom?
i m.
n my mum was upset abt it.,
she had to scream at me .
goin. "why cant u think of nice stuff.
y being so negative"
n hello mam. i cant act like u.
i cant pretend its gona b a very fulfilling satisfyin nice 2 mths.
cos e whole werld noes. tts exactly wht it WOULD NOT BE.
bt thank ALLAH. im a very patient person.
no matter hw much i disdain my situation.
i wil stil b nice to my granpa
i stil tok to him n i stil bear with everyting
until he goes to faizals hse
yea.
nw im gona go make up
n grab a bk n wait for mummy to get ready
n face ppl i hate. yeah. woohoo for me yaw.

muackz
julz.

2009-04-09T09:41:00.003+08:00

yeaps. n im all smiles.
i was n stil am.
hahahahhaha.
*hayabusa mode*

b4 i get thr.

happy 3rd year anni to my bestie n her boyfie!

all e best to u guys.

me loves u!

e beb finaly had her dream cum true.

her MACBOOK DREAM tt is. heheh

my fujitsu stil pendin eh. waitup. soon. =)

i finaly told e bestie abt stuf tt bn hapenin.

why i haven tol u.

simple. its an annoyin situtation.

n he irritates u. u hate him.

so y tel u n spoil e mood. tts y.

bt its over. =)

bt THAT. doesnt give u reason not to

tell me abt hayabusa!!!! heheheh.

i can say im a happy child.

n i wil b for a long tym.

aaah. e nice things in life.

no matter how much my life sucks.

sumhow. it wil fall in plc.

mebe not now. bt soon enuff. =)

so with sch just a week away.

boy m i excited.

tho kinda irritatin..

orientations n all.

id rather just go straight for my first cls.

hahahha.

speakin of which. shila darlz. is prolli at her

3 rd dae of orientation...

rustic country?! hehe.

i need to go shoppin.

for clothes n stationary.

thanks to e bestie we b shoppin

soon i gues. hehe. e things we haf to cum up with

to get julie outta e hse n go shoppin. -_-

hehehe.

we are genuises. =)

n heres another thursdae.

started out badly.

thanks to another irritatin fone call

convo being mostly me being irritated

nvm. think sch. think fujitsu. think HAYABUSA.

yeah. so much better now.

funny how a few min ago i was fumin.

sorry nas. u seem to b my victim. haha.

n now. im yipidi hoooo!

i wil b. n i wanna be.

cos

" once im in her life, it wil b better"

yeaps.

another dae of endless tv n pc

thn tml off to mehrus plc for prayers.

aaah. lets call minzi . im off. hehe.

lotsa love

muackz

julz. julie.b.

2009-04-05T19:19:00.002+08:00

im in a jolly mood.
amulus family gave me a surprise visit.
hahahah
mum was out e whole dae.
i was up n abt sick of life.
n i open e door. n see my lovely baby bbbbboooooo!
gosh hes gona turn out to b a heartthrob i tell u.
hehehehheheh.
ived missed him very much
n ws gld e evenin was spent well.
yaynesss. i can nearly smell them cumin to amk.
CANT WAAAAAAITTTTT.
n oh. my cousin in law. meanin marni.
is pregnant. n im wonderin if her stomach is biig.
hahahhaha.

its mondae tml.
sumhw i cant wait for tml.
i haf sth to settle
n i guess n hope it wil go smooth tml.
n even if it doesnt. im nt gona b tt bothered.
i just. well. lets just say
i want it to b done n over with asap.
it wil b a huuge burden off e chest.
e bestie was sayin sth abt she being too nice
n not wantin to hurt ppl.
n just a few daes ago..
ive cum to realise tt im really good at jus tt.
hurtin sumone to e max.
bt its really for sth gd. for myself.
after a while. wd seemed fun is not fun animore
just PLAIN ANNOYING. IRRITATIN. FRUSTRATIN.
yeah. im e kind hu doesnt shout on e fone.
n i did it. i dun go all mean n sarcastic n simply bitchy [for real]
n i did it. like ive had enuff. more thn enuff.
so its tym to settle it my way. if other ways dun work out.
so tml must go well. n sudenly i feel like.
can skip tml or not. go straight to tues.
so tml wud b over ready. k ive lost it. my marbles. gone.

e boyfie is lookin damn hot nwdaes.
hahahha. n e lesbie lookin like nk mampos
in sum of her pics. hahahahah
i miss u guys, tho im not realy in contact like b4
just wanna say I LLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOVVVVEE
U GUYS. MANY2. *hugggiieeezzz*
sudenli evyting is sooo suppa boring.
even fb at tyms.
daes are spent wonderin whn e eff 16th will cum.
n thnks to shila. im pretty excited abt me fujitsu. haha.
yayness.
once i get e fone bac.
i guess pretty much evytin wil fall into plc.
me goin to sch.
gettin bz with stuff.

things i need to take note of.
goin out. onni on weekends.[except dinners with e bestie.]
minimise my usage of fone. [god must help with this one]
make sure no one invades my privacy. [esp e family ppl]
make sure im bac home early most of e tym [god help again]
make sure i cut dwn on e itty bitty bad habits. [god again]
save up n go shoppin wdsoever evy 2 mths. [this is a must. no choice]
studay hard man.
get a part tym job durin holz. make sure i haf MONEY.
i can go on n on.
bt e first few things are more impt thn e rest.

thrs sth paranoid abt me.
this i gt to say
cos while i was clenain up
e dad went "my fren is cumin over
so faster tidy up"
i juz cont n went to shower
n thn i tot.
hu e hell sia cumin?
mebe isit sum guy n his dad or sth
sumone my dad is gona get me married off to
worse part no ones home. juz dad n me.
so it cus haf bn sum kinda secret meetin
without e mums knowledge.
just like so called force me to agree to marry sum
ustads god worshippin son!!!!!
sialla. i was soo afraid to go shower.
like. wd if i came out n e whole family was thr.
simply put. paranoia was takin over me.
this whole marriage thing is scarin me.
n e mum n i are constatntly havin mini qiarrels.
over wd im gona do afta my dip
IM NOT EVEN STARTED n shes fightin oready.
hahahah. life ah. like wanna jus go AAAAAAAARGHHHHHH
bt im very sure of one ting.
im gona b like soo adament abt goin overseas
il b worse thn my sis. [nt tt shes a goner. bt shes
good at gettin e things she wants.]
yeah. n THANK GOD.
whn i was outtaf e shower.
it was amulus family
n no one wanting to get me married
was tellin amulus mum n she was laffin at me.
walau i was being serious noe
cant predict wd my dad has in his head MOST OF E TYM!
haish.
n ive decided tt im 99% straight n 1% bi.
nazminah is e only gal il b ok being a lesbian for real with.
yeah. confirm.

lotsa love
muackz
julie.b

2009-04-02T09:08:00.006+08:00

taken on my bdae last year. =)

n yest was superb.

e ultimate laffin dae.

met up with e darlin minzi.

a last min thingie

she headed to my plc n we headed

towards northpoint to get

"oora vuutu pillei" bf a present. [minziz exact werds]

needless to say i love my baby.

we bn laffin n laffin n laffin

all e way thr n it gt to e point of hysterical at northpoint itself...

hehehehe. decidin tt we were gona faint frm hunger

went towards e food mall

n gues hus callin to me "zul"

SWEEDAWWWWWWWIIII!!!!

omg. it really made my dae. i mean it was a great dae.

just made it better thn i gt to see sree afta god knows how long.

hehehhehe. sumones lookin gd in ns uniform.

tho lookin shagged. hahahha. omg. it was soo nice. hehehe.

n guess hu was green with envy e whole while jus cos i hugged him

she went

"athu eppadi nee avenae appadi hug pannelaam. ? huh?"

"naanum pakketula thaanae irunthaen?

enneiyum hug panna solliyirukkelaam le?"

she ws goin on n on n on until lunch cum dinner was done. whahhaha.

thr i was pointin out tt he doesnt noe u. n u were on e fone.

u dun expect ppl u dunoe to juz cum along n hug u ryt?

crazy fool.

needless to say. she wasnt convinced. whahah

cute la. crazy woman.

with all tt crazy laffter goin on .. whoever called her

cudnt have tol her wd they wanted to say

cos evytym this gundu looked at me she started another fit of laffter.

hahahah. huever on e fone wud haf hated julie tt precise moment.

whahahha. too bad.

im havin fun. hahahah. with my darlin.

afta all tt. a long walk bac home

n she left. aaaw.

was soo sad like we shud spend more tym together

cos i wanna laff summore!?!!?!!!!!!!

crazyness. total crazyness.

n gues wad. with all e laffter goin on

we forgot to take pics. whahah. wasted.

hmmmmmm.

was a fantastic dae.

shud haf a few more of these daes b4 i start sch!

n yay!!! 15 more days!!!!!!!!

life is gooooooooood.

esp whn i juz received my refund frm SIM. =) =)

arnd 3.8 plus plus

nw tt money i haf to go withdraw

n use it for current n future sch expenses.

yayness. yipidi hoo!

so lotsa love darlinz.

muackz

julz.

2009-03-27T11:05:00.005+08:00

i just love the song & video. =)

2009-03-26T22:05:00.002+08:00

well.
hello from e hellhole.
or so it seemed.
n does seem evry now n thn.

fightin constantly
is drivin me insane.
wild moodswings.
unreasonable shouting.
violent throwin of whtever ur holdin on to.
my patience has its limit.
tts all im gona say.

aah well.
if im in hell
thrs a very comfortable couch in hell.
n im e new couch potato on e block.
tho i dun eat aniting while i flip channels.
soon. tts bound to hapen.
n great im bac to finishin one novel a dae.
i did tt todae.
fk i haf no life la. wow.
gymmed afta soo long.
n in e evenin too.
was great to go bac to e routine
tho im dyin of muscle aches

21 more daes to go for sch to start.
m literally countin down nowdaes.
haha. n its aisha akkas b dae todae.
happy b dae darlin!
just exactly a yr ago. we were all havin fun.
hahahhaha.
i totally rmbr sheik cryin while eatin
e crab sambal. one whole year man.
i was beginnin a new life thn
n now im gona begin another one soon.
tt was werk.
n this is sch. haish.
im stil not over it yet la.
i just cant help it.
im full of excuses. wds e gal to do whn
THRS NTH BUT HOUSEWERK TO DO.
haish. wdever la k.
im missing e boyfie very much.
n e lesbie oso.
21 more daes yaw.
il make it.
n thank u fadie.
im way much stronger thn i think i m.
whn things cum crumbling dwn.
i really need to haf faith.
in myself more thn anitin else.
i love ya darlin.
we'l meet up soon.
i wanna see all ur recent shoppin!
aaargh i hate u. hahah. mmmmuackz

lotsa love ppl
muackz
julz.

2009-03-22T11:20:00.003+08:00

great.
ive lost my wallet
thr goes e ic.
yay.
lets celebrate.
just whn things go good.
evryting fks up.
huever e motherfker hu stole it.
i hope u rot to death.
n so i cried like a mad woman.
caused lotsa panic to many ppl.
im sorry. cos seriously.
this is e last thing i needed.
to top off all my misery. yay.
at habib.s hse nw.
lost e wallet at bugis village.
if im thinkin of gettin it bac. i mus b dreamin.
thing is. for as much as i
"whopaari vakkiraans"
e moment i saw malik
n whn he went "AKKAAA WD HAPPEN"
i started laffin nonstop.
i bn cryin continiously for i think 2 hours or sth.
e poor taxi driver must haf tot i was suicidal.
n thanks to habib.s my sis. malik. n my uncle
hu were my "padei" at e police stn. haha.
makin me laff like crazy all e way thr.
esp malik. seriuosly. bloody clown la.
"ooru maat kaaren"
"maat" meanin e "mat. as in mat rep"
"akka. u dun worry k. e police will ask stupid qn all
just say akka. tt im ur husband. evryting gona b alryt ok.
ic can replace. go cancel ur nets card.
dun worry akka!!! im here for u akka"
n thn we walked all over queenstwn lookin for e
queensway police stn. n thn all dyin of hunger
whn passin by e chinese hawker centre..
habib was like "hu wants pandi perattal..
oucha pandi pandi saambar. pandi keema.
pandi kebab. "
i tell u i was laffin n laffin n laffin. whahahahahahah
came home to watch slumnayee millionaire.[tts hw habib calls it]
fantastic movie.
n thn more laffin while habib n malik were
playin e play stn thingies.
laffin n laffin til abt 4 am.
evry1 slept while i ws online
til abt 5 am. cudnt slp.
thinkin why things soo sucky.
n i woke up at 10. haish.
just whn tings are goin good at home.
im finally goin to sch.
things are beginnin to look gd.
i haf to cock things up.
i just haf to. n of cos.
e mum wil nvr undastan tt
i didnt wish for this to happen.
mums.
aaargh
fk la k.
bye.

2009-03-20T21:13:00.002+08:00

alohaa!!!

yest was shoppin dae with e bestie!!!!

we had so much of fun afta soo long.

quality tym spent with e bestie. hehekz.

headed to town to MAC.

its hello kitty galore.

e new edition thingie.

all i cud think of was ms tay.

infact i msged her e moment i entered tangs.

whahhaha.

fad was lookin for foundation.

e lady thr. was damn nice to us.

tho the whole store looked kinda. fierce.

like fierce lookin ppl with flawless crazy makeup.

rohaizah. e ladys name.

she tried out diff tones on fadie.

n eventually it was a mini makeover la!

fadie looked soo beautiful!

see e pic!!

e makeup. wooohooo!!

learnt e few techniques. frm e professional!!! hehehe.

im currently jobless moneyless.

didnt get aniting.

bt missy fadie gt her pressed powder.

eyeliner. n brush. which was a whopin 37 bucks.

n concealer. n blush.

bt the thing is. its all worth it.

definitely worth it.

im gona save up once im startin sch.

tym to throw away e cheap stuff

n buy gd quality ones. gd lastin ones.

n of cos e name la. big names like

MAC. or bobbi brown.

i love bobbi brown. cos i love brown.

hahahha. brownie. copperie. nicey. hehekz.

its great to be a gal. ahahhaha.

n i onni feel like this whn i go shoppin.

nt whn im pms-ing. =p

n thn afta all bought. fadie receives a hello kitty baloon

n we both gt tired of havin to hold it up n all

so we sat dwn chit chat camwhore

while tryin to burst e baloon. deflate it.

thn kesian to throw. she folded it n brought it home. hahaah.

suppa hungry. decided on sakura.

n a whole lot of food.

i think its e first tym we ate together like tt.

ahhahahah.

we had ppl starin at us.

n fadie gt pissed

"what they think we cant afford gd food? naabae"

whahahhaha. funny.

n fadie hearin went bonkers e whole dae.

kept hearin nonsense. we were laffin like mad e whole dae.

lovely. hahahha. made a fool of ourselves i guess.

bt hu cares.

thn cabbed to penin. [too hot to walk to mrt stn : fadie's reason]

n she justified it by sayin

tts wd u get. whn u werk. whn u haf money. n whn ur boyfriend has a car.

u wan convinience. hahah. true. very true.

hehehehe.

thn at penin gt my jeans.

one black one blue. very reasonable pricin.

im gona go thr again. whn i haf e money

to buy more jeans.

e "nina pants" colour.

i haf my eyes on tt.

i think shila n zura will noe.

hahahah.

n thn headed next door to funan

to collect my LENSES.

surprise! MY DAD PAID!

i just called to ask. whthr i shud pick em up

n he went

ok just go take. n thn ask moey to call me.

n im like. really? n hes like. yeah yeah yesh.

wooohooo. next tym.

I PROMISE TO TAKE CARE!

we coffeed at mac. chit chat. n finaly cabbed bac home

n the driver was funny.

hahaha. tok abt e accidents tt happened yest.

n i was panickin. cos if we took train.

thr wudnt b a possibility of accidents.

i mean like. most to most train stop halfway to sumwhr

nt like crash or sth thn injured n all.

hahahahah. i had tremendou fun.

fadie was a "girly" girl yest.

hahahah. skirt n all. e other pics in fb.

i malas to load here.

hahahahha

tml e sis n i headn to habib.s hse.

e cousins are cumin as well.

we b watchin slumdog. n supper at spize or sth

tts gona b awesome. i hope. hahahahha

for now. i wanna go eat samosas.

hahahahah.

lotsa loves

muackz

julz.

2009-03-18T21:53:00.002+08:00

m currently readin
SHOPAHOLIC & BABY
by SOPHIE KINSELLA
n im hooked.
cos its suppa funny.
n seriously. i wish i cud shop like her.
rebecca brandon. hahahah.

n so i came across this in the book.

"You see, this is why you need a best friend when
you're pregnant. Not a single one of my baby books
has said "It's so freaky, like having as alien inside of you."

rebeccas bestie is a mother of 2. n so yeah.
i just tot of fadie. n cudnt help laffin.
beb. if u ever get married n becum a mum b4 me.
dun cum tellin me things like this.
hahahahahha. =) i love ya fadie!

wel. past few daes bn good.
boring actually.
went to e it show with shila.
chked out lappies.
diddu came too.
was nice to just to chit chat n all.
e prices are way higher thn i expected
habib.s. was keen on gettin me to buy HP.
bt oh wel. i just went to survey e prices.
decided on fujitsu. frm sch. =)
shila gt hers ready!!!!! heheheh. happy ah!
hmm. tho e thing with dad like very confusin.
i duwanna say much la.
way beyond frustration.
had a good loong talk with e mum with me cryin here n thr.
of cos. tts me. i cry whn i cant take it.
or as n whn i feel like it. hahaha.
so gt sum stuff cleared.
like why things are like tt.
n how its always my fault.
n how i can change things if i changed
my routines n habits. etc. i wil. yeah. da. done.

afta a week of being sick.
bac to e gym with e darlz.
n our darlin dropped e hp halfway otw home
didnt even realise it.
we were happily gettin wet in e rain n up to our usual nonsense.
all e way to e train stn n shes panickin
n we go thru options while rushin bac to e gym
thn see it on e ROAD!
it fell out whn she was takin out her earpiece!
goodness. in abt 10 min our mindset
went frm lets go crazy to OH NO DIE LA!!
serious. hahahha.

n SHAMZER!!!
i chat with her afta sooo long!!
tol her abt my sch nstuff.
shes doin fantabulous in germany. hmmm
n like ive said b4. shes like my idol
frm within e family.
to haf achieved loads.
one of which being losing a whole lot of weight!!!
n so i haf a new list on wd to eat.
wd not to eat.
wd kinda exercise to do.
wd to do n wd to avoid.
hahahahah. yay.
nw. e problem.
to stick to e plan n b disciplined.
hahaha. i will. i haf a good motivator. [fantastic i wud say]
hu wil force me to wake up damn early
to go run. to go exercise.
hu wil go "this wil make u fat. tt wil make u fat"
bt realise im already fat? -_-
oh well. atleast afta all e years of sayin i wil do sth abt it
im finally really doin sth. hahahah.

hmmmm.
tml sum shoppin with e bestie.
speakin of which.
"hurl abuses" nice choice of werds. *winks*
lotsa love ppl.

muackz
julie.b.

ps. i dreamt tt all my lovelies frm flyer
were at my hse. sth nostalgic.
sth hmm heartwarmin. bt u noe.
tt feeling .
missin em loads. ='(

2009-03-13T21:39:00.002+08:00

random.
funny.
hilarious.
twinkle2 little star!
lotsa love
muackz
julz.

2009-03-10T18:23:00.002+08:00

i had a blast with e gals.
medical chkup with zura
at wdlnds civic centre.
hahahah. damn funny.
whn it was my to see e doc..
whn he had his stethescope on my chest
i started laffin nonstop.
all e way til e chkup was over.
n i haf no idea why.
now i wun b surprised if e blank next to
MENTAL DISPOSITION would b
: laughs uncontrollably on her own. unfit for e course.
sth like tt. hahahaha.
i was thinkin abt azura!!!! n her face kept poppin into my head
i juz cudtn control my self!!
ohmy gosh. ive gone mad. for real.
gosh. e whole dae went well.
bt started off bad.
cos i BLODDY CRACKED MY CONTACT LENSE.
n it costs me abt 200 just to replace one!
n both e folks literaly took turns to call me
n scream at me. n make my life more miserable thn it already is.
yes its my mistake. bt it has happened already!!
wth can i do?!!??!!
i had to pay up. so it didnt cross my mind to call n tell u dad.
ok. so both of u shud b very satisfied.
thank u for spoilin my otherwise fantastic dae.
with my gals.
shila joined us at cthall. we long johned
thn headed to bishan. BISHAN. just to take our passport size fotos.
at ID Photo.
i guess.
cos its bn ages since we all went to bishan.
hahahahah.
thn a lil shoppin at cotton on.
i was gona get e shoes.
bt as ive used up almos all my money on
e lenses. thn i better dunt use.
bt just for e sake i called e mum
n gt another round of screamin
n gt hung up as well.
i think if i had to see e doc now
my blood pressure wud haf exceeeded e normal rate.
it sucks ok., seriously.
n dear daddy,
JUST COS I HAF MONEY IN HAND DOESNT MEAN I SPEND LAVISHLY.
u are damn well wrong.
i haf nvr ever in my life shopped lavishly on aniting.
so thr.
i wanted to get e lenses done asap. so i didnt think
i gave e money. cos its impt to me!
i didnt spend tt much on CLOTHES. OR SHOES. OR BAGS OR JEWELRY.
if it was on tt. thn its called LAVISH. ok? ok? OK OR NOT?!?
im so damn angry.
i can juz scream my head out.
like really.
im finaly goin to sch.
i wanna b as hapy as possible.
i need to get sum stuff.
i need to shop a lil.
i just dont understan why e folks dont understan tht.
like seriously.
if evryting is not necesary.
thn my goin to sch is also just as wel not necessary ryt?!
just get me damn well married off la.
wash ur hands off me.
if im askin too much.
for all e things i dun ask at all.
u think this is too much. i gt seriously nth to say at all.
no one wud think im 20 afta readin this entry.
they'd think im sum 13 yr old
beggin her folks to give her a life. or sth
nw im home.
confirm later stuff are gona fly
lotsa hurtful remarks.
sarcasm. n shit.
im seriously COUNTIN E DAES TO 16TH APRIL.
aaaaaaaaaaaargh
bye la k BUHBYE. bye
julie.

2009-03-08T18:04:00.002+08:00

this happened exactly a week ago.
i had a really .. good conversation.
more of an eye openin situation.
with someone.
im not very close to this person.
we noe each other.
n i gues our families are related sumwhr in e family tree.

i gues many ppl do know tt
my father has done a second marriage.
happened abt 5 yrs ago.
thrs alot ppl dun noe n i dun usuali talk abt it at all.
onni to my very close loved ones.
ppl hu really understand whr im cumin frm.

n this one person.
shes a nice lady. we get along fine.
its just tt i didnt expect her to talk to me abt my family.
for one thing. generally speakin.
it always made me feel like. all thos ppl hu ask e
hws things n all. they are just simply busybodies.
just curious to find out hows things goin on.
simply narrow minded. n ppl hu dont care abt how im feeling.
cos if they barely rmbr. im e one hus living with my family.
many ppl gossip. many ppl just straight out ask aloud in public
in frnt of e many busybody indian muslims.
i kinda got used to it. kind of only.
of cos i get angry. im hurt insyd.
i duwan ppl to sympathize.
its not like my family is dwn e drain or sth.
it just sucks tt u haf to cum n tok to me abt my own family.
good enuff im struggling to adapt to evryting.
i seriously dont need any kind of sympathy.

so we're bac to this aunty.
like i said i like her.
n i noe she realy meant well.
bt i seriously cudnt help it.
i cried. cos it really hurt.
my family situation has become e talk of town kinda thing.
she just wanted to noe whthr evryting is fine.
n i really dunoe why.
sth just made me tell her evryting.
evry single thing.
mebe its cos i just wanted her e noe e real deal.
rather thn u noe. just act like its all alryt.
year afta year. in these 5 years.
there haf bn soo many blow ups. heart breaks.
disasters. u name e worst case scenario. it has happened.
n truly. realy. i dun haf a say in aniting.
so whn this lady asked me or rather. just wondered out aloud.
"i really wonder how ur mother is taking it all."
i just. didnt noe wd to say.
wel. wht i did say was.
"my mother didnt haf any choice.
shes gt 2 gals."
wel all's said.
now my family is so much better off thn b4.
i can safely say alhamdulillah.
bt thn again. its just another matter of.
lyin to myself tt im soo ok with evryting.
n thn e topic moved to me n my future.
n thr was sth this lady said which has bn in my head all week.
"nvr to compromise. cos its your life."
dont ever make decison based on what ur parents say.
or what others say.
its your life. make gd decisions n stick by it.

yeah i will.
thanks to this lady.
ive bn thinkin alot all week.
wonderin what im gona do.
im gona b 20 this yr.
alhamdullilah. ive gt a place in poly.
a dip whn im 23. n b4 i can think abt werkin
e folks wil thinkin abt gettin me hitched.
i dun dwell on it. im not worried sick over it.
just u noe. its annoyin.
bt its realy .very. very. very. scary.
tts e truth. im scared of aniting to do with
gettin married. cos ive seen so much.
nt just my own family. many out thr.
we all watch movies as well. we noe e stuff
i just duwanna go anywhr near it.
i haf so many things i wanna do.
i wanna travel. see as much of e werld as i can
n seriously. i dont think i can trust anione enuff
to live with him. if by chance i were to meet sumone.
n things proceeded towards marriage.
i noe im gona b e one hus gona backout.
cos im a coward. cos im so afraid of reality.
id rather just b on my own. b independant.
haf a fantastic job. earn enuff to keep my folks happy
n myself happy too. i just cannot seem to think abt
a better half in my life.
mebe its all u noe. too much to take in
so im bullshittin. n whn tym cums things wil b different?
i really dont noe. i really really dont noe.
i hate tt . simple.

n thn ppl say. nth is certain in life.
put ur faith in GOD n just go on with life.
tings wil b ok.
yeah. sure. i noe. hmmm.

i wish. i can b sumwhr else.
on my own. alone.
sumtyms tts wd u really need.
sum alone tym.
no disturbances. no sad thougths.
just peace. perfection. relaxation.
n i sound like a 30 ur old mother with 5 kids
hu needs a break.
wtf. im onni 20 siol.
im gona enjoy my life. i wil.
haha. tts all.
feel so much better now.
m off to readin my book.
swallowin grandma. =)

lotsa loves

muackz
julie.b

2009-03-07T21:41:00.001+08:00

hehe.
orientation on e 16th.
sch starts on 20th.
i just cant wait.
CONGRATS TO MY DARLINZ.
zura shila n intan!!
we are officially POLY STUDENTS YAWWWWWWW =)

tyming is not good.
whn i need e pc to werk
so tt i can fin my e-enrolment stuff...
nth is werkin. yay. naabae.
oh wel. tml is e onni dae i can catch my dad at home
yes. catch is e werd. hes nvr arnd. most of e tym.
yea. so whn hes at home.
thrs no pc for me to go online n do up e financial stuff.
its frustratin. bt nvm. haish.

i cant wait to go shoppin!!
hheheheh
i just cant wait to go to sch afta a whole year!

i msged papa. to tell him
n seriously tellin u. i miss him many2.
hes one of e kindest most lovin person i noe.
n seriously e stuff he has said to me.
things il nvr forget. things which motivate me.
wanna make him proud.
hes one of e best things tt ever happened to me n e yr 08.
love me papa lots.

oh wel. tts al for now.
til my pc werks fine again.
til evrytings all done.
til my life settles dwn.
buhbye ppl.
lotsa love.
muackz
julz.

sum tings just haf to stop once i start sch,
like for real .
dear god. pls give me e strength to
b disciplined. to do e ryt things.
n to make e ryt decisions.
becos. i really duwanna blow this chance.
thank u so much.

ya buhbye.
n oh e lesbies turnin SWEET 16.
happy 16th dearie. ilu.

2009-03-05T19:07:00.003+08:00

Dear ZULAIHA BEGUM BTE MOHAMED H ,
We are pleased to inform you that you have been offered
[3 Yrs] NYP - Business Management, C943 at Nanyang Polytechnic.
An enrolment package will be mailed to you
for you to indicate your course acceptance

hehehhe.
just for fun.
cos im soo happy!!!!
n i can go to my blog as n whn n relive my happyness. =)

n btw me n zura gona b sch mates!
hehhehehe. yay. yay. yay.
school HERE I COOOMEEEEE.

HEHEKZ.
TATA.
wont b online since e pc is officially really dead.
rest in peace.
oh sch means. [NEW LAPTOPPPPP] hehhehehe. yay.
possibly a new fone.
n lotsa new clothes.
okokok. im done. buhbye.

muackz. julz.

2009-03-05T14:48:00.002+08:00

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I GT INTO NYPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
DIP IN BIZ MGMT!!!!

life is good or what?!?!?!?!
i just cant believe it!!!

heheheheh.
me n shila chked our results together while
on e fone. hahahha.

ya allah!
thank u soo much!!!
thank u soo soo much.
hehehehhehe.
i gt nth else to say

i wanna jump n scream n go
WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
need to celebrateeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

hehehehhe
I WANNA SCREEEEEAAAAAAAM!!!
heheheh.
ok done.
buhbye"!!!!!

yay. finally. yay!!
heheheh.

muackz
julie.b

2009-03-01T19:24:00.002+08:00

harloooooooooooooz.
first up.
i wan this fone.
heheheheh.

e bestie too.
heheheh.
w995.
coooooooool or wd!??!?!
hehehe. oryt. done.

hmmm.
haven bn arnd lately.
exactly 4 more daes to jpae results.
gt butterflies in e tummy yaw!
i dun reallynoe wd to expect.
or how to react whthr i get into poly or not.
lets just wait n see eh? hmmm
wonder if e gals are meetin up for e results?
oi. let me noe !!

wds happened?
nth at all.
stayed over at amulus last nyt.
great food. n great company.
lotsa crappin. ive missed my baby. haha.
hes growin up soo suppa fast!
soon he'l b tokin nonstop. like e sis. =)
yakkity yak yak. yak.
n oh i gt paid by my uncle.
for massagin him for abt 20 min.
i can gt used to it. really. need e cash!

met up with hudaya.
last saw her on new yrs eve.
n thn met her like 2 mths later.
hehe. great just sittin unda e blk
n talkin away.
more like gossipin. n wdtever nots.
its bn long la. so much we caught up on.
really missin e lets go to werk. werk werk werk.
n gossip gossip gossip. meet crap customers.
miss e geng jahat. evyting.
bt i gues all gd things cum to an end.
il get evryting bac on track once im off to sch. =]

ah. e paps b dae n e aunts b dae.
one totally not eventful. n another.
completely eventful.

e dad celebrated his 44th with mumsie outsyd.
so nth much. i juz wished him n tts it.
e aunt invited me to dinner.
with her mum. bestie. n boyfie.
n we had a blast. at my old werk plc.
Thai Express.
to think it y first tym havin a scruptous meal thr.
afta duneo how many yrs.
i haven eaten e food frm thr since i stopped werkin thr.
heheheh.
oh wel. ive alwya sbn a fan of good thai cuisine. so hehekz.
thn lepak at starbucks crapppin. ful of nonsense.
n evyting all e way til late
myaunts bestie. is TOTALLY HILARIOUS!!!
laffin nonstop all e way til we left for home.
truly i had an amazin dae.
bn sum tym since i had fun like this.
n of cos e b dae woman looked GORGEOUS!
hehehehe. hmmmm.

tts all for now.
b bac real soon.
n oh. yeah. fate. no fate la beb.
no fate. at all.
muackz. julz.

2009-02-14T21:45:00.004+08:00

happy valentines day ppl! =)

i spent v dae with e bestie! =)

better thn nth seriously. hahah.

qoute of e dae "valentines dae is irritatin la!"

thanks to e bestie. heheheh.

dinnered at northpoint n realised

thr are lotsa new stalls at e foodcourt.

think its gona b like e sec sch daes.

we gona b dinner-ing here often to try out all e diff food. =)

e onni setback was.. the placed was PACKED WITH PPL.

wel its a sat nyt. e queue outsyd sakura was like WHOA.

hehehhe.

started with sushi n ended with

cadbury black forest mc flurry thingie.

n vanilla milkshake.

woohooness.

thn realised tt e bebe was losin her voice.

nearly thr. abt 3 quaters of her voice...

realised tt at this rate. on her b dae

whn im gona wish her over e fone. she'l prolli go

"thank u. il msg u. msg2 pls. "

n il prolli b like. "didnt hear a werd u said. juz msg k. bye"

hehehehehhe.

time check. [just to irritate u beb]

3 more daes to fadies 20th!

evryone say "woohooo!!" hehekz.

so its e tym of year.

love is in e air. [N OH. GLENN ONE . JAMIE YEO ARE DIVORCED!!]

evrywhr u go u see ppl sellin

flowers. cute teddies. whtnots.

for sum ppl. its e most impt dae of their lives. [ppl with no life]

for others. id like to qoute diddu.

"for us evrydae is like valentines dae. so its nth special."

hahahaha.

sum ppl just dont celebrate la.

simple as tt. hahaaha.

i haf e habit of buyin e newpaper every v dae.

jus to look at all e mushy stuff on e paper. e lovelines tingie

n one news which gt me thinkin.

e woman hu gt into an accident moments b4 she was gona get married.

just goes to show aniting can happen anytym.

like here we are wishin n dreamin abt tt ultimate dae..

liek our weddin dae is like a happens once in a lifetym kinda thingie.

n the woman who cud haf bn married n all.

is now in coma stage due to an accident

just moments b4 she tied e knot.

hmmm.

its sundae tml.

malas nk gi cls. aaaargh.

boyfie n lesbie. pls get ur asses

to tiong bahru tml. i miss u guys. millionz.

lotsa loves

muackz

julie.b

2009-02-12T22:02:00.004+08:00

im just addicted to this song.
it is sooo addictive.
n funny!!!
"bloody bugger!!!"
"DONT ANGRY ME. "
whahhahaha.
tho e movie mcm..
so so onni la. =)

next up.
SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE.
i soo wanna watch e movie!!
must ask chellamz whn shes free.
thn we go. hehekz.
e folks are catchin it tml nyt.
wth. haha.

met e bestie!!
we dinnered n jln2.
tok tok tok. hahaha.
laffed over a hundred stuff
ive missed all tt..
so happy. hahakz.

i juz cant seem to stop
listenin to anjalae. hehekz.
yea its an emo song. correct.
bt e lyrics. are really strong luh.
hhehehhe.
stuff like

"Yaaro koodave varuvar yaaro pathiyil povar
Athu yaaru enna onnum namme kaiyil illaiye.."

really woohoo.

n another song.
i love. mazhai tuli. frm sangamem.
gives u a nice warm feelin insyd.
hehekz. nuff said.

e weekends almost here.
mcm boring je.
haish.
oh fadie i found e purple bk liao!
hehehehh.
yay. sth to do over e wkend.
now i gtg.

lotsa loves ppl
muackz
julz.

2009-02-11T20:47:00.008+08:00

muke stress. juz like mine.

e dads at home.
evryones at home.

i wanna tok abt my sch issues.

evryones goin abt their own biz.

watchain tv tt is

whn mum toks abt it to dad.

its like almost endin up in a fight.

sudenli thr are qns like

"wd if i cant get a loan."

"what if she cant pay u bac"

wht if poly is e only chance i haf?

alryt ppl. enuff.

im goin to fill up my SIM forms.

we'll go for e admission stuff on mondae.

il go for e orientation durin march

whn my poly results cum.

we wil see what to do.

so much is goin thru my head.

i need to stop thinkin.

its like AAAARGH.

alot of diff opinions on wht can b done

alot of facts.

for now. i saw sum cute pics on flickr.

it whrs i took e pic on top frm.

cute la kan.

gd tamil songs. n funny pictures.

n the thought of goin for a run again tml mornin

is makin me feel much better.

thing is e body is achin enuff.

i cant run.

wait for e dad to fin with his tv

m gona watch thindukkal saarathi n fold clothes.

on a gd note.

MISSED CALLS!!!! heheheh.

wth. bad tymin la k.

really bad tymin.

now i undastan e hw e bestie feels.

hehehhekz.

ya allah.

pls help me.

show me e ryt path.

n pls. dun make my parents fight

i had enuff.

its like evytym e dads at home

i fear. "oh no. are they gona fight?

its like im there to stop aniting

juz whn i feel the tension is growin

or e voices are gettin louder.

or thrs alot of sarcasm im like

CAN U GUYS STOP!??!?!

i cnt slp late tonyt. pls dun fight.

haha. wth. im not bitchin abt my folks.

im juz very stressed la k.

i wan to eat icecream. sumone buy for me. pls.

sth random frm flickr.
nice la.

aaawww!! cho cho cute la!!!!!!

heheheh. another really cute one.

i think , therefore i am.

lotsa love darlinz.

muackz

julz.

2009-02-10T08:29:00.004+08:00

i haf great news.
i have been accepted into SIM!!!
ya allah. thank u soo much.
its really all tt i ve bn waitin for
to go bac to sch!
mummy called in to tell me
whn i was at zuras plc.
applyin for poly.
theres a bit of a problem now
cumin to it.
bt i seriously cant bleeev it!
like my orientation dates n class has all bn
fixed... gosh im finally goin bac to SCHOOOOOOOL!

nw the problem n my confusion.
i haf to send in my admission forms
n first 2 semester's fees in by 20th feb.

and my poly results only come in
on 5th march.

SIM = exp.
poly = way too long. meanin 3 yrs.

my SIM edu wil end in 1 n half yrs.
costin me abt almost 10 k.

my poly edu on the other hand wil end in 3 yrs.
n cost abt 5 k.

2 impt things to note.
TIME. MONEY.

how?

i can choose to go ahead into SIM.
go for my orientations.
blah blah. n whn i get my poly results.
see whthr id like to go on to poly or stay on with SIM.

if i were to withdraw b4 e commencement of course at SIM..
i get a ful fees refund less all e administrative charges.
thats wds written on e forms.
im gona call em up just to confirm.

nw abt what my parents think.

mummy.
wants me to go ahead with SIM.
thinks tt its fast. only 1 n half yrs.
im not gettin ani younger. 20 this yr.
atleast by 21 il b done.
i can get a job n werk n save up.
mebe for a degre.
n by thn [IN HER HEAD ALL THIS AH]
i myt get to noe sumone
n get married n if i wanna further my studies.
itsup to me. as long as im wekrin n evyting. settled dwn abit.

daddy.
says 9 - 10 k. is not easy money.
n in 1 n half yrs. they wil b sortaf crammin in all e modules
its gona b tough for me.
i can go through 3 yrs. in poly.
the course wil b like sortaf spread out.
i can haf enuff tym for revision wdsoever, abit of relax tym n all.
plus. govt wd. more advantages.
bt thn again. if i don get into poly.
thn i dun haf a choice. just cont with SIM.

what i say.
half my head says.
ready gt a sch ryt. just go. dun waste tym
study hard. 9 k not easy money.
make sure i do wel. n make e parents proud.
another half says.
wth. wanted poly all the way ryt.
if i get go in la. just withdraw from SIM.

aaargh. god help me la.
how how how?

a smal discussion with amulus folks.
cos im here now.
whthr il b able to cope with e stress or not.
since ive already gotten a plc. dun see e money.
the thought has to do with...
i MUST do well. n go sumwhr.
goodness. help.

gona call e sim ppl.
once im home. ask stuff abt e withdrawl stuff.
n thn i gues im off to sch.

uncle says tt ive worked b4.
highly unlikely of me to cont to my degree afta e dip
i gues so. cos thrs no money for degree wd.
nw like e future is infnt of me.
stuff like afta dip. werk. afta werk.
get marrie.d n thn mebe persue my degree.
aaargh
scary siol.

sounds so typical indian muslim kinda thignie.
sucks big tym. n thn on top of all this
dada is sudenli goin on abt
havin found sumone to get me married to.
sum uztads son. like wth. like i bother.
hus gona marry him?
nt me. no way.
n my mum was like "yay. u wil stay with me forever."
hahahha. im so sorry ppl
i duwanna stay here.
buhbye. adios. amigos.

lotsa loves.
muackz'
julie.b.

2009-02-08T21:15:00.003+08:00

eh sialla!!!
im tearin profusely!!
my eyes are tired!!
IM LACKIN SLLLLPPPPPPPPPPP
had abt 4 hours of slp last nyt.
off to madrasah in e mornin.
tot gona meet rami. so makeup a bit.
usualy sundaes are my zombie daes.
no make up nth. specky wacky
bt todae i made an extra effort
tho i knew my eye were gona hurt
i wore my contacts.
n thn e sleepin beauty decyds to wake up at 2 45PM!
naabae. thank god i went straight to amulus afta cls.
even thn it didnt occur to me tt i shud take off e lenses.
nw im home. specky wacky
n evryting is soo blur!!
cos im tearin!!
mum tot im cryin or sth like mcm gt storey or sth
n its only becos i haven had a gd rest for my eyes.
HAIYOO. damn irritatin la.
nonstop siol!
i cant read anione blogs
i cant even see clearly wht im typin haiyoooooish!
im gona slp in abt 10 min.
afta im done bloggin
TML GOIN TO ZURAS PLC WITH SHILAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
we all gona applyyyy for poly!
i dunoe why. bt its SUPPA SCARY LA DAE!!
i keep tryin to avoid thinkin abt it.
haha.
i gotta b up at 6 45. leave e hse at 8 .n b at pasir ris bt 9 plus.
aaaaaargh. oh wel.
hu cares. i need to spend quality tym with e gals as well
haven seen em ince.. whn ah?
long long ago la. haish.
im stil tearin la. can u bleev it.
this has nvr happened b4 in my life.
oh goood. y now. y like this!!?!?

a random thought.
v dae cumin liao.
habibi. was like. " no one has asked me out."
hahah. damn funny la e guy
i rmbr whn e bestie saw him.
she evaporated. hahahahahhaha.
those were e daes.
hahahah,
k im off to slp my eyes are killin me.
i duwanna go blind.
i gt 3 impt bdaes cumin.

e besties. 17th.
e aunties. 24th
e papa's. 26th.

duneo wd e besties doin on hers.
e aunty needs to noe whthr i can make it
for she has to reserve seats at thai express at plaza sing.
n my papa. we dun celebreate birthdaes in my hse.

e aunty issue myt b a prob.
n thrs always e granma hus gud at this kinda situation.
she was soo cute noe.
she went. "if we all go out makan ah. will u cum?"
haha like she doesnt noe me at all.
of cos i will cum wd.
she jus has to do all e tokin. haha.
it wud b fun eh.. hmmm.

n OI BESTIE. im brooooooooke.
ur b dae prezzies onni cum in afta 2 mths of sch.
oryt. :D
i love u. u love me.
we all love drty dancing havana nyts. =)

now. im off.
buhbye ppl.
lotsa loves. hugs. bugs.
muackz
julz.

ps. amulus family movin to AMK
in a fw mths tym. YEEEEHAAAAAAA.
i cant wait. their new hse gona b my 2nd home.
hahahah. i juz cant wait. suppa excited. =)

2009-02-06T22:19:00.004+08:00

im kinda hurtin alot ryt now.
e onni way to let it all out.
blog.
aint no matter whthr e matter is really personal.
its over aniway.
i dun care hus gona read it.
cos seriously. its all my fault.

its wad all my close frens said
a fling. sth stupid. my stupidity.
yet i wanted to haf "fun"
e bestie said tt i liked e attn he was givin.
so yea. true. i did.
i made myself a promise.
nt to go bac into it.
gt myself into alot of trouble durin new yr.
so myt as wel. let evrythin go
start afresh for e new yr.
new things to look forward to.
bt i cudnt do it. i tried. it was painful.
instead of being e nice n carin one.
i became e total bitch. sarcasm in evrything i did or said.
n ofcos. made use of him as much as i cud.
cos in e end.. wd was e point. n hu cares? ryt?
thn how cum its so fkin painful now.
whn i hear werds like. e best is 4 me to let go.
it was all i was waitin for.
i was plannin for.
i was ready for.
n whn its finaly here. haish.
im so stupid. arent i. yeah i m. of cos.
im so stupid.
nvm.
e bestie said it wil nvr werk.
n like she said. it nvr did. nvr wil
thanks fadie. for undastandin tt im such a dumbass.
i love u loads.

no im not cryin.
juz burdened. bt il get over it.
very soon. cos im like tt.
beter things to look forward to
like sch. sch. sch. losing weight.
n e bikeguy. sumhow.
i stil turn out to b e bitch.
leadin ppl on.
pretendin evrytings alryt.
steppin into fire whn i noe its bloody hell hot fire.
haish. nvm. im done now.
writing always has its advantages. =)
i gues i wun haf animore disturbances. for real.
no more scary thoughts of gettin caught.
no more thoughts of betrayal.
ya allah. thank u very much.
what i tot was gona b difficult.
turned out pretty simple.
im stil living my life tryin to figure out
what kinda person i really am.
seriously tts a huge qn.
for now. lets go read other ppls blogs
n think of whats gona happen tml.
gym in da am. n thn prayers at e uncles.

focus on whts impt.
* gainin my parents trust.
* losing abt atleast 15 kg
[is tt too much. just get to my ideal weight la k.]
* start n concentrate on school.
n oh.
* get on with e regular praying.
yep3.
thanks blogger. for lettin me blog.
muackz
julz.

ps. its tym for a new blogskin.
mcm malas nk cari.

2009-02-06T15:55:00.004+08:00

katy perry.

i think shes gorgeous.

n i love her songs.

their on repeat now. =)

so qoute of the dae.

thanks to fadie wadie.

Missyfadie is chanting "Fall Out Boy" says:
cold da.

Missyfadie is chanting "Fall Out Boy" says:
i cant see blood in my hands.

whahahah. ' wth. hahaha .

Missyfadie is chanting "Fall Out Boy" says:
i mean, its pale.

so next tym whn sumone says

i cant see blood in my hands [i doubt ani1 wil..]

u noe they are freezin..

as usual e bestie gt me laffin like e mad woman i m. =)

hmmm.

another one more funny thing.

was chattin with shaheed afta god noes hw long.

funny how sumone how used to b soo quiet

whn we were in pri sch..

turned out to be e hot hot guy WHO TALKS ALOT.

hehe. so. hes tp is in a few daes.

n so thr was a whole lot goin on abt whthr i shud take private/sch wdsoever.

n so he asked. whthr i liked to b spoonfed or independant.

so regardin this. i posted e same qn to fadie.

n this is what i gt in return.

Missyfadie ~sorethroat. says:

if spoonfed, what if u dont learn anything

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
beb. spoonfed means they teach u

evry single thing. give u all e information.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
-_-

Missyfadie ~sorethroat. says:
heh.

Missyfadie ~sorethroat. says:
how i know.

Missyfadie ~sorethroat. says:
-_-

hehehe.

we are both blur sotongs.

correction. im e more blur one.

bt haha. we make each others dae.

becos we are like tt. hahahah. =)

another one more thing.

shes off to the FOB concert nxt tues.

talkin abt wht she shud wear.

was tellin her to go with e simple tshirt jeans

n accessorise with her beads n all.

n she went.

"ya il b near e standin n

ppl push n thr go my beads."

n i heard. "thr go my BOOBS."

haha. im partially deaf. forgive me.

we ended up laffin n laffin.

n laffin . its like an evrydae thing now

" laffin lunch hour. "

her lunch hour. her entertainment. me. =)

il b off for a badminton session in a while.

did sum notes on facebk.

learnt frm e bestie.

sorry la. k. im ignorant in these stuff.

wel. wds e bestie for ? heheh. she knows evything.

thank all gods. haha.

hmmm. few more daes to 2 impt things.

poly application. b off to zuras hse early in e am.

with shila n ain i think.

apply n thn blow bubbles. =) haven done tt in ages.

n oh hehe.

we have exactly 11 more daes. =)

lotsa love ppl

muackz

julie.b.

ps. i miss e flyer.

n my geng jahat.

haish. =[

2009-02-03T20:40:00.002+08:00

helos.
bn away for a long tym.
lets just say.
im lazy. yea. =)

e headache is over.
e almadrasah noorul islam's annual anni
is over! like finally!
sum gd effort put in by nasreen n me.
gt e script almos done at zam2. opp sultan mosque.
at arnd 9 am.
zam2 's chicken murtabak rocks la dae. =)
few cock ups here n thr.
bt its all over. duwanna tok abt it.=)

my kl trip. rocked.
enjoyed loads. shopped alot.
shoppin. sunwaylagoonin. shoppin again.
secret midnyt makan sessions.
n thrs this coffee stand ryt outsyd e hotel.
kopie-satu. FANTABUSLOUS ice-blended mocha.
me.. being e sucker for sum gd coffee... cudnt resist!!!
n suppa cheap sumore! hahaha. =) yummy-ness.
it wud haf bn a whole lot more fun if e entire family
came. bt none-the- less.
i wudnt mind another trip to sumwhr else
with e same grp. hehekz.
sunway lagoon. fun. nth much has changed
since e last tym i went thr. hundred yrs ago.
bt i tell u my granny is one sporty woman.
came for all e rides n all.
n my dad tryin to drown amulus mum n all.
crazyness. n lotsa laffter. e entire dae. hahah.
memories. nice pleasant uber funny ones.
gt kinda lonely sumtyms.
cos i didnt haf my cousins or my sis arnd
only amulu. n thrs nth much other thn babysiting him.
cant tok things or aniting
to a 1 n half yr old todd can i? :P
like whn i go to bed in e nyt afta e whole dae.
i gues i think alot. abt e probs.
n just wish things wil fall in plc
bt oh wel. i prayed evrydae.
n asked for e next dae to b a fantastic one.
n yesh. it all turned out well. yippie for tt. =)

started my gymming again.
gues its abit awkward.
bt its tym to get in shape.
n hu cares hus lookin
sumtyms i haf sumone to go with.
other tyms gues i gotta go alone.
hmmmmm.

cyn called just now.
i must say i was surprised.
didnt expect a call or aniting.
i miss e entire gang.
n e first thig she said was "we need u"
omg. aagrh. i really hope i can make it.
its dinner sat nyt. cos veenas goin off to australia
if im not rong. wun b bac for 2 yrs.
tol her il get to her soon. hmmm .
im havin images of evryone.
mas. suma. veena. my darlin aziziiiiiiiiiiiiii.
cyn ,N MOSES!!! gosh. hmm.
i gues. they are part my life. a huge part.
n to think i haven even paid for my cert!
whn i had all e money i dunoe wtf i was doin.
n now. wel. haf to go abt it real soon.
hu noes mebe im not allowed to get e cert or sth.
juz pray i can meet em.

wel. things nvr ever happen e way we want them to.
if they ever do its once in a blue moon.
yeah. fadie u hang in thr k.
we'll look thru e options n sort things out slowly.
nvr give up on aniting.
cos life is liek tt. it has to suck. if not its not life
n if we give up thn thrs no point in being alive.
wokies. n oh. no decisions of killin urself or anione k.
im here for u k. no matter wad.
i noe u bn waitin very long for sth gd to happen.
wel. uve waited this long.
nt gona hurt to wait for summore ok?
lotsa love baybeh.
fadei wadies bdae is cumin. so smile ok.
usuali shit alwys happens whn ur b dae is cumin.
bt oh wel. fk it n b happy.
U DESERVE TO B.
easy to say.i noe. bt try k.
i love u darllin. ragin hormones. spermified. =)
*hugs*

[are u all happy now ? i blogged ready.
e boyfie n bestie shout n shout n shout.
ok i meant jus e boyfie. haha. bestie juz asked. ]

2009-01-24T16:24:00.004+08:00

im leavin for kl tonyt peepz.
for now.
im e 19 yr old with e raging hormone.s
n my bestie. is e one with dyin hormones.
many of u wunt get it.
wel. im gona copy paste my entire convo with fadie.
ok no. bits n peices i gues.
suppa funny la. i haven laffed like this in AGES !

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..:
aloz.

Missyfadie says:
hey

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..:
hws u? werk goin wel?

Missyfadie says:
stoned.

Missyfadie says:
this girl has amazing voice

Missyfadie says:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z-KsyCyV1mk&feature=channel_page

Missyfadie says:
haaha

Missyfadie says:
i am in love with her videos

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..:
ooh haf u seen

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..:
rin on e rox?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
2 philipine gals

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
they are also fabulous

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n damnfunny

Missyfadie says:
why

Missyfadie says:
are they stupid funny

Missyfadie says:
or nice funny.

Missyfadie says:
haaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
both la. depends.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahah

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
rin on the rox. the non angmoh gal. i love her voice.

Missyfadie says:
this girl tt i gave u also

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
irin n roxane. irins voice. wooho

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
this gal oso. i like.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahha

Missyfadie says:
great voice

Missyfadie says:
yepp

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
chinese gals haf gd quality voice

Missyfadie says:
yepp

Missyfadie says:
i seriously felt like jumping at the singapore river

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
EH EH. DUN DO STUPID STUFF LIEK JUMPIN INTO E RIVER

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
U CANT SWIM

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
for heavens sake.

Missyfadie says:
thats why

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
u haven had sex rmbr?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
so dunt.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
=)

Missyfadie says:
i dont care already lah.

Missyfadie says:
ha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
heheh im tryin to inject sum humor her.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
gues nt werkin

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
haha

Missyfadie says:
ahaha

Missyfadie says:
we'll see

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
gue snth afta tt?

Missyfadie says:
?

Missyfadie says:
gue snth afta tt?

Missyfadie says:
what language sia

Missyfadie says:
hahaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
julz. lang. i can open a huge dictionary siol

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i meant. guess nth afta tt?

Missyfadie says:
style

Missyfadie says:
i will help

Missyfadie says:
after learning it

Missyfadie says:
-_-

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahah

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahahha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
im such a dumbo siol

Missyfadie says:
u see the one that has the lock one

Missyfadie says:
that is locked.

Missyfadie says:
as in the lock.

Missyfadie says:
the gate lock

Missyfadie says:
its right beside the date, of the entry

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
yeas can see

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
GATE LOCK

Missyfadie says:
ahhh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
padlock u mean

Missyfadie says:
smart.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ahahahaha

Missyfadie says:
i cant find the damn word la

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
im readin ur entries so tts y im not replyin

Missyfadie says:
haha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n iwas liek HUH? GATE LOCK!?

Missyfadie says:
okayokay.

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
IM LAFFIN TO MYSELF. U BLOODY GATELOCK

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahah

Missyfadie says:
heh

Missyfadie says:
shuddup

Missyfadie says:
i cant find the word

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hmmm.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i said u were stupid eh?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hw cum i dun rmbr?

Missyfadie says:
yeah

Missyfadie says:
u did.

Missyfadie says:
haha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
im done logout reeady.

Missyfadie says:
okayy

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
b4 anione else like my SISTER SEES IT

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
she sgona b home alone for e next few des.

Missyfadie says:
okay babe.

Missyfadie says:
packed for KL?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
last nyt.

Missyfadie says:
have funn

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
all done. jzu malas to pray now

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
u goin offline now?

Missyfadie says:
i wished i can go for a damn holiday

Missyfadie says:
no

Missyfadie says:
why

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
no la. u sounded liek ur leavin

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
haha

Missyfadie says:
-_-

Missyfadie says:
go where

Missyfadie says:
im stuck here till 6

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i was hopoin for a holidae. i hope i enjoy this one. n no probz
cum abt like e last one e disasterous batamn trip

Missyfadie says:
haha

Missyfadie says:
lek

Missyfadie says:
hope for the best

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
yea. haha.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
we stil meetin later? my fone is stil wid me.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
mum forgot tt she gave it to me

Missyfadie says:
heh.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
its in silent mode in my cupboard

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
so u juz msg me la. if im offline

Missyfadie says:
she'll eventually take it back.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
thn arnd 6 i go chk.

Missyfadie says:
u are offline babe

Missyfadie says:
-_-

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i think tt will b AFTA kl.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
as in. if im really goin offline.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
nw im appearin offline

Missyfadie says:
why are u appearing offline acutally

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i duneo. i dun feel liek tokin to anione. i go online n
e whole werld goes liek WT FHAPPEN TO UR FONE

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
I CALL YEST I MSG TODAE. TML

Missyfadie says:
hehehe

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n yea. thr are onni few ppl i wanna tok to. tts u. n shafi. other thn tt i dun tok to anione

Missyfadie says:
okayy

Missyfadie says:
yay

Missyfadie says:
mememeeme

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hehehe yes uuuuuuuu.

Missyfadie says:
hehe

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
e new angmoh guy hu msged me on frensta. turned otu to b disgustin.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
dunoe y. im juz turned off. so blocked ngone.

Missyfadie says:
how come

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i dunoe. no fun la.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
like. nth interestin.

Missyfadie says:
then why disgusting

Missyfadie says:
-_-

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i tok abt kyle xy he tok abt KYLIE MINOGUE

Missyfadie says:
no link.

Missyfadie says:
haaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ask me if im as sexy as her

Missyfadie says:
-_-

Missyfadie says:
stupid.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
u see. stupid ryt. so forget it. hahah.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
wd happen to bikeguy.

Missyfadie says:
haha

Missyfadie says:
forget it.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
does he rmbr me?!?!

Missyfadie says:
he called what

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
didnt ask abt me wd?

Missyfadie says:
HE CALLED YOU IDIOT

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WHN1!?!??!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WHN1!?!??!

Missyfadie says:
HE SAID YOU SWITCHED OFF THE FONEEEE

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
U DIDNT TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD

Missyfadie says:
BECAUSE I DONT HAVE THE BLOODY TIME TO TALK TO U ABT IT.

Missyfadie says:
ARSE.

Missyfadie says:
-_-

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
my god. wtf siol. such a fkin rong tymin.

Missyfadie says:
yaa.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
did u tell him?

Missyfadie says:
then i told him u kena grounded.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
im grounded for like

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
life

Missyfadie says:
then he said, how old is she to be grounded.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n he must haf tot im such a nusance

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
haha. great

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
so embarassin fk la.

Missyfadie says:
then i said, her parents is not as understanding as mine or anyone else.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n thn?

Missyfadie says:
then he was like, i can understand that.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
oh hes indian muslim ryt. he shud noe

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahah.

Missyfadie says:
he said some indian muslim parents can be atrocious.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ind. mus. parents. OMG I LOVE HIM

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
HES SOO NICE.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
HE UNDASTANDS

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
beb. whr. WHR ON EARTH u gt sumone like tt?

Missyfadie says:
if he doesnt, i will kick his arse.

Missyfadie says:
first for calling me at midnight

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i stil cannot believe it siol

Missyfadie says:
second for not understanding

Missyfadie says:
u cant believe what?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
haiya now how? i wun get my fone til god noes whn wd!!!

Missyfadie says:
tht he called me at midnight?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i wanna tok leh!

Missyfadie says:
talk what

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i cant bleive SUCH A GUY EXISTS. N

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
U ACTUALY INTEROGATED HIM

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
N U ACTUALLY THINK HES E BEST FOR ME.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
N WE STIL HAVEN TOK TO EACH OTHER.

Missyfadie says:
er, ya

Missyfadie says:
whats wrong abt that

Missyfadie says:
haaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i stil cant believe it

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
its juz. like... seriousli kape?!??!

Missyfadie says:
i can take him if you dont want

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i noe u wun take him

Missyfadie says:
hahaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i can trust u on tt

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahah

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
=)

Missyfadie says:
i dont date indians

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
all mine.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
heheh alll mine mine mine.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:

Missyfadie says:
-_-

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
so many tyms i tol u b4 to go tou with him n all

Missyfadie says:
yes, first make ur hp urs.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n u instst no way.

Missyfadie says:
then u can call him 'mine'

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
its with em now.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ask him call me!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ok NOOOOOO

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i was jokin.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
cant use e fone at all.

Missyfadie says:
haaah

Missyfadie says:
tau takot

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
memang ah. plus im not prepared.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
wd shud i say to him? HI. im fadies best fren?

Missyfadie says:
wld u have been prepared the other time?

Missyfadie says:
what if he called u at midnight

Missyfadie says:
or when ur shitting

Missyfadie says:
-_-

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
no...AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
IM LAFFIN LIEK A MAD GAL

Missyfadie says:
no funny hor.

Missyfadie says:
-_-

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
MIDNYT IS STIL FINE

Missyfadie says:
he can still continue the conversation even after knowing i was shitting

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
but shittin

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
OMG. U GUYS ARE SUPPA FUYNNYYY LA

Missyfadie says:
he is

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahahhahahahahha

Missyfadie says:
damn irritating

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i like i liek

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
did u tel him i love it whn he irritates u?

Missyfadie says:
that he is irritating

Missyfadie says:
?

Missyfadie says:
y

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n u onni tahan cos its ofr me?

Missyfadie says:
ya*

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
wd he say?

Missyfadie says:
yaa

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
whahahahahahahha

Missyfadie says:
he said, i guess u have to tahan alot more

Missyfadie says:
-_-

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
oh i wudnt mind dae. for all e shit i go thru. sumone hus irritatin. bt fun. n lovin. why not?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
plus e best part is. once if we are together. thn we both can cal u

Missyfadie says:
because he doesnt irritate you

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
whn ur SHITTIN

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

Missyfadie says:
-_-

Missyfadie says:
wonderful

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i can juz imagine u goin

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
zul. im SHITTIN!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i think i wil laff n laff n laff n laafff.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ima lmos cryin now

Missyfadie says:
shuddup

Missyfadie says:
tsk

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
gosh. haish. nw i wish i haf my fone

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i can jzu stare at e fone n wait til he calls.

Missyfadie says:
ya me too

Missyfadie says:
so that he wont irritate me

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
oh i bet u.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
he wil cont irritatin u.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i think its his habit ready

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
=)

Missyfadie says:
great

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ehheheheh.

Missyfadie says:
wonderful

Missyfadie says:
superb

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hehehhehe. yeaps. ive wiatd so long. another 2 mths or so is nth ryt.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahah.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
once i start sch fone is mine wd.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
wad if he finds all this soo childish. thn duwan to get to noe me animore

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
?

Missyfadie says:
huh?

Missyfadie says:
what is childish

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
my parents confiscatin my fone. n all.

Missyfadie says:
nah

Missyfadie says:
i dont find it childish

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
tts u. nt him .bt oh well. WTF .. Y HE RONG TYMING??!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
nw i noe how u feel

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
all those tyms my fone with me. dunoe hwo to call

Missyfadie says:
ya

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
whn i get grounded n fone is as good as rubbish

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
thn he call.

Missyfadie says:
all the times im sleeping and shitting he calls

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hehehehhehehe

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
slpin is ok la

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
BUT SHITTIN

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
U GT ME LAFFIN AGAIN!

Missyfadie says:
imagine my cramp face

Missyfadie says:
then the call came in

Missyfadie says:
babi betol.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
y u pic up n wth is ur fone doin in e toilet

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
BABI BETOL!
..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahah

Missyfadie says:
private da

Missyfadie says:
i tot worl

Missyfadie says:
work

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
oooooh. hahahha .

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i dun bring my fone to e toilet. ever since shafi alwys calls. shafi n minzi

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
whnever im at e shower

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
wil call

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n shafi wil put dwn u noe

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
bt MINZI WIL CONT TOKIN .

Missyfadie says:
thats irritating also

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
IL B LIKE hoiiiiii im naked n wet all ovr cheebai put dwn e fone

Missyfadie says:
i will also continue talking

Missyfadie says:
if its is sth important

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n she wil b like. oooooooh. nice ncie. summore

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
impt ok la. bt nt impt n tryin to make fun.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
tts irritatin

Missyfadie says:
"NAKED AND WET ALL OVER CHIBAI."

Missyfadie says:
hokay.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WHAHAHHA

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
I DIDNT MEAN IT TT WAY

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
im scoldin her cheebai la

Missyfadie says:
well i read it that way

Missyfadie says:
-_-

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
whahahahhahaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ur seriousli makin me laff

Missyfadie says:
i know

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hmm. if u see any signs of him losin interest in me . tell me k.

Missyfadie says:
u need the laugh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i think u need it more thn i do.

Missyfadie says:
okay i go ask now

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ok go1

Missyfadie says:
yeah i need a whole lot of it

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
wel. we shud meet later

Missyfadie says:
i think man is asking me out

Missyfadie says:
-_-

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
HUH!?!

Missyfadie says:
i am with a swollen eyes, and unmake up face

Missyfadie says:
what huh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
no. surprised hes aksin u out.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
u gona tok things out with him

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
or let things be?

Missyfadie says:
let things be for today

Missyfadie says:
tired

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
okies..

Missyfadie says:
haha

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
relaaax/ its goin to b ok.

Missyfadie says:
hope spo

Missyfadie says:
so*

Missyfadie says:
when my voice is superrrr sexy

Missyfadie says:
-_-
..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
oh e bikeguy confirmed tt

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
haahhaha

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
unlike ME. ur good at not getin emotionally att with anione

Missyfadie says:
but is it fun babe. so long already seh this "FUN"

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
so. dun think think n mix up evyting in e head

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hhehhehe. wel. if its meant to b. this fun cud b real fun.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
get wd i mean

Missyfadie says:
daeee. remember last year i am / was emotionally attached.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
u juz b hu u r.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
SO DUN DO TT AGAIN NOW

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
dun make tt mistake now. b hu u r. u gt better things.
moreimpt things to settle thn get too deep

Missyfadie says:
the last person i am supposed to get emotionally attached to

Missyfadie says:
yeahhh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ahuh. ryt. how cum u think so clever ah

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
y m i e dumbo?

Missyfadie says:
i am always the clever one babe.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i gues whn thrs a plus. thr has to b a minus

Missyfadie says:
(:

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
asshoel. BT SITL I GET E BIKEGUY. not u

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
=)

Missyfadie says:
i just chose to break the rules.

Missyfadie says:
hahaah

Missyfadie says:
aiya

Missyfadie says:
opposite attracts

Missyfadie says:
-_-

Missyfadie says:
heh.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n i always break rules . its like fardhu ain for me. not a choice

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
=)

Missyfadie says:
haahahahahahahahaahhaahahahah

Missyfadie says:
okay thats funneh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
heheheheheheh i made e bestie laff!

Missyfadie says:
heh

Missyfadie says:
fardhu ain la seh

Missyfadie says:
hahaa

Missyfadie says:
like if u said wajib or sth okay lah

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
im gona save this convo. n blog on it. if ih af e tym

Missyfadie says:
haha

Missyfadie says:
go blog nowww.

Missyfadie says:
copy paste.

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
fardhu ain. cos its true wd. whnever i noe sth is rong

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
its liek

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
HUMAN REACCTION

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
to jus try out ..

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
for e sake of it.

Missyfadie says:
yeaaah

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n thn. rest is history

Missyfadie says:
but ure different

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
diff?? hw?

Missyfadie says:
u cannot bring urself up after breaking ther rules.
eyy no. u cannot pull urself out after breaking
the rules.

Missyfadie says:
somehow or another, i can.

Missyfadie says:
heh.

Missyfadie says:
thats why God made us best friends.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
. i get in. thn too deep. thn stuck. cannot cum out

Missyfadie says:
even after i tell u not to get into deep

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
temptations.

Missyfadie says:
idiot

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
beb. temptations.

Missyfadie says:
stupidity

Missyfadie says:
not temptations

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
im a 19 year old teenager with ragin hormone.s

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahahha

Missyfadie says:
yeah, and i have dying hormones?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
now i sound stupid.

Missyfadie says:
-_-

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WHAHHAHA

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
IM LAFFIN LIEK A MAD GAL AGAIN

Missyfadie says:
ya me too

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
SO SAD FADIES hormones are dyin

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
call e bikeguy!!

Missyfadie says:
after i pressed enter

Missyfadie says:
haha

Missyfadie says:
huh?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
tell him!

Missyfadie says:
to tell him my hormones ared dying?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ur hormones ate dyin

Missyfadie says:
crazy woman

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ok tk blh thn

Missyfadie says:
heh.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
stomach pain laffiin

Missyfadie says:
heh.

Missyfadie says:
at least not of cramps.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
. okok i better go pray la

Missyfadie says:
ok

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
im gona save this convo. gimme 20 min.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahah shower pray thn il b bac

Missyfadie says:
are u coming back online?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
. im gona stay offlien. juz gimme a while.

Missyfadie says:
ok

Missyfadie says:
i'll wait here

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
il nudge u

Missyfadie says:
i wanna pee

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahhaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
gogo

Missyfadie says:
cannot tahan

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
all tt laffin

Missyfadie says:
kk

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
UR HORMONES DYIN LA SEHHHHHHH

Missyfadie says:
yalah

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
CAREFUL

Missyfadie says:
i am sitting at the end of the sits

Missyfadie says:
the pee wanna flow out

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ok goooooo

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahah.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
muackz

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
bac

Missyfadie says:
so fast sia

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
wd u wan me to do. slp on e musallah

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
quick washup. thn pray asar. thn cum bac loh

Missyfadie says:
i thot u showering

Missyfadie says:
ur shower is like suppppppppppperrrrrrrrrrrrr long la

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
shower again later la. e wearthr so hot ah. i juz pray n cum im perspirin again.

Missyfadie says:
usuali

Missyfadie says:
ooooooooooh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i noe. hehe.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
anione hus close to me shud noe. ahhahah.

Missyfadie says:
i think its freaking cold

Missyfadie says:
here

Missyfadie says:
ya

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
beb. ur INSYD RU OFFICE.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
im here unda my fan. which is not helpin.

Missyfadie says:
i know

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
heheheh.

Missyfadie says:
45 more mins!

Missyfadie says:
yay!

Missyfadie says:
home

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hw ur hormones doin now? alive yet??

Missyfadie says:
home

Missyfadie says:
home

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
u neo not i tryin to pray asar

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ur face keep appearin inmy head

Missyfadie says:
why?

Missyfadie says:
too many hormones?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ur laffin face. e dyin hormones n all

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i cannot stop laffin. CANNOT CONCENTRATE SIOL.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
thrs goes my asar. haha.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
nvm la. god wil undastan.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ist fadie. e clown. haf to laff.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n i rmbred our swensons.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahah

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ur orange juice.

Missyfadie says:
heh. i thought u had too many hormones, that my face was appearing.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n my utensils

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WHAHAHAHHA i said i had ragin hormones. nt too many of them.

Missyfadie says:
heh

Missyfadie says:
thats why i asked.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
if to many i dun think il b here now. prolloi bangin anione. sumwhr

Missyfadie says:
who knows TOO MANY RAGING HORMONES

Missyfadie says:
AND ME, TOO MANY DYING HORMONES?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hehehehheheheheh.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
im laffin again?

Missyfadie says:
hehe

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
"n my hormones are dyin!?!"

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
whahahhaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
babi betol.

Missyfadie says:
hehe

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i think tonyt goin to kl in e van i laffin to myself.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
liek mad.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n e fact is ryt. wh ni laff alone n other s see n smile n sortaf laff n ask wd happen

Missyfadie says:
then if ur parents asked why, you say "nah, i have too many ragin hormones."

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
wid tt stupid look on their faecs

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
MAKES ME WANNA LAFF MORE

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
I HAF TOO MANY RAGIN HORMONES!??!!?

Missyfadie says:
yar

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
SIALLAI

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
I CANNOT TAKE IT

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
IM LAFFIN LIKE MAD

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
MY MAID IS SCARED OF ME

Missyfadie says:
hehe

Missyfadie says:
who wouldnt be.

Missyfadie says:
the woman with too many raging hormones.

Missyfadie says:
whooooooooaa

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WHAHAHHAHAH

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n ur e woman with DYING HORMONES.

Missyfadie says:
haa

Missyfadie says:
i hope not.

Missyfadie says:
haaaha

Missyfadie says:
please woman with ragin hormones, please infect me with your hormones. and kick out my dead
ones.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
HORMONES DONT DIE WOMAN1

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
LETS GO SEE E DOC.

Missyfadie says:
heh.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
he wil help inject ragin hormones

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n thn E BIKE GUY SHUD CALL

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WD U DOIN?

Missyfadie says:
oh, cannot infect ey?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
GETIN INJECTED. SUM OF JULIES RAGIN HORMONES

Missyfadie says:
sounds wrong.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
OH INFECT. i tot i read inject

Missyfadie says:
like sperm

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
whaahahhahahaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
exactly my point

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
whahhahahaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
im stil laffin

Missyfadie says:
ragin sperms

Missyfadie says:
haha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WHAAHAHHA

Missyfadie says:
dying sperms

Missyfadie says:
hahaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ATTACKKKKKKKKKKKKK

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
FADIES DYIN EGGS!

Missyfadie says:
"i cant! im dyinggggggggggg"

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
OH MY GOSH

Missyfadie says:
says the sperm

Missyfadie says:
hahahha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
STH VERY RONG WITH both of us beb,

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WE NEED HELP./

Missyfadie says:
i know

Missyfadie says:
hahaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hehehehehhehe

Missyfadie says:
but damn funnny

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
bt all this laffter. its e best MEDICINE

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
later whn i pray if i see ur face in my head agian.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
GONE LA. E WHOLE FAMILY WILL B WITH ME PRAYIN.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ALL WIL THINK IM A NUT CASE

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
thn sell me away ay kl

Missyfadie says:
raging hormones lorr.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hmmm. ragin hormones.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hmm. okok i go blog. hahahah.

Missyfadie says:
blog blog blog

Missyfadie says:
yay

[ this part sth happened n fadie had this face. i copy pasted. bt duwan appear]

Missyfadie says:
-_-

Missyfadie says:
sheesh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
yer la...........

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahhaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
dun worry its my ragin hormones/

Missyfadie says:
heh.

Missyfadie says:
and dying sperms

Missyfadie says:
and raging sperms

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
no la. dyin eggs.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ragin sperms

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ATTAAAAAAAAAACK

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hehheheh

Missyfadie says:
same lah

Missyfadie says:
heh.

Missyfadie says:
u rmbr my colleague?

Missyfadie says:
the indian muslim one.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hu?? ragin sperms?

Missyfadie says:
no!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
e one hu smoked?

Missyfadie says:
this is a random topic

Missyfadie says:
no

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
oh no i meant

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
e one make alot of noise?

Missyfadie says:
woman

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
yeas

Missyfadie says:
yaaaa

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
why?

Missyfadie says:
she told the whole office that she is a rough person, even in bed.

Missyfadie says:
so i said, " damn woman. i dont need to know that"

Missyfadie says:
then that malay guy, was also saying damn and all

Missyfadie says:
then the woman said, "what fadie. dont u act innocent okay.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
haiyo. NO SHAME AH?!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WHOA!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
THN THN

Missyfadie says:
then the malay guy said ," usually the one's who
acts innocent and quiet, is the most dangerous
in bed. "

Missyfadie says:
ahhaaa

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
wooohoooooooooo.

Missyfadie says:
and he saw me blush. and he was like, " i gueess thats true babe."

Missyfadie says:
sheesh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

Missyfadie says:
hehe

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
y tt woman liek tt ah?

Missyfadie says:
nvm

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
naabae.

Missyfadie says:
donno

Missyfadie says:
turn off.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
no shame. on thing. thn busybody

Missyfadie says:
i really dont wanna know la what she does in bed.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
y she care u actin or not?

Missyfadie says:
tsk.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
EEEEEEEW

Missyfadie says:
haha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
NO ONE WANTS TO MY DEATR

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahah

Missyfadie says:
that one i dont ccare la.

Missyfadie says:
aiyah

Missyfadie says:
she is always flirting with tht emran guy

Missyfadie says:
im just the quiet one beside him

Missyfadie says:
i couldnt be bothered

Missyfadie says:
he is just another guy

Missyfadie says:
sheesh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
HMMM. gues he myt get interested in e quiet gal hus DANGEROUS in BED!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
=)

Missyfadie says:
aiyah

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n tell me abt emran guy

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
is his name emran?

Missyfadie says:
ya

Missyfadie says:
emran

Missyfadie says:
i think the way he speaks in english is HOT.

Missyfadie says:
hah

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hehehe. new target?

Missyfadie says:
i like the way he says " Damn" like as in " daymn."

Missyfadie says:
hahahaha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
u htink its gona go aniwhr near SERIOUS?

Missyfadie says:
who?

Missyfadie says:
me and yat?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
no la. u n my granpa

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
EEEW

Missyfadie says:
hahahahaahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Missyfadie says:
wait i wanna laugh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
thn ul b my GRANMA/!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
whahhahahah

Missyfadie says:
haaaaahahaahhaahhahahhaha

Missyfadie says:
wait my stomach pain

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
my mums bn thinkin tt im wathcin sum vid n laffin all this while

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
whahahahahah

Missyfadie says:
haha

Missyfadie says:
damn funny

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
done with e stoamch ache

Missyfadie says:
hahaah

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahahah

Missyfadie says:
ok

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
u go blog oso later.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ahhaha

Missyfadie says:
breathe in

Missyfadie says:
breathe out

Missyfadie says:
haha

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
. ice water u wan?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ask e guy with gd eng!@

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahaha

Missyfadie says:
huh?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
random

Missyfadie says:
done.

Missyfadie says:
?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ok no nvm. wd was i sayin?

Miissyfadie says:
dono?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hehehehe. nvm. life is ful of qns

Missyfadie says:
go with the raging flow.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
"RAGIN"

Missyfadie says:
the word of the day babey

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
heheheheh.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
totally.

Missyfadie says:
the woman just asked me, if i ever made out with anybody or not. -_-

Missyfadie says:
babi betol.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
wds wrong with her

Missyfadie says:
then emran looked at me.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
is she lonely or sth

Missyfadie says:
malu siol.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
nth better to do

Missyfadie says:
hormones died.

Missyfadie says:
heh.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
YEAH! hers.

Missyfadie says:
yeapss

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
tts y shes. ROUGH,

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ew ew ew ew

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i neeed to see how she looks like la.

Missyfadie says:
facebook?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
i keep havin a vision of sum old fat ugly hair woamn

Missyfadie says:
no hair

Missyfadie says:
tudonged

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
OOOOOOOOH

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
OH MY GOSH?!?!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
TUDONG!?! N TOKIN LIEK TT?!

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
WTF SIOL. ask her to take out!

Missyfadie says:
heh.

Missyfadie says:
i am more innocent lor.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
MARRIED SUMMORE

Missyfadie says:
yarrh

Missyfadie says:
like my mum's age

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n u guys are not liek close to her or sth

Missyfadie says:
i think is my mum's age

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
OK UR MUM SAGE N TALKIN ABT BED STUFF

Missyfadie says:
no.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
disgustin.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
stop

Missyfadie says:
i dont bother

Missyfadie says:
heh.

Missyfadie says:
thats whyt

Missyfadie says:
not a turn on at all.

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
HEHEHE no more ragin hormones. all dyin.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
after hearin e news abt being rough in bed. all died

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
thr n thn. e demise of e rage.

Missyfadie says:
he

Missyfadie says:
hehehehehe

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
heheheheheheh.

Missyfadie says:
i gtg now babe

Missyfadie says:
anything call or msg me?

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:

ok. u goin home or wd?

Missyfadie says:
man

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:

OH YA.

Missyfadie says:

sorryy

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:

okok. take care k. im goin to sen my granpa to faisals hse

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:

thn il b home

Missyfadie says:
i have fun kay?
..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
il call u once im mabac k

Missyfadie says:
u have fun kay

Missyfadie says:
at kl?

Missyfadie says:
(:

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
u tooo. hehe thank u. very much.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
ragingin hormones!

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
n if bikeguy call

Missyfadie says:
raging sperms

Missyfadie says:
heh

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
tell him evyting

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
hahahhaha

Missyfadie says:
kk

Missyfadie says:
gtg

Missyfadie says:
bye

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..kiss me just whn im gona say sth says:
muackz

wahhahahaha.

remind me why i love my bestie again.

cos she makes my life a fantabulous plc to live in.

all tym. anytym.

2009-01-21T07:47:00.024+08:00

at tyms u just feel like
screamin ur head out.
killin sumone u hate.
stabbin sumone multiple tyms
with a knife directed at e heart
n whatever nots.

tts exactly how ms julie is feelin now.

seems like as if i didnt even make any decision.
i was told not to act.
just try to make the situation more undastandable.
haha. all e best to me. on tht one. yeah.

its bloody 7 52 in e mornin.

usualy im a dead corspe. slpin

i haven slept e whole nyt.

so much of randomness runnin thru my head.

its soooooooo irritating.

knowin tt im gona go babysit amulu for e next two daes.

i noe i need to slp cos e todd can keep me up up n away

n i stil cant slp. i need to friggin slp.

sumone save me. pls.

stuf abt sch makin my head go bonkers

wd if i get into SIM n haven gt e poly results yet.

wd if i dun get both at all.

wds plan c? go find a job whr?

other private sch options?

e madrasah event which is soo damn near.

apparently im e event coordinator.

bt i haven bn able to do much at all.

i juz haf this feelin tt im gona fin up this event

n leave altogether. n ask my dad if i can join his arabic classes.

probably a few of e other classes.

thrs no fkin music to listen to at all.

thrs no money to get anyting cheap also.

train our way to amulus n my mum is like

"why dunt u think abt whr uve gone rong?"

ok. cumon u think ive not bn thinkin abt tt?!?!?

all this fkin rottin at home for soo long?

of cos i noe ive done sum mistakes

ive hurt my folks yea. they prolli dun ever trust me.

they nvr did aniwae. so WHAT CAN I DO NOW?

nth. cos im at home. simple.

u wan me under ur watch. i AM under ur watch.

life is not over. im just not used to doin NTH.

thank god my pc is alive. seriously. thank god.

sum things juz dun get out of my mind.

n i feel like im bac to square one.

with no clarity in aniting.

im really bankin on the kl trip.

tts all we bn talkin abt .

mum n me. wht to buy whr to go wht to do.

we bn out shoppin for e necessities lately.

so yea. i noe its gona b suppa fun.

with amulu arnd. aniting is suppa fun. =)

afta the kl trip cums e madrasah event

chiong all 5 daes til its done n over with.

n thn. thrs sum tok abt massage sessions

haha. i duwanna go for a massage.

bt i dun mind pedi medi cum hand foot rubs

cum hair wash cum neck rub thingies.

tt wud b awesomeness!

add a hot tub with rose petals.

woohoo. total indulgence.

n yeah i can wait long long.

bt this is in my list of things i die die need to do

before i really die.

again otw to amulus'

thr was this tok abt my marriage. [OMG! NT AGAIN!]

so thr i was dreamin away.

tellin mummy tt i wanna get rich

n marry a rich person

be able to spend a coupla hundreds n dun worry abt a thing

stuff like tt. n she sudenli went.

"no zulaiha. i wan u to marry sumone n b happy

bt i wan u to live with me.

i dun think i can survive without u around."

tt just broke my heart n my dreams altogethr.

mebe its juz a one off. she thought of it. n u noe. random.

bt nooooo. tts not what she meant.

she went on sayin tt shes told daddy tt if thr were any proposals.

n b4 she cont. i was like

"PROPOSALS?!?!?! u mean thr r!??!"

e mother is really good at giving minor heart attacks

evry now n thn. gosh.

n she totaly cut me off n went.

"i juz wan u to b with me."

so u dun think il keep quiet.

i had to tell her wht i haf in mind as well.

i wud haf gone

"beb.

wd abt my life?

i wanna go australia man.

i wanna werk thr. n get sumone thr

n eventually just stay thr for ever n ever.

or travel arnd.

im not gona cum bac to this measly country.

whr its so hard to survive."

no i didnt. i tol her all this

in a more. formal way. yea.

n i did mention to her e main hard core reason

why i hate this country so much.

cos of all e fkin busy bodies hu live here.

i cant walk peacefully aniwhr without one

uncle/aunty/old man/old lady

acknowledgin me as HASSANS DAUGHTER.

these measly ppl spy on me.

cant keep their big fat gaps shut.

n go.

"oh i saw ur daughter here. "

"oh i saw her thr."

"oh shes gt a bf"

"oh shes married"

i gt two werds for all these measly ppl.

yea actually more thn tt.

cut out ur "im just concerned" crap

i cant b livin in this freakin society like this.

so overseas. is my choice. its e best.

i wil get my dip. i wil werk to save n thn im off.

i wun turn bac.

it will b difficult to survive alone or wdever it is.

bt if i dun try il nvr noe.

n i tell u. whn i make such a desicon

atleast half of e i.m. society wil poke its nose to ask

"why must u send ur daughter.

y she cannot study here isit?

she cannot werk here isit?

hw is she gona survive without u ppl"

to brainwash my poor parents.

who in turn myt just listen to others

n not listen to me.

ITS A GODDAMN POSSIBILITY i tell u.

ive seen it happen b4.

bt. im not gona fall for it.

i just dont care at al.

if i study hard.

if i show my parents tt i can survive.

they wil let me. they have to. yeah.

so wads bn keepin me alive?

KYLE XY. =) =) =)

im hooked on e series man!

aint he sum hottie!??! gosh!

loves. loves. lotsa loves. hmmmm.

kyle xy the series. woohoo. =)

e whole gang! hehekz. =)

la familia. =)

the gf amanda!

awww. shweet!

the so called counterpart. jessi.

ze youngsterz.

lori & declan

josh & andy.

e family again...

TOTAL AWESOMENESS.

and of cos. another series im in love with.

the one n only.

yeaps. the 6 crazy ppl i love. =)

monica.chandler.rachel.ross.phoebe.joey.

an old sch one.

my fave one. =)

the daes of laffter.

for hours. hahahha.

oh well.

n i watch the nanny as well.

in e wee hours of e nyt.

tho nanny fine's voice

can irritate e hell outta me at tyms.

so thr. haha.

nw im off to get ready to

go see my amulu.

sumone tol me not to act

as if the babys is evryting in life.

maybe. I WILL.

lotsa loves

muackz

julz.

2009-01-19T21:35:00.002+08:00

listenin to music.
makes life a better place to live in.

id do aniting. to dance now.
to dance off all e misery.
dance like mad. like crazy. like hell.
nth bt heart pumpin base.
no lights. juz music n me .
n huever else is arnd. n all of us are jzu
dancin our asses out.
boy. i miss tht. ryt now. now.

went for a run.
at e park. near my old pri sch.
realise my stamina is equal to minus zero.
bt i managed 4 rounds. i wonder how far tt is.
thn i sat on e swings. n swanged my way until
i gt too dizzy to continue. on e verge of vomitin
n thn thr weas this fkin cheebai of a kid on e next swing
screamin her ass off. "eh hello. all of u cum here!!
this is e emergency post!! if u all not cumin im not goin to play"
n i was like. can u juz fk off.
seriousli e way i was feelin i cud haf swung my waterbottle on her head.
n her head wud haf rolled off onto e slide or sth.
i wasnt even pmsin.
i was tryin to clear all e thoughts outta my head
n enjoy e wind n try to hold on to my life
n the stupid kid was screamin her ass off
like e werld was endin .
best part i dun haf any music to listen to.
mp3 players kaput. so i need to get a new one.
thinkin of an ipod. all after i start sch n get sum cash in e pocket.
bt there were sum mats near e playground.
so thank god for tt i had sum gd music to listen to.
hahahah. haish.

minzis bac.
updatin her abt evyting shes missed out on.
topic by topic. ive missed her.
wud really love to meet her up.
bt i dun think anytym soon .
tmls another dae. myt b meetin amulu.
e onni thing tts keepin my spirits high.
wd a lil one yr old todd cud do.
alot of adults. juz cant. they nvr can. nvr.

buhbye ppl.
n oh bestie. wed k.
we go gymmin. =)
bac to e ytss daes. minus evryone.
juz u n me. haha.
lotsa love
muackz
julz.

2009-01-14T21:38:00.002+08:00

e bestie made my dae.

.::`~*JuLiE*~`::..
great. no knight in shining armour to cum save me. yet.

uglybitch89@hotmail.com says:
Tsk. Ur ________ like great dragons. Cannot go through.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..
tts y i need e knight in shiny armour.
hes strong. gallant wdever u call it. wil rescue me.

uglybitch89@hotmail.com says:
He irritates.

uglybitch89@hotmail.com says:
Irritates me.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..
hehe u juz made me smile. im gona blog. heheh.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..
i haven smiled like this e whole dae.

..::`~*JuLiE*~`::..
=)

uglybitch89@hotmail.com says:
I always make you smile babe =) my job =)

__________________________________

hehehehe.
new year. new goals.
new wdevers.
bt e bestie. will always remain
wd shes always bn.
my crazy fadie wadie clown.

GOALS FOR E YEAR 2009.
dun laff k. its for real. i hope.

1) LOSE WEIGHT.
- excessive exercising
[k mainly running & regular badminton sessions]
- fruit diets.
[no more RICE. cut down on sugar as well.
bye bye fastfood. ilu tho.]

2) GO TO SCHOOL.
- SIM/POLY
[concentrate on whats important.]

3) DONT GET ATTACHED THE WHOLE YEAR.
- need to study.
[any guy wud b a stupid distraction.]
- gain my parents trust.
[cos they are drivin me insane. help. pls.]
- get my DIPLOMA.
[NO PLACE FOR A BF AT ALL. pls. yes.]

4)FOLLOW UP ON MY RELIGION
- pray reguarly
- learn new stuff.
[join papas. arabic class. if possible.]
- TRY & FOLLOW THE GODDAMNED RULES.
[i wil try. i will. i will. i will.]

DEAR ALLAH,
pls help me here. e year of total madness is over.
pls let this new year be a more fruitful one.
[nt tt 08 sucked. one of my best years.]
fuitful in e sense. i need to go to sch.
i need to try be a better muslim.
i need to get my life back on track.
pls guide me.
aameen.
[everyone aameen together wid me ok. aameen.]

lotsa love
muackz
julie.b.

2009-01-12T17:52:00.002+08:00

Kettavan - En Uyir Kaathelae

[Intro]
En uyir kaathelae nee enge ponaaye?
Nee illa vaalkai valikuthedi
En muchin swaasettil nee kalenthaayedi
Nee ippo kaatrodu mareinthu vittai

En thavera anbae un thavera
Enthen kaathelin vaethenei puriyeleiya
Anbae en thavera anbae un thavera
En itheyettei therinju yen nogadittai?

[Intro]

Oooooh.. anbae..
Adi kaathel picchei podu
Ennei nee vaazhe vei
Oru murai sollu nee en kaatheli endru[x2]

Ennei nee paaredi
Enthen kanneer tuli
Ethei paarthu ennei konjum sirikka vai.[x2]

[Intro]

Ooooooh.. anbae
Adi oru varushem unnei pirinthu naan vaalgindrean
Unnei ninaithu thinam saagugiraen [x2]

Adutta jenmem varei naan kaathirupaen
En kaatheluku naan poraaduvaen [x2]

[Intro]

En thavera anbae un thavera
Enthen kaathelin vaethenei puriyeleiya
Anbae en thavera anbae un thavera
En itheyettei therinju yen nogadittai?

[Intro]

_______________________________

this song is in repeat now.
brings about all kinda sad thoughts.
someone i know will b in such a situation.
all i can say is im very sorry.
it was never meant to b.
i noe im not God to decide this kinda stuff.
bt cumon. face the facts.
whats not meant to be.
will nvr ever be.
no matter what.

2009-01-12T16:42:00.003+08:00

wad a pleasant dae.
my pc decyds to werk.
n my sis gt her results.
SHE DID FANTASTIC OR WHT!??!
l1r5 10 points.
l1r4 7 points!

n i wonder wth she cried for. whn she tol me.
shes confirmed goin to jc..
IM SO PROUD OF YOU MY LADY!
keep up e fantastic werk. muackz.

so. besyds tt i realy dun haf ani gd news.
ive decyded on my 5 choices for poly.
application opens on feb 9.
since e gpa is much lower [by 0.5]...
i really hope to get into sch!!!!!
ppl pls pray for me. pls.

nt havin my fone is irritatin.
a week bac. e thought of getin a spare fone
was really very very temptin.
nw i dunoe why.
i think im being fickle.
i dunoe la.. im just tired. [bt im not regretin anitin. no. =)]
n dead bored. i badly need to get my life bac on track.
which means i need to GO TO SCHOOOOL!

n naseema sugested i do sum tuition thingies.
jzu liek wd my neighbours bn sugestin.
im gona sign up with sum agencies.
do sum teachin. hehekz.
haish. i miss my bestie. alot. alot.

i was soo happy to see both fadie n man
on man's b dae.
to think i was sad tt i cudnt wish him.
so nice to haf met him in person to wish him.
wd a nice conincidence. heheks.

nw im off to chk on my tuition stuff.
n call e creative ppl n get details
abt repairin my spoilt one. [heart pain siol.]

thr are plans to go on holidae
durin e CNY holz.
n thn a makan session at jb with e family.
seems like i do haf a life.

i wud like to thank e boyfie.
for everyting. ilu many2.
i wun say thank u animore!! promise!
*hugz*

i juz rmbred fadies b dae is cumin.
im dead.
muackz
julz. julie.b.

2009-01-03T14:36:00.002+08:00

sexy loves on repeat.
hi y'all.
happy new year to u.
its 09.
im jobless.
basically just e routine
watchin tv makan slp thingie.
sths rong with e hp.
lagi best. no one gets to contact me.
n i dun rmbr aniones number.
besyds e besties. boyfies. lesbies.
n oh. anione. dun bother tryin my hse. its useless.
i juz cant wait for sum news
of me goin to sch.
i need to ge my life bac on track.
08 has bn sth. really sth.
alot of first tries.
alot of new ppl. old ones. new ones again
i dunoe. i juz hope 09 is gona b completely different.
i had to say gd bye to alot of loves ones.
n i hope ive not been a pain in e ass.
i gues alot of things juz cum bac to me.
my actions. my mistakes.
n tts y i end up hw i am.
i gues my loved ones pay e price as well.
im sorry. i gues its tym i pulled up my socks.
n this tym for real.
i gues u wun b seeing me around tt much.
dun forget julie loves u
muackz
julz. julie.b.

2008-12-23T11:52:00.003+08:00

yabn el halal. haifa. is. just. smokin.

ive alot to say.
bt i guess. nt now.
im addicted to e tunes of haifa.
n im waitin for habibi to get me e songs.
n aniones gt your love is blind? [my previous vid. earlier post]
sen me pls. thank u. =)
much loved.
julie.b

[ todae is officially my last pm shift.
its killing me. so sad loh.
lotsa lotsa memories. =( ]

julie.b yaw!

2008-12-17T12:11:00.002+08:00

1 MORE FRIGGIN DAE TO GO YAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

k im very sad.
jans roster was out.
n only my name was not in it.
its startin to sink in now.
its fkin irritatin.
i dun like thiiiiiiiiis. aaargh. fk my sucky life man.

oh yest LIGHT shoppin with e bestie .
hehehe. finaly gt my bdae prezzies!!!
we make shoppin look soo... hahahhaha.
thank u very very very much bestie!
hehehehhe. things ur pay can make u do.
close ur eyes. dun see e price.
JUST SHOOOOOOOOP!

HEHEHEH. HAISH.
OK NOW GTG FOR WERK.
lotsa love crappy sickenin assholes.

muackz
julie.b
[il miss e peepz at e flyer screamin for me.
JULIEEE. BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB]
ok enuff.
bye.

2008-12-16T00:58:00.002+08:00

hudayas new obsession.
turnin me on.
bloody bitch.
wudnt keep her hands off me
as long as im on e fone.
her hands start touchin evrywhr!
naaaaaabaeeeeee. hehehehe.

e daes are really numbered now.
one. for twilight! weeeeeeee!!
2 more daes!!!
cant wait cant wait cant waittttttttttttttt!

two. for my last werkin day
at the singapore flyer.
scroll dwn my archives.
n ul see my first dae of werk. 28 mar 08.
n now. 24 dec 08. gona b my last dae.
haish. sad noe. very sad.
it didnt have to b this way. haish.
bt oh wel. hmmm.
think im gona get e family to go for a ride.
on my last dae or so. hmmm

im gona miss. alot alot alot of ppl.
alot of things. places. stuff.
alot of memories have bn etched within.
i stil duwanna really dwell on it. yet.
of cos il visit evry now n thn n so.
its onni cthall for goodness sake,
bt the many frens ive made.
the many experiences ive gone thru.
its all bn totally. seriously. completely.
worthwhile.

nw b4 i go all emo.
im leavin. haha.
my miss list. n more will b up soon .
hahahaha. for now. juz wait for twilight.
n i gues il b celebratin nye with my lovelies thr as well.
nt sure yet. many plans yaw. haish.

i guess im much more relieved now.
abit of good wholesome galtalk
has gt all my troubles seem
close to nth at all.
i guess e best is to let fate decyd?
yeah. e guilt sinks in now n thn.
bt seriously. hu cares.?
do things as i wish.
b selfish. once in a while.
its my life ryt. yesh.
n of cos i can really get used to the pamperin.
while i can. =)
like they said.
once a bitch. always a bitch.

lotsa love ppl.
muackz
julie. b.

2008-12-12T01:34:00.002+08:00

k. for the first tym.
in a long tym...
i wrote a letter.
while at werk juz now.
ive read thru it a million tyms.
n i edited n reedited another gazillion tyms.
it hurt all e way.
bt i gues i express my feelings better
whn i pen it dwn rather thn talkin things out.
i only talk things out.. whn i dun haf a choice. yeah.

nw i need to get it translated.
n to whom e letter is for.
whthr e person would understan is one thing.
whthr e person knows how to read.
is totally another thing.
*i can almos imagine my bestie rolling her eyes.*
well. im puttin an effort. haish.

the whole dae has bn a whirlwind.
its one of those daes whn
i get all cry babyish n pour out evry single ting
to chellamz n she holds me hand all the way.
she listens n watches me go from..
ok.. a bit agitated.. then angry.. thn lo behold.
im cryin. n thn i juz shut up.
frm family to frenships to relationships.
my next bf shud b ariffah in her next birth
as a male. hehekz. she wil scream at me for this.
oh no. juz e listenin part ariffah. n ur cute ass.
n ur pretty face. yeah. haha. e rest. see how. hehehehhe.

oh wel. its 1 40.
after watchin bac to bac episodes of frens.
n laffin out loud all by myself.
i stil feel like a useless moron.
its e pms. it has to b. im sure.
panadol n my comfy sofa.
im coming.

lotsa love.
muackz.
julz. julie.b.

2008-12-10T22:00:00.004+08:00

Title: Your Love Is Blind
Ramzi ft. Ash King

I see you all the time 
Never see you smile 
I try to picture what's going on in your mind 
He leaves you every night by yourself 
He took your love and put it on the shelf 
He doesn't really care how you feel..  
You should be moving on girl what's the deal?
I wana see you out that door..
Cuz girl you know your worth much more
So baby tell me why you stick around 
Always lonely and you only wear a frown 
He don't treat you good and you know 
The only thing left is for you to go 
You shouldn't live a lie with someone 
When deep inside you know he ain't the one 
I don't know what to say no more 
I wana see you out that door
Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri 
I really don't wanna see u cry 
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart) 
Don't wana see another tear in your eye 
Baby break away..
Let him go..
I don't know what he's done to you 
But I know that it's time to move on 
Girl your is love blind
Girl I understand 
That you're scared 
And you feel that you might never love again 
But baby that ain't true 
No no no 
I know that there someone there for you 
Someone that will see 
That you are worth 
An undiscovered treasure on this earth 
Girl you know your worth so much more 
I wanna see you out that door
Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri 
I really don't wanna see u cry 
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart) 
Don't wana see another tear in your eye 
Baby break away..
Let him go..
I don't know what he's done to you 
But I know that it's time to move on 
Girl your is love blind
Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri 
I really don't wanna see u cry 
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart) 
Don't wana see another tear in your eye 
Baby break away..
Let him go.. 
I don't know he's done to you 
But I know its time to move on

*its a very suitable song for me.*

wonder y it felt heavy insyd whn i first heard e song.

lotsa love children

muackz

julie.b.

2008-12-07T15:51:00.006+08:00

lesbie darlz n me. 29.11.08

jeevitha. aka gv. mmuax.

sepia.

e loo shot. as usual.

the cousin. n the cousin-in-law. nw hws tt. =)

nw i cant wait. to see u again.

miley cyrus keeps poppin in my head.

i loooooooove e freakin song.

its just crazy.

im suppa broke.

e mp3 player decided to die a few daes ago.

need to get sumone a bdae prezzy.

went to madrasah after ages.

n sudneli im e event coordinator for e meelath anni.

whoa. atleast ive gt sth to werk on once i quit e job.

i dont mind taking charge of things.

i can pull it off. juz haf to werk on it yeah.

i dunoe why. mebe this is y sumtyms i feel

thr is def sumoen up thr watchin.

openin doors whn othrs close.

coordinating stuff the meelath fuct is gonna b tedious.

bt like. il b concentratin on sumthing totally worthwhile.

why not? =)

trip to sim wasnt bad.

if u dun count in how e lady spoke to papa.

n made me feel hopeless. for a few nanoseconds.

sudneli we're tokin abt edu loans. interest rates.

govt jobs. degrees at e uni of london.

its pretty overwhelming. n its gt me worried sick.

whthr il even make it into e sch.

e wait is until e end of feb. for e results. haish. =(

DAE is open already. almost i think.

[thank all e gods in e werld! like FINALY]

goin thru e pages of all e Ps again n again.

savin em to faves. researchin n callin.

im tired already. actualy. nt tired.

im like almost givin up. i duno why.

atleast papas supportin me. i mean both folks are.

bt oh well.

next trip to tp n nyp. god pls help me.

gettin into ani if these of cos is better thn sim.

bt as long as sumone accepts me. im goin man. pls. haish.

its raya haji tml.

evryones gona b at my plc.

good i guess. bt of cos. no ones happy.

this tym its really totally my own fault.

i put myself in a situation whr i can say i deserve it.

its tym to sit dwn n really think what im really gona do with myself.

i gues thrs onni so much of fun i can haf.

e diff abt raya n raya haji. 08.

tt tym e famiy was upset over another issue

n now its abt totally another issue.

n oh. wd else is diff.

aisha akka is engagaed.

nazeera akka is married.

hahahahha.

im gona make myself an ice milo.

n thn fin up my twilight.
frustratin as it is.

no ones tokin tome at home.

[actually. juz e mommy.]

doesnt bother me actually.

i juz need money for myself till i end my job.

which myt b a problem.

i need e money to go service my mp3 as well.

n abt a new fone. i can wait till a thousand yrs for tt.

can sumone juz lend me abt. say. 30 bugs?

pls. gosh. wtf m i doin.

tt 30 is for my mp3. cos im dyin without e music

its e onni ting which makes life easier to live in.

im dwn to beggin oready. ='(

i better go now

muackz

julie.b.

2008-12-03T10:22:00.003+08:00

QUARANTINE.
left me shocked.scared.shaken.

ok im from e faint hearted side of e werld.

with e bestie n her boyfie. wahahhaha.

a gd movie tho. =)

so much of screamin n whatnots.

i raaaan n hugged him whn i saw him.

haha. so fadie. next tym pls think twice b4 u decide on a movie.

whahahha. oh wel.. now its just 15 more daes to twilight!!!

weeeeeeheee.

j.d frm werk lent me twilight.

i juz wanna read n recap e entire storey.

hahha. til i get to watch e movie. hehekz.

hmmmm..

talkin out things. helps. in many ways.

n doesnt help in many ways too.

whn u noe things are not gona b the way

u want them to b. u sit dwn talk n try sort things out.

it werks for me most of the tym.

n it did last nyt. i guess havin faith in myself is e best i can do.

im goin to apply for sch later with papa.

m a nervous wreck. bt its alright.

it shud go fine. touchwood. if i dont get in.

thn il keep on tryin. for poly. mebe apmi.

aniting to get me goin.. i need to study.

n thr was once mami asked me whthr i was doin this for myself.

or for e folks. to satisfy them. n to keep them shut.

wel. of cos one of the reasons is to make sure they dun

yakyakayak abt me not being focused.

for gods sake im not like sum taruthelei with no aim wdsoever.

bt the core reason is. i need this education.

i want my MBA. tts wd im werkin towards.

n this is my very first step. of cos its impt to me. for me.

n tts got nth to do with e folks.

hmmm. well.. we'll see how it goes.

il b bac!

lotsa love

muackz

julie.b.

2008-12-02T01:36:00.002+08:00

omggggggggggggggggggggggggg
my heart is like jabbin thru my body.
aaaaaaargh.

im fillin up my SIM application forms.
lookin thru my certs.
compiling evryting.
SCHOOL. MAN. SCHOOOOL.
omgooosh.
its a pain in e ass.
n also. whthr i get accepted..
tts another pain. omfg. haish.

tml. things to do.
*GRAB E CASH FROM MOMMMAY!! [e most impt thing.]
*get my passport sized fotos.
*photocopy stuff i haven photocopied.
*go to flyer n ask my company code bla bla.
*of cos meet e bestie n spend quality tym.
*n oh. finaly wil b meetin e besties boyfie after god noes hw long. yay.
*we myt b catchin a movie. weeeee.

wed. things to do.
*wake up n dont feel like im gona die.
*get ready n meet papa.
*go to SIM. n apply. do e necessary stuffs.
*dont break dwn halfway frm a panic attack or sth.
*come bac home n enquire on poly DAE intakes.
*compile stuff for tt as well.

thursdae. things to do.
*wake up feelin fine.
*get ready n go to werk.
*n wait for good news. tt wud take abt a week or more! =(

e rest of e week. mcm biase la k.
nth much to update on.
wanna go for veenas b dae thingie.
yet to confirm.

e engagement of saleem n aisha went FANTABULOUS.
pics cumin up soon.
was wid e lesbie for almos e whole dae.
guess.. most of e pics include juz her. haha.
had fun. juz cannot wait for e friggin weddin.
3 daes over at chellamz hse.
chaos n of cos. much love. lotsa love.

sumone gt on my nerve juz now.
i juz haf one qn.
hw e fk u haf a crush on sumone u fight with
evrytym u tok ?
ur very opinianated. if thrs such a werd.
at first it was ok,
now its irritatin.
first he goes, ."jz try to see it like a fren is concerned"
n thn later. tok cock. n thn later.
whn i finaly gve up n say "ya wd. ur ryt. ur always ryt rmbr."
n he goes "ya i m. thanks for understandin me. i really appreciate it"
n im like "y is it nvr tt U CAN UNDERSTAN ME?y always e othr way round?"
n thn he says "ok give me 10 mins. il understan u n call u."
n thn he fkin calls me bac 10 min later sayin he understands me already!?!!
like wtf!?!?!?!? like seriousli!?!?
wth haf i gt myself into??
aaaaaaaargh. im gona shower n slp.
gt an early dae tml ah k.
haish.
y m i gettin to noe crazy ppl?
god.save.me.
julie.b.

2008-11-29T12:08:00.003+08:00

Regulations of this quiz is :

- People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

- Tag 6 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.

- These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.

- Continue this game by sending it to other people.tagged by: bestie.=)

Q : If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
A : get into sch by april 09. fall in lov with sumone nice. get my lappy n hp.

Q : Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
A : i usualy wonder whthr my life was real. haha.

Q : Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
A : yeah. very.

Q : Would you change yourself for the person you love?
A : no. if he loves me. he shudnt b expectin such things.

Q : Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
A : being loved by someone . tts e best.

Q : How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
A : hmmm. tt depends. waiting irritates me.

Q : If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
A : nth. hes attached. so leave it. n thr cums a new boy.

Q : Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A : yesh. im broke. n also broken.

Q : Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
A : yeaps. sumtyms. =)

Q : Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A : hell yeah. bestie. cum knock my head.

Q : Who are currently most important people to you?
A : bestie.boyfie.lesbie.family.

Q : Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
A : it happens. i try my best. n if things dun work. i cant do much.

Q : Are you happy with your life?
A : no im not. at all.

Q : Would you give your all in a relationship?
A : thrs no point in doin tt.

Q : What type of friends do you like?
A : ppl hu can make me laff to tears. crazy wierdos. wel. sums up juz b like my bestie. [which u cant] n il b fond of u.

Q : Do you often wish there was something you could change?
A : yesh. i wish i cud change e way my folks think.

Q : What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
A : his eyes. smile. =)

Q : If your lover betrayed you, what will be your reaction?
A : obviously doesnt deserve animore respect frm me. a whole lot of shoutin/accusing. n oh. i do e sarcastic bitch role pretty well. n thn wd. call e bestie n cry for a bit. n thn we'l discuss wd happened to e bg. =) =) n oh. to becum a lesbian is yet another option.

6 people I tagged : lesbie, shilacream , meeznur, etty, ain

2008-11-26T02:12:00.002+08:00

here goes nth.
aftr many2 permalasan daes.
is my malay ryt? anionE?
so wads up? i bn bz.
many2 slpless nyts. due to the many2
late nyt fonecalls.
*points an accusing finger at mami. *
hehekz. yeah thr r others as well.

irin has left for india.
minzi is stil thr.
n me. im werkin.
missin my washananashe gang.
met up the bestie for a suppa short lunch brk.
aftr like god noes how long.
so many tings to tok abt.
we are now officially stuck wid sum..
er... difficult. bt not difficult.
easy bt stil difficult situations.
guess for once. we dun haf each other
for sound advice. hehekz.
more like. "lets see whr all this is gona go."
aaah. wd are besties for man? ilu fadie wadie.

so sumones bac now.
nt makin anitin easier for me.
a whole lot of outbreaks.
n simply no solution. none.
qoute of the dae.
"ur seriously better off without him"
yesh. true. bt to blatantly hurt sumone i care abt.
now tts new. for me. atleast.
of cos i haf all e ryts to. bt procastination is like
my second bestfren now.
ive missed him. yes.
i wanna b sure hes gona b alryt. yes.
i juz wanna stay close. yes.
n nth more. so tts e part tts gona hurt.
oh well. see how it goes.

slpless nyts are drivin me nuts.
tt reminds me. i met rami mami!
aftr sooo long. meet up again soon beb?
hmmm. e bestie tooo.
i wan go shoppin oso!!!

bestie ws cute.
called me n went.
"u gt 2 min for me?"
im like. yeah. im werkin bt can la. wd?
"k. u noe davidoff game ? is it nice?"
im like. yeah of cos!!! im using it wd!!!
"i noe. bt u think for 100ml its worth it? "
k i forgot e price she said.
n thn i was like.
hu u gona buy 4?
urself ah. dun la. i haf e same perfume sia.
n thn she sudenly went.
"u noe. [k i forgot e perfume she was referin to]
its like HEAVEEEEEEEEN..... SOOO NICEEE"
n im like. buy it beb!!!
n thn she goes.
"ok thank u. i love u. bye."

whahahaha. things like this.
make me smile n rmbr hw
e bestie n i started. n how we are now.
wd a huuuuuge difference. n
once in a while. we do cute things.
n juz lafff. like mad. like this one.
hahahahha.

hmmm. i gt nth left to say.
i need to stop worryin.
tt actually means.
i wan my starbucks.
soon. prty pls soon.
WHR E FK IS MY MONEYYYYYYYYYYYYY
salary is hundred yrs away.

werk. nearly gt me fired juz now.
k i meant. u noe wd. i dun care.
i jz wan money. loads of it.
tts all. so il do wdever it takes. for it.

bestie. we'l go out soon k. promise.
boyfie. i hope ur doin alryt.
lesbie. u ccb. ur on holz. n u dun bother
to call n meet or anitin.
bg. il wait for u to b back.
my life. u suck big tym. i hate u.

nyts.
julz.

2008-11-21T19:52:00.002+08:00

wierd dreams.
wierd thoughts.
painful memories.
it sucks whn im tryin n tryin
so hard to put e past behind and move on.
its suppaa fkin irritating. ok?
atleast im tryin. so put up with my shitty face.
cos u dun haf a choice.

i gt to noe sumone.
hus gt me thinkin.
real hard. abt myself. abt hu i m.
i dun pity or sympathize with the person
cos this persons hates tht sortaf stuff.
its just. its all gt me thinkin..
this person's positiveness. motivation.
makes me wanna learn more.
for once i gt to noe sumone hus teachin me ..
motivating me. makin me look at things
in a different perspective.
sth new. sth interestin.

wds thr to look forward to now?
aisha akkas engagement.
werk daes.
christmas.
new yr eve party. if thrs one.
guess tts abt it.

santa claus is coming to town.
so all i want for christmas is just
one boyfriend.

insyd joke. onni vivien will noe.
oh n hudaya n chellamz.

nyts folks
julz.

2008-11-18T01:28:00.002+08:00

angry.
pissed off.
depressed.
sad.
few things to say.
i haf a few daes left at e flyer.
its heartbreaking.
i dunoe wtf .. repeat WTFUUUUUUCK
to do for the next 4 months b4 i go to sch.
"hsewerk n learn to COOK. kitchen is mine"
pls. juz. get. me. married off. or. better still.
kill me. n. il. b. fine.
im gona miss evryting i gt used to for e past 8 mths.
its really annoyin. cos i noe i wil leave this job sumdae.
BT NOT FKIN NOW.
N NOT IN E SITUATION WHR IM FORCED TO.
so. tts it.
cherishin my moments.
im dyin to go to zoukout.
bt seems like it'l b another dream.
bt thn again. worth tryin.
u noe. at 19 i stil feel like a fkin 9 yr old.
patience is a virtue man.
virtue.
virtue.
m not slpin. dun wish to.
n im startin to get very very irritated
by sumone. pls. stop. it.
b4 i blow my top.
yaya. we are very close.
ya u are very concerned n i mean alot to u
bt u noe wd.
sumtyms i juz wanna b alone. n i duwan anione to tok to me.
msg me. repeatedly ask qns n drive me. MAD.
bye.

2008-11-14T01:26:00.002+08:00

like evytin was perfect.
would haf bn perfect.
all gd things cum with a flaw.
this one had a HUGE FLAW.
bt it was all just perfect.
n now its no more.
i cannot make self promises.
cos im not disciplined enuff
to follow. i give in to temptation.
mistakes. mistakes. mistakes.
bt the past just makes me wanna
hug my teddy bear n sob.
e same teddy bear i punched. whn i gt angry.
sumtyms. sudenly u feel like all u onni haf.
is e goddamned teddybear.
whn u dont see sum things. or rather sum ppl
in many2 mths... n u randomly come across a vid
featurin the person.
it makes ur heart go "DOM DOM DOM DOM DOM"
like. wtf. yeah. makes u wanna juz get drunk n dead.

besyds tt. werk has bn werk.
e same old lame old.
if not for my khaki. kimak i wud hang myself.
tok lotsa nonsense.
bounce bac frm marina bay otw home
sit in one row n LAUGH AT EVRYONE.
all it takes is for huda to start laffin
n we are all gone. laffin like maniacs.
bitching. check.
makin a fool out of ourselves. check.
using werk stress as an excuse for
makin a fool out of ourselves. DOUBLE CHECK.
hee. hee.

aunty[hudaya] n i did whole day shifts todae.
frm 10 am allll e friggin way til 11 pm.
TIRED OR WADDDDDDDDDDD!!!
takin unofficial selfproclaimed brks here n thr.
goin "kimak mepek!" at evytin. n all. haha.
eh. evytin n all. same ryt? KIMAK MEPEK!
hahahahhaa. dun mind me. hahahahah.

k bac to wht we were tokin abt.
all our ex guys/flings. first kisses.
kental proposals. n oh. wd kind of bitches we can b.
waaaaah haha. its like. bittersweet stuff ah.
hmmmmmm.
sudenly im blank now. bt oh well.
like i said. wud haf bn perfect.
if i was selfish.
i forgot e me bein selfish part.
bt yeah. all gone n over.

now. sch is in. all tok is abt sch with mummy.
can get annoyin. cos. its not MY FAULT.
tt POLY HAS ITS INTAKES ONNI IN APRIL N OCT.
or sth like tt n not january.
wdever it is la. by april next yr. I MUST GO SCH.
dun care. i gues im nvr ready to leave me job.
as part of e OPERATIONS CREW at the SINGAPORE FLYER.
bt thn again. nth lasts for long.
this is not my final destination. in fact its juz e beginnin.
so if all goes well. I DUN EVER WANNA QUIT.
bt thn again. mebe its e best thing for me too. see hw.
if its not POLY. im goin SIM.
if both tk dapat. thn i think im dead.
thn papa wil start makin his own decisions.
n im so scared tt if they dun suit me.
thn i myt seriously becum one hell of a rebellious idiot.
which would confine me to being full tym unpaid maid
for the rest of my life.
hw sad is tt?
i hate being controlled. esp by e folks.
tho they wan e best for me.
y not juz let me b? PLS. PUHLEASE.
aaarggh! wdevr..
one gd news.
PAY DAY IS NEAR. hehe.
another gd news.....
actually thrs none.
gona catch up wid rami.
n prolli call jaffu later. thn...
tml jb-ing wif mumsie n granny.
i hate tt plc so much. it hurts.
i hope noone decyds to kill me by screamin
me name across e road.
n oh. gdnyt my lovelies.
muackz
julz. julie.b.

2008-11-10T11:16:00.002+08:00

i miss my baby.

loads. loads. loads.

HAPPY 43RD B DAE TO THIRU!!
me papa!!! me loves u many2.
ur e best no matter wht.
*hugz*

k ive not done niting yet.,
past few daes bn caught up with my own stuff.
totally forgot to get him sth.
bt its alryt. il cum up wid sth b4 i go to werk.
hes e best thing tt ever happened to me in e flyer.
mr. thirunavukarasu. aka. thiru. aka ME PAPA!!!!

think mama has sth planned.
wil noe soon. heheheh.
nw tt e horrible weekend is OVER.
im so happy im goin to werk.
weeeeeeeeee.
n oh its rainin snakes n crocs.
yest in e news they said
"idiyuden kuudiya mazhei "
i knew it. gona b bonkers. haish.

IM OFFICIALY MONEY-LESS!!!!
after i withdrew a lump sum of money for sch fees.
im left with miserable 4o bugs left!!! aaaargh!
e horror!!! AAAAAAARGH.
pay is in 5 daes tym! oh no!!!
sucks man! suckssss!!!

things to take note.
il b werkin whole dae shifts on wed n thurs.
ME N HUDAYA!! WE ROCK MAN!
heheheh.
n thn sheesha on e 23rd.
im nto missin it for aniting!
bt wtf. ive gt madrasah camp on
21 - 23rd. which i kinda wanna go.
bt also duwanna go. bt nt like i haf a choice.
wel. il b bac early frm camp on sundae.
thn arab strt at nyt! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

n oh aisha akkas engagment on e 29th.
so gona stay over fri nyt after werk.
since my darlin lives 3 mins away. heheheh.
n oh papa gt me this orangey sari. for e engagement
kinda simple n all. hehekz. yay. tts done.
nw must head to jb to get e stuff sewn n get my accessories.

after november its DECEMBER!!!
TWILIGHT MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!
WE ARE ALLL SO GOIN LA KAN!?!?!!?
goodness. dec 18. hehe. huhu. haha. hehehehe.
n oh tt dae. we went to catch THE COFFIN.
stupid movie. bt supper fun la.
huda hudaya azmi farhan fadhie n me.
nvr laff soo much for soo long.
hopefully e same gang along wif man n chellams.
we'll go watch twilight eh?
INSHA ALLAH!!!! =) =) =) =)

k. juz nice. 11 30.
go get ready. leave e hse at 12.
go look for sth nice. thn meet up chellams n
snore our way to e singapore flyer.
for yet another gloooomy rainiy dae of FUN FILLED WERK!
weeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
hahahha. wtf. crazy sia. yay. bye.

muackz
julie.b.

2008-11-08T21:03:00.002+08:00

stop askin me to blog
im just plain lazy.
n ive gt thousands runnin in my head

i hate him.
i really do hate him
bloody filthy bugger.
to think i gave u a chance.
asshole.
once one. always one.
no money.
no education.
no job.

so y m i feeling so frustrated?
god i need my triple Cs NOW!

oh wel. bestie was here
had fun. junk food. online games.
folks are at kl to attend a wedding.
im fkin bored. bored. bored.

yest was fantastic tho.
met amir n habibi after soo long.
was funny. both crazy dudes.
chellams was thr as wel.
hehehe
jln2 at bugis wid her.
after soo long.
n ended up at home. on my bed.
n me pampering her. doin her nails n stuff.
i love u loads my dear.
thank u for everyting. i love u. much2.

now im stil angry.
n u noe wd i do whn im angry.
i sit on my bed n start tearin up al my fav mags.
n i shout n punch my bear. n thn i shout summore.
n thn leave e hse. yeah.

U ARE A MOTHERFKIN BASTARD. CHAU CHEEBAI.
yeah. i dun do tamil my dear.
whn im angry. its all english.
so u n ur fkin irritatin BULLSHIT FRENS.
can juz fffffffffffffffuuuuuuuucckkkkk offfffff.
go. go. go. go. get out of my head. now.
im goin to make myself a milkshake.
bye.

2008-10-30T10:03:00.007+08:00

so much to say.
n im stil exhausted.
i guess e wedding ws a blessing in disguise.
seriously. only now.
i really do believe in miracles.
things u nvr expect .. do happen.
people u nvr thought myt change
their perspective.
change.
i guess this is e tym i thank ALLAH for evryting.
if im not just happy for myself.
im happy for my family.

had fun. wedding was TIRING.
wad with midnyt makan sessions.
n pool sessions. n slpin like at 4 to wake up at 6...
nazeera is finally MARRIED.
hahahahah. weeeeeeeee.
lotsa pics. loook look look.

n thn at werk.
its all abt halloweeeeeeeen!!!
hehehe. lotsa decor. n freaky stuff.
gt pics as welll..
did i mention.. tt tym at nyt safari..
the stupid butcher. one of e guys wearin costume n all.
WHREVER HE SAW ME.
HE HAD TO CUM RUNNIN AFTER ME.
n me being one scared kuku!
walau!! i practically jus pull zhiyang [my lovely tall gentle giant]
evrywhr. n made sure he protected me.
hahahahhahaha. hes e best ah. heheh.

hmmm.. im really just.. .
i have no werds to say.
all i wished for is happenin..
slowly. i guess patience is virtue.
hehekz. k now. e pichas!!!

thts e bride!! weeee wit!

bride n me. in e lift!

the cousin. faizal.

the fella was like "eh.. u wearin davidoff game ryt!!

zulaiha!! pls pls take for me.

i wan la!! my fave u noe!!"

n thn i had faizal n dawood both smelling like me! wth!

mumsie!!!

ariffah begam. chellamz.

we haf more pics. soon. to cum.

tts daddy n farhana. my stepsis.

early mornin of e day after wedding.

with amulu n slpy me.

as u can see. he loves this particular bodypart of mine.

tts him. hes e onni baby hu

loves to shower!!!!

hehehe. me loves my amulu!

the dae aftr e wedding.

with my soon to b sis in law.

shes just. TAAALLLL.

ps. shes e one gettin married this dec!

this baby here. stole my heart.

shafiq. supppaaa adorable!

im wearing the STICKER pottu.

at werk. for fun. since it was deepavali.

bt less thn half an hour into werk.

it went missing. haha.

n this my ppl. is farhan g.

in costume. scarin e hell outta me.

hudaya decided to surrender herself.

after all e stress at werk.

sum ghostly pumpkin.

again. farhan. in an ugly mask.

oh well..

tts abt it for now.

yest zura msged me.

"zulaiha wds tt orange thingy in e middle of e flyer?"

so amidst werk i went to look up.

n realised tt thrs a HUUUGE PUMPKIN.

in e middle hahha.

since my dearest werks in

maybank she has a full frontal view of e flyer.

n u noe shes soo nice.

whnever she sees e flyer she gets reminded of me.

swt la kan!?!? hehehe.

niwaes. im gona meet here in a while.

we lunchin after god noes how long.

lots to catch up on.

hmmmmm.

another dae of werk after tt.

weeeeeeee.

lotsa love darlinz.

me loves u all very2 much

muackz.

julie.b.

2008-10-25T11:26:00.002+08:00

il nvr be a hypocrite.
correct.
im given the choice to do
what i feel is right.
i haf to be strong.
i haf to stop all this cryin
cos its bringin me no whr at all.
its tym i acted matured.
look things .. fadie said.
its abt how i look at things.
true enuff..
juz for how long am i gona b like this?
i need sum peace too..
i guess its just e negativity surroundin e issue
tts makin me wanna curl into a ball
n hug my bear n cry nonstop.
bt other thn tt... besyds tt..
i shud start thinking.. abt evryting.
mebe i will accept things.
i guess i will..
im not a stone hearted person.
my mum was. n if shes makin an effort.
i will do e same for her sake.
for the first tym. my dad talked to me abt evryting.
in a matter of half an hour.
n i feel guilty. apparently for no reason.
bt to see him cry. tt hurts. really does.
i guess im not sha.
she will not b moved at all.
once decisions made. no goin bac.
bt i love my family.
i duwanna see evryone goin thru shit.
n esp whn im one of e reasons.
im one jumbled up peice of shit now.
i need to divert all my attn to e hse werk now.
later e whole family will b at amk.
im stayin over. shd i carry e baby?
shd i try n mingle?
sha wil hate me for e rest of my life.
bt its my decision. if mum can do it. i can .
nw im rmbr kather. his situation.
n how he is happy. cos he chose to b.
slowly la. one thing at a tym.
lets just get over with this wedding.
nw stuff to do b4 wedding.
* my nails!!! [surprisingly mumsy is ok wif me nail polish!]
* my face!!! [fahs beauty recipe]
* lingerie!!! [haha. as usual. weeeeeeee]
* haf as much fun as i can.

yeah. once in a while. i can b a vainpot.
eh hello. kan wedding? nk glamour sikit?

e song. one step at a tym
really workin things out fr me now.
lotsa love my lovelies.
n oh. last nyt. i found a new LB.
all e way at nyt safari.. e halloween fest getups n all.
e horror tram ryd. n all.
thanks to HUDAYA!!! heheh. all free. hehe.
n oh. zhiyang. my scared partner for e day.
heheheh. i gt nth to say... *winks*
whahah
buhbyeeeeeeeeeeeee.
muackz
julie.b.

2008-10-24T11:35:00.002+08:00

this is suppa funny
i bn tryin to get e url. bt useless .
cant. bt puhlease go n watch.hehehhe.

david guetta & chris willis
LOVE IS GONE!
e vid is sooooooo funny! heheh

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=beGjncfEPt8

gt nth much to say.
a boring day for now.
hope to haf lotsa fun later n tml.

n oh. sudenly..
my frens get drunk n tok nonsense.
one almost cried.
another sounds horny.
OMG. wtf!?!?!

OH WEL..
lifes stil gd. gona go get sum
last min stuff for e wedding.
todae n tml.
meet e bestie oso. tml i guess.
poor thing gt wisdom tooth growin!
omg. farhan oso!! i hope mine wil sudenli
dissappear. hahaha. no show! tt wud b fantastic.

wahahhah. deepavali is cuming.
n oh. gues wad. such a funny dream!
i murdered sumone frm werk.
nama dia.. kate. PM. heheheh.
khakis will noe. wtf!!

k roger tt.
nw nk gi mandi!
n im outta da hse!!!!!!!

lotsa love crazy ppl.
oh no I RMBRED!
yest it rained crazy.
so much of fun on deck.
wearin rain coats. holdin onto umbrellas..
n thn using e squiggies to clear all e water.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
k da.
muackz
julie.b.

2008-10-21T10:48:00.006+08:00

lotsa things to ponder over.
"y do u act like ur e victim here?"
my wedding. [I NOE!! ITS ABSURD!]
n me.

jb was fun yest.
to sum point.
got all me saris.
hehehe. n punjabi suit.
one wierd thing.
was gona cross e road n thn
i heard sumone jus pass by screamin "julie!!!"
great. nw my mum wil think im doin illegal business in jb.
hahaha. nt tt i care..wait. actually i do. cos.
shes a stereotypical woman. frm e ancient tyms.

lets cum to e qn.
were on our way bac
169 bus. n thn just thinkin noe.
me n my imagination. wierd theories. etc etc
n thn abt e wedding this sundae.
hus gona help me tie my sari. blah blah.
n thn it occured to me tt my
dads second family is gona b thr as well.
tt kinda just shut all e happiness out.
i didnt say aniting. bt mum juz sorta had to look at my face.
n went "i can guess wd ur thinkin abt"
n thn she went "y do u act like ur e one hus victimised?"
tt caught me off guard. didnt say a word. n weee. she continued.
claims tt few yrs bac she was in my position.
angry. pissed off. irritated. to haf to go thru such shit.
n sha n i were pretty laid bac abt e whole thing.
n now. whn shes tryin her level best to adapt to evryting
takes things into hand n make an effort to keep tings pleasant.
sha n i are becumin rebels. she doesnt understan aniting.
n shes upset tt no one is supportin her.
k. now. whr do i even start.
"pretty laid bac?!?!" U GOTTA B KIDDIN MOTHER!!!!!
my loved ones noe me. im sumone
hu can juz bottle up evryting.
n dun say a word. cos its gona hurt.
be it me. or e person im tokin to.
i keep evryting insyd. shut. n onni
whn i really cant take it. i burst out.
not very healthy. bt i dun haf a choice at all.
cos its not like if i say sth. or demand for sth.
its not like its gona b granted.
i dun haf a say at all.
tts e truth.
mum claims e qns i ask now. n the things i do now.
shd haf bn done yrs bac. not now.
i mean cumon. how long can i juz keep my fkin mouth shut?
its seriously PAINFUL. u noe P.A.I.N.F.U.L.!!!!!
i respect evryone. n e decisions they make.
bt no one bothers to tell me. or atleast consider me important
to let me noe of wds happenin.
so tts ok now. its ok. bt seriously.
is it my own fault tt i feel this way?
its like askin me to put up this front just for e sake of my family.
i haf bn doin a pretty gd job all these yrs. yes.
bt now things haf just gone too far.... i dunoe wd to say.
i noe its all abt e mindset. hw i look at things.
if i dun think it as a problem. it wil nvr b one.
bt im just another fkin gal in this fkin werld.
like i haven gt aniting to grip on.
it wil take tym. for me to like just ..
ok i haf already shut one huge eye.
now u askin me to go arnd blind..
n how is tt fair? hw e hell is thr FAIR AT ALLLLLL?!?!?

nw for e sake of my mother. my sister.
n my father. i haf to act the gd gal.
like my mum asked. ok true enuff im not e "victim"
bt hey. i haf eyes. n i have a huge HEART.
i go by evryday hopin its gona b gd.
bt whn its abt this issue. evrything just shuts up.
i cant think rationally. i keep wantin to jus. kill sumone
shout at anione. ask evryone to go n die.
is it wrong? n amidst of all this.
this stupid tears keep makin me feel like im so totally useless.

which is y. i made a decision to go overseas.
i duwanna stay in this horrible place.

an escape? maybe.
bt hello i haf to see e werld to.
i haf to learn to b independant too?
if nt nw thn whn?
mum thinks im crazy.
i think she is nuts.
study overseas. haf fun. do gd in sch.
get a gd job. n settle dwn.
wd so difficult? of cos thr are many things we haf to look at
bt atleast i haf a plan. bt no one is hearin me out?!
this no. tt no. evrything no.
n thn sudenli they are tokin abt my freakin WEDDING!!
like seriously WTF!?!??!

i duwanna stay here cos im always worried.
im always feelin dwn. i need sum fresh air.
i wanna try sth new. start with an entire new beginning.
study well n survive on my own.
im not sayin i hate my family duwana cum bac nimore
im not a bitch. i wil cum bac. of cos.
bt i wanna live on my own.
i duwan this family shit thing to folow me all my life.
as much as i dun want it to. it will. i haf to face it.
let me GOOO will u all?!?
mum says she cannot live without me.
sis says do wadever u want. u can live on ur own.
n dad. he has e final say.
im sick n tired of listenin to my folks n folowin their rules.
totally sick.
sundae is e dae.
i hope sum strangers wun ruin my dae.
im tryin very hard to live with this sickening situation.
bt i wil leave very soon.
this stupid thing cant just eat up my life.
n oh. fyi. my dad wants to cook for my wedding.
aaaaaargh. wedding?? MY WEDDING!?!
u ppl are sick in da brain.
julie.b.